blake uptin

 let's collaborate so seriously where are all those different creative types out there the painters comedians actors actresses alcoholics nightlifers musicians business men philosophers athletes d list celebs amateurs poets politicians military family friends disabled let's do a podcast conversation at my place without you nuking my toilet so how many are still that professional or able to do that full time and other factors about it let's get together and socialize let's trade tips or observations let's share genius ideas um who'd like to do like a joe rogan podcast and have that published i have many interests and am open to going over to your place and documenting it i can put it on one of my blogs or share it online um to entertain each other um let's talk about art music heroes hobbies interests goals projects all that sounds like a good time experiences lessons look at my background and some of my many accomplishments i got my formal mos with the army ...

 why do so many people talk crap about me like what did i do i was minding my own business living my own life when additionally people can camouflage the message by using double talk to basically still accomplish the same mission of slandering me there's people who will repeatedly only see me as a asian man who is around his parents well isn't my explanation pretty good i don't want to go back in the army or am i the token minority character doomed to be the butt of all jokes going out i'd try to socialize only to get complaints and be left alone having years of shoddy service countered with at least i am not getting arrested instead um i'd basically go to the bar alone and not get to really do anything but drink and go home again there was a law suit my dad had with a guy who kept gossiping about us it says we won and he'd have to pay some fine but i seriously doubt he did or ever will and additionally i bet he still is doing the same thing right now talking cr...

 here's open enrollment for my concept so healthcare is sanity or drugs then there's some form of education training for some comradery effect and social organization with opportunities and a game element of immersion and fantasy or let's bring university to everyone see the stadium with townies too or the seedy sides of black market drug deals so it's like detailing us what are you into and getting better at that while not leaving others abandoned or stranded so to think of visuals associated with it college movies or adventures um the drug cult classics um war cinematography and story lines and history um getting the whole experience a campus a professor a cafeteria the joys of les miserables the french revolution by victor hugo with jean valjean and the commissioner um the students and the government the schooling system and degrees and clubs and faculty so from your house have a desktop computer with internet um be able to buy some books to study maybe an autobiogra...

 so at least i wasn't hurt in the process of finding out some of these later jaded responses on life so here's one do not approach strangers to talk to them that will get the cops called on you despite if you were at night clubs or other parties the world is censored i've been a banned book for years with little progress i had my high quality instagram for a few years but i didn't get that many follows up front later on i think i had maybe about one hundred people associated with my content so life is so regulated you have to be in power or maybe dealing with government to really socialize everything can be so policed the schools or other organizations to be left with the realization that you're all alone and no one really cares um i can't make homemade videos of some places i'll get a complaint and probably the cops called one me which i don't want i'd be better off listening to the law enforcement and showing me deleting the footage and being compl...

 to be pessimistic so arriving at conclusions that a formal marriage could just be problems and more problems um but not for everyone some people i respect that can get married once and forever but for me many reasons why it never worked that way not to be mean but i even got to where i could think a dog is better than a wife my dog will be loyal to me forever and mostly not that difficult ever really i have a poodle now that i like he's a form of service animal i think it's called a emotional support animal am i just better off alone so i have to provide for myself in order that i live in 'reality' i have to pay my bills and for some of that i'd have to do things my way i'll buy great value at walmart from time to time um i have to stay accountable here's another one the dangers of white women disease so the women who seem attractive if they are attainable could be that many other people have already done that and in the process generated some viral disease...

 ok so here was some of it later i'd think of it like a reality tv program 'dirtiest jobs' so it'd be basically me getting sherpa'd straight through tradoc into my unit so my roommate i met instantly latched on and pulled me through some of that stuff while i was somewhat incognito so he made sergeant that's a huge thing um i remembered the other day he was reading middle march which later i learned dealt with where the bass player i liked was from bill wyman he made it through this like thousand page book so he'd eat fish like everyday and be ultra focused on the military um i thought he actually returned after getting out but he was a mystery so he did have some tattoos and later i was introduced to the red hot chili peppers from him so he kept his deal and got my home again unscathed back to my parents with all my benefits um i thought he groomed me through some immature stuff and may have coached me up on how to get through everything without any trouble...

