blake uptin

 the grocery life so little good eats the money saving the home life with it the whole mindset to it so rare favorite foods found good recipes or easy tastey meals the fun and the budgeting (thinking of like celebs on cribs talking about details) heat up a frozen pizza make ramen with a egg in it pickled stuff  uploads so my comprehensive portfolio um future publication any hard copy choices um getting views getting followers being recognized so as usual new material and new content continued releases follow ups on earlier goals the whole making material to share and all the dynamics too it sketches writings compilations the isbn number making vinyl records getting likes  longterm home ownership so the guest bedroom the master bedroom the cleaners um the studio the office the producing the den the hobbies the cafe the suburbs the detached property the dorm being able to pay it all and plan settling in in the neighborhood the option for it to be walkable or other stuff lon...

 so i've seen the lgbtq flags at lots of bars and even heard of gay bars and gay neighborhoods (and too predominately gay industries and the 'gay mafia') um i was not offended and was tolerant of the openness with what was palpable um later i'd learn that 'sodomy' was something that happens um so some of the stuff flamboyance um secrets like being 'in the closet' so the abbreviation explained lesbian gay bisexual transgender queer too learning that the story can make sense like see the work of marriage and also see the potential for failure with it adultery divorce um see other rumors higher earnings with gays and males  so understanding the sensitivity to it to not make people scared or to hurt their feelings so having connections of different backgrounds and cool sides to it the bohemians the poets the socializing with that so the reasons and logistics behind the lgbtq mindset the background and future from there the organizations and trends   https://...

 so arriving at the conclusion that logically the best case scenario in some ways could be that of disability (influencing factors like looking out for my family too) so that instead of other full time pursuits rock and roll being a guitarist so take the medicine as instructed (don't skip doses) um comply with the doctors orders  so the secure way of getting paid um not going against the status quo and the over ruling leaders different psychiatrists their power and control so this as opposed to other things like how many musicians there are and how many are successful in the long term having seen some of the famous ones different parts about that tatts alcoholism  other lessons changes like not going to the concerts anymore um assimilation military bearing the culture to disability unsweet tea home ownership life with a caregiver life with a therapy dog plans for the future sights of other neighbors  so other things out there um watching cable tv as opposed to 'risky...

 so that is who the war was with from what i was taught so from there um to today maybe noting the somewhat similarity with vietnam (especially politically see the cancellation or civilian controls the voters that also as opposed to wwi wwii) although i haven't had the taste of the middle east as opposed to like pho and bahn mi's (i thought it'd just be a nice paradise to sample the fun and freedom and good time not the wounded warriors) so thinking these people are trouble due to terrorism and further other experts knowledge of this organizations like the taliban and al qaeda so the reality i learned from the processed orders was in some ways peoples lives were being wasted by abusive leaders people made to march ied laden zones (while they are no where near war zones in castles in germany with sexual capability with natives) and become amputees forever and then other suicide traps with conversely the differences like the educateds advantage (officers being wrong) or other...

 so the powerful peoples control over the land um to be naive and think foolishly it'd be ok to go frequent what ever it was the different grocery store (safeway near belle haven instead of giant near bucknell) or different neighborhoods bars (old town arlington) when the firm stop is there (see the examples warned of people with tattoos or incarceration records or other things proudly shown in defeat the divorced the runaways the crazy) waiting to say no and deny you reinforced blocks (to be forever known for being embarrassed permanently) to getting through so yeah you can't do that is a lesson the territorial domain not accepting you or allowing you to visit like the story of the baboons and the hot springs the turf and ruling over that others banished or isolated  immediately being outcast or alienated see minorities or other demographics the 'middleclass' pit against the egostical and elitisms of the fellow man to devastate the other commoner to be ridiculed to be ...

 so how can it be the whole unexplained (and series i'd seen parts of throughout the years linked below) i like those shows like beyond belief fact or fiction but how is it like with todays technology it's unsolved some experts on these topics that i find fascinating pilots going into wormholes with the bermuda triangle aliens robots um ghosts dark arts time travel artificial intelligence scuba divers the titanic the greatest generation the nazis lost or stolen art poltergeists heroes so i enjoy within a certain extent the excitement and thrill of it (not getting scared from it but maybe a slight dab of fear could be fun in the audience) unknowns and chillers um  it's fun to think about stuff too like superstitions or magic or other stuff though not going into delusions um having experienced strange things before um living in germany things that seem beyond reality or peculiar  in my day any slips noticed or weird patterns um hauntings spirituality religion um being enter...

