blake uptin

 so basically this is one source of money (seeing that other things can be good not dealing with the potential dangers or bad hard work low pay as opposed to quick lots of hard cash) that being drug money so how that works um peoples risks and rewards (later terms fortified drug house or growing and legalization) and things getting taken further and further so there's the initial intro and that being distribution so repeatedly selling small amount for a surcharge using a scale to measure a gram or different amounts then exchanging with someone else the transaction for the desired effects the stupor and different details on smoking getting high and that addiction and even when it changes to harder drugs injecting heroine or taking psychedelics or snorting 'blow' so other parts to this um there's importing drugs like going to places that have what's sought there's marijuanna with mexicans and mexico (and issues with border patrol) and amsterdam (with too the red l...

 so here's basically one end the impossible part to keeping a business going (such as my current source of a paycheck being the military) so what i am getting at is it could be very difficult to stay in business like not getting traffick or other issues no one cares to patronize you or maybe that's under what's essentially needed and i saw how the taxes could be crippling there'd be no point to trying because you could do the same thing and in someways be better off on disability  not getting involved with the tax issues and knowing that that can be a danger over jail for that so do nothing and live in a inner bubble of reality  i guess more of that i have for years been somewhat of the thought that 'no one gets one job they keep forever' like you get fired and other stuff can change unless you're like keith richards (a lifetime of guitar) so getting fired and that danger zone of not having a paycheck thus it's not worth the risk  so my unemployment um h...

so how it'd go the day is passing grazing on some snacks in the kitchen in luray or the commute to northern virginia have a stop along the way and get filled up or in alexandria the time up here going out to lunch and dinner how that goes another back in luray would be my parents invite me to the next meal like after sunday mass breakfast or other times unless we decide to have me get picked up and go out somewhere for food so how the day passes or when there was night eating um the days relaxing in luray with cable tv or the background of alexandria the stooges basement the dog and falling asleep after office suite days um the walk up to my parents house and waiting on the meal to be ready later loading the dishwasher with dirty dishes  nice stored foods the sour the creamy the spicy the choices  grocery store walk to safeway or drive to mostly food lion though there's walmart too pickles ranch nacho cheese cheetos (curls jalapeno flaming hot) crackers cheez its  deli sa...

 the church 30th anniversary star fish tour sold out so recently thinking how i have made it to church basically every sunday and another having some confidence with previous parts so i think this traced back to a birchmere night it was great no issues everything tight and firm um i think it was mind mapping to the future (and trying to remember many others through the years their individual specialness seu jorge or guitars) fugazi the argument i was in middle school and my friend and i went to old town and went to a cd store and i bought maybe two that at the time were firm and afterwards extremely good maybe too a part about like depressing sides to aging like my parents being ok but so this was huge another part was that later i'd go to the clubs and have a great time and everything went ok no issues red nike baseball cleats am vets so we just moved i think at the time i was in love with marley k but so i was playing youth sports my dad would couch i remember people throughout t...

the screws thom slick henry rollins black flag ian mackaye fugazi minor threat dave grohl (northern va) the owners dante gray matter al laura ex hex keith morris circle jerks bad brains loud boyz rory sheridan  darkest hour theivery corporation 18th lounge dot dash dave chappelle  bacchae others  dave matthews (charlottesville) municipal waste iron and wine gwar (rva) locals met maybe smaller bill daly insurgence and crooked beat records (old town) burd b and mike r (wphs) will j sundials corey (richmond) nic d (northern va duke ellington school for the arts scholarship) rattler tony and art and their dad (cavalier dr) bobby faithful the kidnapping (fredericksburg) chris b star lit eyes (fort hunt) major s mr feel good (alexandria) peyote pilgrim jesse t  so the capital um the look of the district of columbia through the day the evening (cross the woodrow wilson bridge through maryland how many times with that) there um the other neighbors navy and marines the museum...