 the sgt wilson days were actually quite bitter sweet there was a few times i was feeling like i was getting tortured but also i think i heard i got this instead of the actual stuff so that was a thousand times better and along the way i had some good times a good deed he did was my account was being like almost locked up and there was psychward stuff but so he went with me to the gamestop on post before it closed and helped me buy my first xbox 360 (way late to the party on that) and a copy of fallout 3 um the wtb was depressing at times but also it was a ton of fun i had my pseudo apartment the 3rd floor room to myself with the balcony right by the chow hall and the day room i'd get around post and there'd be the duty van too when i started hanging around barreiro and we'd go to the hotel off post drinking coronas in the hotel pool and leaving the barracks or when he helped me buy a used dodge caravan from a nco and i took that eventually home and had a flip in it i fell ...

 the ice cream shop so yeah here's what i later dubbed 'dead end jobs' no where to go and additionally it's basically not worth it at all the gas and the lifestyle not getting enough to eat not being allowed to have free ice cream as was once agreed upon so there's this you want like the whole rockstar production of this but at the end i never get paid or rewarded i just get used and treated like crap over and over again at some point i can't do it anymore no more you all using me i'm moving on um there was me being what i thought a celeb was i'd smoke weed i'd drink underage um i'd gotten into college so what all that amounted to was in some peoples eyes no skills and debt on the way and being essentially useless and unable to provide for myself it's not funny anymore so how did the great henry rollins do it who i saw twice um i remember one time i was minding my own business working my job when a different clique from public school comes to...

 always a veteran being frozen permanently at that age so it was fun when i'd see all the people hanging out at the washington dc va medical center it'd remind me of tradoc when people got their privileges you'd see people go get fresh civilian clothes at the mall so being stuck at that age forever that arrested development if you will so remembering little parts there leaving home for the first time for some or getting exposed to a new region so that impact on young lives with families that care about them um remember how that started the recruiter and then in processing seeing people go through the system the lines at meps and bct getting issued clothes and getting our heads shaved getting 'indoctrinated' and having to learn the rules and the military bearing that fragile young picture of us at the end of childhood and now adults no more teenage years um me at nineteen going to fort jackson south carolina fort meade maryland fort gordon georgia schweinfurt germany...

 so at the end of the day are we all just 'written off' as 'tokens' so as a child watching the cartoon programming on nickoldeon remember the character gerald arnold's best friend as an adult does he become 'just' the black kid instead of all he really was is barack obama known for anything more then being a black guy does it go back to that heritage to touch on this more there's when i took online school accredited univ classes and one topic was what you identify as your profile for who you are your own description so to describe myself um i am a half breed or a mutt in some ways (and having read entertaining fantasy stuff on dnd things in that universe hobgoblins for example) to some people but i may have seen myself as more than just a half korean kid or a half white kid um there'd be famous reps i've paid too to reference known for more then being a minority so not getting type cast so much and only able to play one part having more depth and...

 welcome to my online cafe lounge so there's the whole cleanliness being a prescription drug head um there's the lounge so having some tea from the keurig saving money doing it my self diy there's having the internet and the computer and the art station for studio projects so the grossness the gimmicks the clothes outfits um the setting any music try amazon music for ten dollars a month unlimited browsing um there's interacting with others a quip in a line or being in public though the censorship and regulations with that a good book to savor so the headiness of it the mentality um free time unlimited potential um so to be at my place and do some projects blogging paintings surveys coming up with new ideas to think of how cool sam walton the original walmart founder was his story so my social media being open and ready for anyone having my smartphone on me anyone want to catch up or chill facebook is there what to do with the day go to someones place and enjoy each othe...