 so this was the story that i had to repeat everywhere i went to to everyone in addition to some tormenting me (actually many hurting me for no reason undeservedly even non mil civs) and taking pleasure in intentionally misunderstanding me so this was some of the story the georgia returnees (so people coming back into the military that being a choice) and then other layers of the cake the drugs (pre legalization and drama from there) and another sort of backdrop forgotten was the pseudo adultery story of when i thought i'd get married so my story i wanted my freedom i was poor um the whole back story to how i ended up enlisted in the military and that story of 'trautmann and burnette' both helping me through tradoc where i got my certificates so other similar stories the les mis victor hugo character jean valjean (a sort of prisoner of the state as a laborer) um the blade runner and total recall from phil dick and other stuff going on too like the holocaust  what i had to g...

 so some of the big successes from the nightclub i didn't get arrested i got footage posted online there were two championship victories i stayed alone i owned a property so after that what got in my head was others statement that it's a gay and jewish industry and i'd never get in so hearing that and maybe some truth despite it being mean or uncensored or potentially incorrect so basically little progress from the begining start off drinking weekly and have a crowd picture then later get a video and in the background the washington dc sports the redskins the nationals the capitals the wizards football baseball hockey basketball um i think it was also a way of staying retired and disabled as opposed to the military when will that ever happen again  mentioned concern for old friends at one point from prior to enlisting in the us army so the drug worlds and that gray area before the bureaucratic changes of the alleged legalization so what was the real goal was it like a casin...

 so first quickly you find you need money to support yourself and thus the previous military direction to today so what is there really to do can't really smoke (high inducing drugs) which previously was introduced and so that being a dead end having seen others older made example over that (loss of retirement or benefits while still somewhat irregardless there's dead ends all over the place) so what all is there to do the hobby communities which ever that is skateboarders longboarders bicyclists gamers video gamers home owners vehicle owners students hobbyists collectors readers writers musicians painters poets voters republicans democrats movie makers um so that countered with which ever barrier or issue is in the way intellegencia (being shutdown from public opinion) so funding participation freedom um so staying with my caregiver parents um loss of ambition or restaurants in moderation groceries costco future planning  a life centered around being a veteran so retirement d...

 so thinking of socializing within my constraints um what friends are out there from the past or new ones (want to do a nearby outing plan an activity with us movies alexandria and luray um what to do) to think of a home owners adventures (have a discussion over caffeine) um entertaining the concepts for company seeing about ladies out there (though maybe determining that being difficult such as pay differences or their ability to survive but still seeing what's out there) um other changes no more drinking no smoking um financial ability what can i afford um my plan to keep my benefits so safety and domestication um no rule breaking or trouble  thinking of old days from when i was younger being in the public school middle school excitement (and more freedom introduced visiting a buddy) high school accessibility walking rock and roll (getting traction with some hobbies studied the cd walkman the pay building) um undergrad univ um getting skills and comrades (first hand life exp...

 so right now being mindful and thinking of a enjoyable presentation the visual to what's happening now and enjoying life what to get into little kickers a book to keep reading miniatures to paint sketchbook blanks to fill out um what channels to watch cable on internet what foods to get so previous things going on school hobbies work getting prepared for tomorrow the future the military  seeing others environment other longterm owners the picture their quarters habits their status and enjoyments any interests the differences between each specific neighbor and that being influenced by surroundings harrisonburg ft belvoir and where to go in the future that course set the trajectory  the sitcom feel the video game withdrawal continued the albums the movies so being here now what's going on what's the tics and habits parents pool catholic weekday mass weekly groceries media to use xbox one book reading fashion shoes  so life being in my thirties helping the family days ...