so i'd think of when hanging out with dudes (or women though both haven't happened in a long time for various reasons) different insights that people could have to improve things or the perspectives free time what to do being hosted um when some one can help and maybe their backgrounds on that cooter's in luray or 711 food um joining the military watching cable tv um donating clothes  so not focusing on other peoples resume the formal educations where they're from the biography to that um peoples advice or little lines overheard in public useful truths to heed such as warnings too  so what'd be the help sought on this from the people um i guess what's next the future so being okay with the va those rules um i guess i think the smart safe choice was quitting the other hobbies  um when i'd hang out with my older brother and his friends william with domino's and drinking wyatt when he visited his dad who went to vietnam um mike and riding long boards outsid...

 trades you could consider a different route but also note some advantages to paying for some schooling like wise lessons on what happened to others brief peaks the pseudo injuries incurred such as the music business those live performances while you can be humble and have other options the nice side to like the ivy league society a tasteful connoisseur unpressured or troubled worry free  the excitement from the 18yr old mind so that path into youthful lively activity the budget for a end of teenage years party romper the fun of campus greek frats and sororities the background politics 4yr parties debt what will you do about your budget how will you make a plan for life working part time can conflict with the school schedule but it can get you closer to learning skills how will you pay for it there is the option of joining the military  the peer pressure and momentum avoiding embarrassment or shame um  graduation are you going to dedicate to finish your school with a...

 so i noticed things sort of starting to putter out and remembered attributing this back to when i wanted to see the rolling stones a second time (and didn't) that was out of state though the nearest city i think in pennsylvania a train ride away so anyway some of that during the move and transition to luray so that was a representative and other parts the lifetime alliance for income (though i saw them once at fed ex field in maryland) today um moving forward so now stopping due to maybe complaints or police so i had up to here lots of finished shared stuff from the portfolio but um not wanting to get put in a bad place hearing like ergo the musicians can have trouble on of those being maybe ticket sales and bookies so not getting momentum in the wrong direction hearing how things can be difficult and stopping before things get to there but like i said that was the everyday stuff it was movies through those home made recordings then um well another warning to adhere and avoid was ...

 so thinking of the power and style of women a big on too being mother's day um so there's great things women have done in history um other titles out there aunt sister daughter neice grandmother grand daughter  um some exposure to cooking votes um parenting so thinking of my mom my aunts remembering who helped me get to where i am now and when that seemed like a impossible feat to have secure pay or longterm housing  i guess i thought some of this was the like token part where despite someone maybe seeming disadvantaged them being very strong like a different one being black history month  having been in coed times like the military or university um the famous names and those bios  https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLU02hU0sb5j4Ag7xIQvO4tRccSJNtgRmP

so the livelyness um thinking of different names a little further down the line so elvis (blacks rock and roll playing) or gwar's dave brockie so that formula being slightly elongated versions but some parts like living free and fun not stopping like listening to stops suggestions or the old dead end of that another avoiding sodomy or too the dentist  so it's like i don't want to leave some people abandoned or i want to be lively um another being phil dick versus the law obedient and fearful of government county the regimes the rules guaranteed so what can i do right now i don't want to quit things but too i'd like to live old and not tomorrow suddenly die  having seen others deaths and the inspiration from their lives a guy who liked melting pot in front royal  jimi hendrix janis joplin heath ledger robert johnson brandon lee james dean hank williams sr jim morrison sean taylor amy winehouse kurt kobain brian jones  so the free spirited the bohemian um  me curr...

so thinking of my parents freedom what was there housing agreement (where's it bound) and what was what i saw from a les mis showing (a lively couple) or other things i tried mind mapping to keep us all well seeing the people i mentioned (bucknell personalities) having been there maybe 30 yrs ago so that being where was before to draw a paralell between the two owners the missing years so this wasn't the first house or when i was prepping um i guess the county and  the familiar past so when that was where i was when i was getting by through there days of mania um having friendships and fun the fond memories of a condensed time of wild nights and days  fallout 3 like that game from where i was but the reverse from alexandria back to rva i guess that grit doing ok and couches or so moving in that direction as that as a goal and remembering the different neighborhoods charm the whole walk of that society jackson ward church hill oregon hill shocko bottom museum district the fan h...