 are your kids screwing up or is some of this some what of a unavoidable apocalyptic scenario unfolding for everyone and seemingly unavoidably so some of this would be like the drugs is there actually probably a good explanation to that for those users so there's 'reality' you could get hit with a 'mental illness' diagnosis but is that pseudo science and hearsay in addition to being 'stigmatized' so then there's the outlaw stuff turning to recreational drugs marijuana and even escalating to heroine and other options along the way lsd so are you still in touch with your children do you still have a relationship with them or have they gone their own way to be independent and with their new friends see riffs that can form like the whole college campaign getting a degree for what ever reason what ever happened to so and so wasn't he a good kid why don't you talk to him anymore so there'd be the depressing realism 'you can't afford that...

 here's a very specific memory i had so i was starting middle school so excited with that there was aol instant messenger and i really enjoyed tech deck finger boards but my parents only let me get so much so i had to make do with what i had i even remember my friend who had a bunch of stuff i was envious of the ramp set and other stuff the pair of tony hawk shoes i remember how into skateboarding i was so i'd get the ccs mail order catalog and wish so bad i had stuff from there my grades were usually pretty good and with that my parents would let me get a pair of skate shoes at the mall i remember the years doing that summer and fall the school year and staying active with youth sports football basketball baseball when we moved to alexandria it was amazing i remember when it began we did some stuff like we'd go to apple bees and i'd order the chicken tenders with honey mustard um there'd be public school football games to go to with my friends being a kid i had a f...

 i am institutionalized so some of where this started when i was 19 years old i went and enlisted in the army since then i have been a part of the system even as a veteran my life is lawful and orderly i have to follow the rules and there's no crazy stuff to really do i don't do substance abuse anymore though i have my legal prescription meds for mental illness i don't gamble also for fear of consequences debts another would be i don't really have any sex i may masturbate but that's about all and there's troubles with all the vices as i've said in other posts i am uniform now i get my hair cut maybe every other week some times i wear office attire i go to my appointments that i've had since the end of being a teen ager when there was formations in the army all that rigmarole to be obedient i have to submit to a doctor i am no free and in control of my own life i have moderation there's the psychiatrist and the caregivers my parents so being regulated...

 the joys of being 'that poor' so when you got nothing and your spirits are still high to believe something will work out some how so dealing with hunger being broke unemployment undiagnosed mental illness drug dealers um how that time can be appreciated so even dealing with pseudo 'homelessness' where can you afford to stay and even getting to the point where your semi 'squatting' somewhere still having a good attitude to be thankful for all the blessings around and maybe fall into a state of manic depression to counter the troubles to find joy in life when things can have upsides and downsides to 'keep on the sunny side' remembering how much fun i was having while destitute nothing to my name and additionally dealing with debts my student loan hanging over my head my couch to sleep on my clothes filling that room notebooks to come up with ideas to jot down in um a 'dead end' job being in another city previously all the partying and that leaving...

 i can like when things are a little 'ghetto' or seem funny or maybe another one would be a little 'trashy' so i got a really good and1 hoody that i thought encompassed a lot of entertaining good feeling things and the price on it was cheap too i really remember when i was dropping out of vcu how much fun i was having living life i had endless friends to call i was skinny and hungry um i had big dreams and optimism i remember getting not very much there but really visualizing and 'tripping' at the frozen moment of my life i love the gimmicks and marketing um it can seem comforting and enjoyable like the line of celebrity chef frozen dinners gordon ramsay kardea brown andrew zimmern guy fieri tgifridays to name a few of those the picture of me poor and having a good time getting a good pressing of elvis presley the king of rock and roll so some booze some extravagance some black culture the fun of it the thrills but the dangers too and risks so being safe instead...

 so the momentum i had when i first moved to luray and the daydream i had so it was thinking i was similar to the rolling stones with exile on main street where the story was they moved to france and recorded a new album instead of quitting so the glory of bill wyman him being a member and later collecting his paychecks from his portion of the work um when i was not quite an 'outlaw' but making sure i didn't have any more legal troubles coming my way so that pause so being in the background and not being troublesome being on safe ground not going too far heeding warnings too me at my big house with my guitar or the dog um how much fun i was having painting paintings and lounging around getting comfortable in page valley so times at my parents pool so many times daydreaming about getting pizza from somewhere but not really doing that to save money documenting that period too the picture of the stones in france the band the friendship charlie watts mick jagger keith richards ...