 so i have lived somewhat pious (hobby purchases and less eating out such as finishing bulk frozen or other savings methods) having budgeted to be minimalistic and professional but now that i am able to i try to regularly donate to charitable causes (the poor box at catholic mass) thinking it'd help me but also it was honorable um thinking of helping people after i had experienced hunger and poverty some religious hallucination this good feeling from helping others um being able to help people with their needs extending out a line of support that position and almost power to be moral and upright to be precise and accountable and able to put forth good energy so despite wealth also seeing dead ends on things and maybe the recent changes from other things less dickens um when there were donations too media collections having gotten to where i am at now and continuing in a good direction 

 as a former smoker this one is enjoyable so it's like some product or 'gimmick' that is really enjoyed even like marketing or visuals about the presentations (to fall for the concept and think it over too) so even like an advertisement that works that being something to find as a source of joy and centering upon um different things presented that are liked different companies even limited editions runs or seasonals things sought after things that sell out stress relief happy inducing anti worry anti anxiety comfortable lasting a bond with materialism instead of a spouse to be alone  groceries blogging miniatures cable tv  my parents pool  the tea brands  my online accounts the dog  reading a good book  the poor box at mass  smartphone  a travel bag  guitar strings 

 ok so how this whole thing started um i was back from the army (and didn't want to go back and the line 'i said no thank you dear old uncle sam) a little more time passed i was on my way out of moving out of my parents house but um i think i arrived at drinking at bars as something to do another thing that lined up with that was i was wondering who todays music was so i'd go to rock and roll hotel black cat 930 club lincoln theatre o'shaughnessy's capital one arena but so what i remember was they were posted at rnr hotel on h st (trivia that used to be where a funeral parlor was) so i was really impressed with the music videos they had on youtube and additionally their youthful splendor they were like ripe teenage boys so also i saw they were on letterman which seemed to build some credibility so my first time seeing them everything was to the peak like the club looked sold out (i think if i remember it did officially sell out on the website i was at a lot of sold ...

freedom not having trouble with the police or courts being able to live my life my way longterm home ownership so owning a detached house and enjoying that furnishings producing so continuing to make material and share that even make progress  disability so meeting the criteria for my mental illness um that paycheck  retirement not working um not returning to duty so mind mapping to the future hobbies practicing my own habits and projects paintings miniatures videos photography blogging music writing piano guitar  my family so help the business um be around my parents and brother  financial well being no debt cash having savings um investments affording my bills  people i knew help for others um  charity making cash donations um  so thinking of the future um how to get ready for those goals um the factors to consider and decide upon what's the best choice

 it is somewhat so tempting you think this is now ok and not an issue and some sort of source of fun recreationally and the habit of it all but then you look at the details and it looks like it is apparently still as i had thought not possible not in the gray but still in the illegal and banned  so below are the official rules according to a thc lobbyist so here's what i take away so it's that based on my experience why it doesn't work here's why so you can have one ounce apparently trouble free but here's what i saw happen to the recreational regular smokers cigs and cannabis it's that immediately like maybe 6 months in everything is immediately shown (and also conversely high prices the premiums to not just get ignored and blocked) that being that there's already breaking the rules to support the habit (like selling being policed i think that used to be 'distribution' was the charge) that being that the penalty rules are already broken people '...

i've seen gamers gamblers national harbor shake shack people eating after long days at the casino (even the semi contact high being near these deprived souls buzzing from their thrill) there's people centering their lives around addictions rpgs (the dungeons and dragons line) war games (historical battles) miniatures (and collectibles) others out there creative types artists the musicians (instrument players rock bands guitarists pianists drummers singers producers rappers dancers other urban ones graffiti artists) even with their own sacrifices and budgeting to get to their goals so people mind mapping to get to the future the video games  so other types out there you can be addicted to drugs or participate in your own capacity as a salesman you can afford your ghetto healthcare (see obama campaign promises) you can figure out how not to get into trouble such as the narcotics anonymous program you can build your circle around fellow drug users the smokers spots a drug house a ...

 basically what i think it is is that there's the lump of 'marijuana' that can also be mixed or stretched with other drugs like cocaine meth spice but so it's that that is the normal thing these days I(see other choices people made avoiding military service or other decisions graduations) and the answer so i guess i'd think it'd not quite be like when you hear someone going to a doctor of psychiatry to talk and have a prescription ordered (though nonetheless just as serious and professional no games just business with the price time ranges and your spot and awareness of alternatives ultimatums serious consequences the homicides) instead this currently seems to be street dealers with years of experience (even seeing openings in public school different truthful and hard lessons) in the business who you have to figure out where you are in it would you take a incentive to sell to help fund your own cost of smoking the sur charges and frequencies of how often to get ...