 some 'getting high on life' so a next answer would be the 'marketing' what to buy the joys of retail so what can you spend money on that will provide you more than satisfaction elation some true inner happiness from the transaction shopping so look at the picture see the people supper happy with what they bought read into what exactly is entered in in the listing fantasize about what your buy will do for you think of looking online browsing around or going in person think about used stuff and resellers there's the 'product' some new gimmick or item that'll be a miracle worker think of the nintendo game cube during the 2000s think of cartoons on the cable television think of chat messengers with the internet think of different addictions the substance abuse so having a fantasy see the rpg miniatures see the hobby supplies art resources paints brushes canvases to come up with a good portfolio to accumulate and grow so imaginging something see watching a g...

 i am my parents son and it is nice to be around family so that sense of humor and comfort to see my uncle when he'd be with my grand dad there'd be the golf course west virginia and the holidays seeing him have a hearty appetite when the spread was put out being at my parents house when we do our trips being in the basement having my dog with me being family when i used to live with them full time being in public school high school going shopping with them picking through marshalls at beacon mall at the top of the hill now sticking together um times in public daydreaming about being a black star nfl player to appreciate my mom and another would be remember sergeant wilson and his mom so there was her picture in his office and him going to church every sunday good times getting italian food from the restuarants so the pizza sometimes um frank pepe's off duke street 'old reliable' my parents being married and more years going past then the times making homemade movie...

 i appreciate being a veteran and try not to get confused or misled or offended with others so i have had many blessings as a result of my military service i had great times and fun adventures too it may have been a very smart good decision that boosted me up i am thankful for my education additional training i received certificates too all that stuff making me more professionally skilled and better qualified my two mos's journalism public affairs and commo radio maintainer um using all that military education too i got to see some different parts of the world how fun germany was before the base closed or how much fun georgia was and another was fort meade maryland and fort jackson getting to go to a coed basic training and start those early years i had a va home loan that probably helped me out a lot that was with my first house at cavalier drive maybe about a decade there paying my mortgage getting to be a home owner and having some property management too the joys of that first ...

 so here are some things i like to keep on me: messenger bag pouch wallet keys pocket sketchbook and lead pencils cough drops dog poop bags & dog leash a bottle of unsweet tea my smartphone optional accessories a hat a bracelet a hoody etc a van holten pickle in a pouch a travel bag if i am staying the night my cpap so the whole ready to go part bring with me essentials parts like settling in at the office or being in bed at night with the tv or stopping at a restaurant for a meal or if i walk to the shopping center or the hypothetical scenario if i were hanging out with a friend like having a jam session on guitar or lounging and watching the day go past so having my little things with me able to pay for my food or any other shopping with my wallet able to get into the house or the office or my car with my keys the option to sit down and draw with my sketchbook and lead pencils ready for the dog if he's with me with my dog poop bags pure leaf unsweet tea bottles the caffeine f...

 so thinking of a comparison between my life and that of ebenezer scrooge the charles dickens story a christmas carol so there's later my lesson to be miserly no more frills and instead even using the generic brand to save money parts like not getting married or learning to party or not seeing the blessings i had while others suffered or the part about his old business partner coming back to haunt him so that literature and tale similar things that've happened in my own life so now how i can be charitable making donations regularly to the catholic poor box my business writing and accountability staying 'out of the red' so my parents them like the cratchit family and with my nephew maybe like tiny tim will he survive my making sure i am ok paying my own way at times it seeming like there's no other way to learn savings not to get in trouble with debts and poverty so working even during christmas no breaks being there all year round no slipping then the neighbors seei...

 so seeing little things here and there that'd remind me back to rva with the stoners and dealers and that 'black market' um knowing someone who left off with involvement in that stuff so all the highs associated with the illegal drugs that whole social work circle though the bottom line of it being 'federally' illegal how quick it can turn into a downward spiral of hard drug abuse and the others out there comedians and musicians people paying and living that bohemian way with morning daylight glow and more substance abuse booze tobacco pills hallucinogens shrooms lsd ecstasy molly pain killers fetanyl meth crack cocaine heroine there'd be the students and the townies thinking the parties have different underlying things going on seeing the students on the weekend driving up and seeing a little bit of the city hangovers kegs frat houses sex the distribution the trafficking so someones place they are staying at and the substance abuse having contraband parapherna...

 the high that is loading up with groceries so going to the store for me lately it's been walmart going aisle by aisle and finding some good snacks that joy the retail experience too so what to get the usuals and see if there's anything new out there this time being at home and having a freshly stocked kitchen the fridge the freezer the pantry so times like night eating or daydreaming about late night tv one time seeing a guy in a power chair who was pale white who had on a late night shirt and looked like he was having a real good time that was over at national harbor by the waterfront while we were leaving the garage so the high from food the endorphins in the brain that good time downing something the joys of filling up to be in a good mood or even experiencing side effects that make me hungry and thus eating food getting a little fatter too but maybe that's for the best the comforts of home the peacefulness and all the money to save instead of going for fast food or oth...

 ok so kicking this off um one picture would be having drugs in my system and being home from college so how to achieve that high without doing drugs like when it'd be my old room but the return from my stay in vcu the apartment the college campus this city the train ride home the excitement wanting to go out and party every night that youthfulness too when the clothes looked like tasteful cars the different vintages too to think of the story of robert pattinson and his parents having a dealership that sold sought after rare cars that coolness the coolness of michael f's dad so that'd be like being a neighborhood kid and walking over to his dad's house the bachelor pad the lulls before he'd prep everything the cooking up foods queso wings beer and a movie and when he'd go drive to go to a real good buffet and it was other stuff the last days of public school or how cool now these days the marketing looks on the ads for thanksgiving and holiday and in general foo...

 a phenomenon really thankful for these 'tiny' helper brains that are always there for me so some of that would be remembering when i was in ait in georgia and there'd be people there younger then me who could be helpful with solving my problems i'd think like these 'lesser' educated can be cute and so sweet with helping me like how to do something when i was trying to write a book and i just started doing it i put pen to paper everyday and soon enough had a box full of book materials i wrote that improved as i continued doing it and some of that could've been from my peers times i could just be in public and this little voice pipes up and says something that's like oh you're probably right i shouldn't do that or here's what i should consider like times things could maybe sort of be out of my budget my price range so times too people knowing the boundaries things like 'we've already tried this' sic it doesn't work like that or...

 i am so thankful for my education so some things i'd think of was all the stuff that'd later stem off the initial schooling different things that seemed to catch up with me that were savored and greatly appreciated how it'd later unravel so when i was scheduled for nightclasses at vcu in richmond virginia 804 area code so later i'd be a regular with the event nightlife mostly around washington dc all those famous people i'd see through the years and the drinks i'd have too being a good member of the audience anderson cooper dead kennedy's municipal waste iron and wine phil collins ex hex bat fangs titus andronicus bob mould fu manchu conor oberst david lowerie the orwells guns n roses joel osteen waiting for godot dracula to name some seu jorge white mystery cloud nothings coheed and cambria biz markie so when my major at umuc was communication and i'd later have my own blog or how the minor i had was marketing and later i'd do lots of advertisement...

 my time with my first unit so the flight to germany landing in frankfurt a shuttle ride and eventually making it to schweinfurt so a little quickly learning i was in a 'third world country' the technology the everyday life so the sunlight being different everything different my time in processing the tour around the base the two sides conn and ledward the old nazi buildings some still having swastikas on them um hearing a rumor our base would be shutting down soon and a few years later it was closed in a news story i saw online wondering about where i once was when i first went awol thinking if i didn't i'd lose my legs the war on terror so money i saved up when the joseph gordon levitt movies were in theatres inception and looper um the wall outlet the architecture the not as tall buildings the 'bavarian' style buildings the bathroom the guitar instrument i bought from the music store having cigarettes to smoke the gypsies nearby the turkish selling gyros or d...

 my cousin might've played a big role in my education which  i now dub 'public school' but what i was  getting at was in some ways being not necessarily intentionally an outlaw but at the same time maybe being a little 'chaotic' or wild so another one would be i'll ask my nephew or niece what they  think of harry potter what my point was harry potter always gets in trouble and breaks the rules but he's the hero of the story and living the fun life these days i don't do that anymore really once was enough i learned substance abuse as a teenager i'd drink alcohol that was scrounged up from my peers as a kid there'd be that paired with church rock shows so that good time i learned about weed during eight grade and there were those long summers i didn't complain i didn't tattle tale i'd just let things roll off like fortunately i wasn't ever really in any fights um i did have awareness of a 'local militia' there was a skateboa...

 the 1990s are not the 1960s so other eras glamorized and celebrated and what to do with this new generation so no more early rolling stones different times and complete unknowns not knowing who will be the big winner at the end the changes the internet the technology the presidents so moving on and not holding onto the past those iconic memories the history so the hippies the beatniks the mods then different drugs too gateway drugs and clubs which venue which host the changing of the times different pivotal news stories the vietnam war the civil rights movement world war ii 9/11 those affecting the kids of that period now things are different and those photographic events are past it's not like that happened yesterday and time keeps moving along so the news the current president joe biden before that donald trump before that barrack obama so there agendas their campaigns their politics that on the different age groups kids teens young adults 30-34 the different age groups on recei...

 is masturbation better than sex so there's 'reality' all the bad things that can happen with sex and love so avoiding those and 'getting your rocks off' um is that basically the 'best case scenario' on that a selfish indulgent vice to have see how many famous guitarists there are and that being some of the 'wankers' um keith richards john lennon kepi ghoulie john nolan conor oberst dave matthews jack johnson rod stewart joe strummer woody guthrie bob dylan chuck berry the list goes on so is it better to avoid divorce garnishments abortion getting 'the papers' instead to just do it yourself to get it done on your own um to be a selfish greedy miser instead of someone who got taken advantage of or other countless troubles stemming from sex um the accessibility to use a smartphone and wifi to pick up internet for free legal porn um not dealing with other problems to look out for yourself so being alone um not having to work with a relationship ...

 to be somewhat 'spirit broken' so not doing things as i once had different reasons not wanting the cops called not wanting to be reprimanded hearing and heeding warnings to avoid 'pseudo injuries' so adjusting and making changes at some parts so not going as i once had like when i was going to be a guitarist different cop outs different excuses different lessons different explanations when things change getting older and there being different factors a car a mortgage for example um a paycheck so what's worth still doing and the reasons to stop not wanting to get consequences or irreversible damages to see so many of my heroes stories and hear of some deal breaker somewhere in there story that makes the whole thing seem not worth it to see others and even be a little bit fearful of threats some face made at me some warning some snippet said within earshot some promise so there's the haters and the antagonists who'll discourage you or derail you so dealing wi...

 what really does anything besides 'vices' so there's sex or masturbation there's gambling dungeons and dragons there's substance abuse heroine marijuana cigarettes alcohol all of that gives you joy signals to your brain but what else is there the downside to the vices is there can be innumerable real dangers with it so what is a safe alternative or other source of fun what can you still do that'll be alright and not leave you with cancer debt hiv to name a few bad outcomes so looking into my research on this what i have found thus far would be there's hobbies those can be sources of joy to do something like a 'pastime' to even watch television or dvds or internet too there's what i dub the 'artschool habits' all those creative projects to get into and progress with to grind and accumulate and even build a portfolio of completions of the hobbies then there's food so that is a troublesome one too though how easy it is to get fat so tha...

 not being a 'homeless' musician so knowing how far to take it when to stop when to keep going um like the american ninja contest on tv where they have to go through a obstacle course lol um to present it right and get a good 'soundcheck' on it so being a 'household name' being settled down life after the early stuff um enjoy the present day future after all that was done so being there and having good ideas to share um not being too loud not being obnoxious in the wrong way so no tour for me a few shows here and there through the years and my reputation being valid being able to do my stuff how i want to in a way that others like playing my aunts house at thanksgiving and at her birthday other informal stuff done doing covers of others all those names i can reference like a ernie ball strings sponsor list um being able to entertain but too not having to do that anymore moving on still doing some new stuff here and there and being accessible being able to do it ...

 thanks to the mil survivors and affiliates so being aware of the great assistance and help from them so i can remember being exposed to mil affiliates in public school it'd be mostly the kids of veterans and their deep insight on 'best case scenarios' how many people remember how cool my cousin was so thinking of him with his dad a vietnam veteran and that era seeing those people at the washington dc veterans affairs hospital um other eras not so much of the greatest generation left world war two veterans so being comforted things like learning illegal drugs could make you funny or slight breaking of the law could be better than not doing that and having some people to cover for you a prisoner someone with at tattoo thought i heard of that before um the coverage the payment getting compensated for things that were definitely useful so seeing others make their gig off that musicians and bars different phases of things i went through the hobby club the restaurants so despite...

the presentation so here's one i'm focusing on when there's like the college experience or the royal treatment and little nuances from where ever i was influenced like british tea with the plate underneath and a quaint tea party so here's another the salsa at the restaurant that nice little detail so you get your party there then you have a nice little opener a appetizer a bonus and you can snack on that though there can be other stuff that's fun too like cigarettes and that whole department of substance abuse stoners gamblers promiscuous ones but beware the consequences oldies um the staging so when everything is presentable or even on blast the doll house look the rockstar look other styles the overseas stuff the veteran stuff um things loud um things that look cozy entertaining charming you could see yourself there having a good time other names out there the olive garden to be students dropping in and getting a great time there the unlimited soup and salad deal ...

 to be miserly and do diy stuff so saving money being mindful of that so how far to take it um cutting back on going out to eat not getting caffeinated drinks from the shops instead using a keurig how the money can add up and accumulate while staying 'out of the red' or ways of getting out of debt to improve your credit and where you're at in life so focusing on finance paying the mortgage paying car payments the joys of being accountable um seeing how to trim down or streamline everything so there's getting groceries instead of getting food elsewhere the surcharges and expenses with that tax appetizers the life as a miser to decide what to invest in to care about money to avoid debt to put money into savings to consider things like the generic brand occasionally um to not care what others think and to make progress buying new quality clothes that'll last a while have i lost friends in the process of things like republican politics or staying within my budget i don...

 the suite is nice so there's my parents office in belle haven there's me on the 2nd floor in with my two work spots the desk where i'll blog and use the computer with internet and there's the painting station with some natural light from the window so the whole day ahead of me my whole life to live my dreams to daydream to see what all there is really to do my new brilliant idea i am puzzling out being 'alternatives to drugs and gambling and other vices' avoiding the dangers and risks with that so loving when i read henry miller and he'd talk about his job at the telegraph company doing deliveries as a courier or the neighborhood around there and his personal life his friendships the socializing and hanging out drinks or bumming around um the internet having a presence online so the online cafe here doing things diy um having some unsweet teas throughout the day being able to walk to the shopping center near here or there's the potomac river and all the...

 so here's a question should i keep going with some of my hobbies so one hero i'd reference for that is laird hamilton i saw a movie from him one time it was cool because the director was there that day and the director was a relative of john f kennedy so staying on my a game um the hobbies to pursue so there's all the time and energy for them to think about scheduling all that weight lifting healthy shakes powder fruits and vegetables um to be healthy and exercise a light jog some cardio to keep going as i get older so there's putting forth the effort and too avoiding 'pseudo injuries' so what's the most i can 'get away with' no complaints no cops um so the practice and training the conditioning to stay fit and ready to be prepped for what's next so having the energy and follow up with other hobbies there's making movies there's longboarding when the seasons right um photography with the smartphone um paintings with acrylics and the sket...