the loop of people wanting material published and people complaining to hearing callers people calling the police on me and me being ready to defend myself but preferring to avoid that  the political power will that kill my parents the healthcare or other regimes though our vibrant business being outcast for following orders or correct actions that reinforced wrongly not defending myself from endless attacks people making faces at me or pantomiming  i lived in germany at one point (and ga) and that making holocaust scenarios  minority assimilation or others stigma  some distinct military weaknesses subordination um uniformity being offended so the counter the strength that i got like getting to a stable paycheck and my benefits too um i pay my mortgage i paid my debts i pay my car payments and insurance i have health insurance i take my prescriptions i help my family um i had a big portfolio shared i go to my appointments i follow the laws and seeing someone who in t...

 so which persons guide on how to get the best outcome see some of the music collectors with the dr zhivago moments like go to the military cash out with a donation or another bonus was univ but so another being the county (not to mention thoughts of thoreau and his rebellion) so seeing that i can have a lot alotted for the now well being of the mil paycheck the va benefits so having my civilian freedom and free time the retirement then um  so where's the stops like following the rules marijuanna illegality um  the terms for the future the voters so there's being monitored and supervision um the earlier predictions guaranteed and choices keep parents well and um  not being outcast and ostracized and the people who got me here mom and dad and others stateworkers 

 so i'd think of hermit home owners and what my goals to get to were in the backdrop i had enjoyed my hobbies but other parts like wanting my freedom no issues with my parents so an example of that being like pre arranged agreements like solitude or easiness like cable tv (unpuzzling complacency) to watch or no friends so all of that while my current parents businesses so like how i didn't immediately quit some things i enjoyed and thought were helpful my family movies  um i'd seen others parts of that interior view so what's there left um my retirement and disability so above all my freedom (hearing of issues or having had the cops called on me before even despite unintelligently) another my parents together so some things learned fast food instead of groceries in a way (i've done taco bell) supporting local economies (some i did was walmart toys) less creativity or socialization (don't approach people) cable tv leave it to the professionals (i'll watch sim...

 so recently thought of getting a recording studio painting (missing some of that back and forth socializing) so that comfort um but still trying to come up with lots of ideas to put on the canvases i have different sizes (3 bigger that the other ones) too some previous ones i was entertained with a pair of blue lacoste shoes painted that around the rnr hotel time other stuff that was egotistical or presented stylishly a huntington metro one um so some interests lots of famous people um also thought these may end up later being donated to a charity so into guitar and that showcased um realism but sometimes ghetto and funny um sloppyness skateboards like fidlar (fuck it dog life's a risk) recently did biographical ones like a glamorized one of va beach while living in rva so these like core concepts  so as stated trying to get lots of these i have one sketchbook that is almost done it's the pocket one my bigger one still has room so scifi stuff like pkd and iconic references to...

 trucker so living out of a vehicle making money the thrill of the adventure but then other things i didn't realize i wouldn't want to deal with rumors of lizard lots drug dealers and another unknown revealed was the military official certification for truck driver mos  writer much like my heroes so doing that regularly like publication and the wormwood like the intoxication or the reality and flow of prose poetic styles skateboarder getting sponsorships making videos going to different places the parties the celebrity status  cruise ship personnel cosy fun the cash out and life at sea building up savings seeing the bermuda triangle  pilot the flying planes and other stuff wormholes or the license um which type commercial usaf  navy sailor to see the gigantic waves and oceanography to be military  west point cadet to be full time and get a scholarship for a great school a life of military cook start a restaurant make a meritted place or  other entrepre...

 bartender club owner security street team promoter cook waiter / waitress um music store music studio comedian opener headliner on tour composer director photographer reviewer reception invester collector instrument affiliations um teacher historian fashion designer theatre company bookies hosts managers agents studios actors actresses stage hands playwrights make up wardrobe professors students audience disabled unemployed designated driver uber taxi podcast  different fun that can be had around this organization so there's the night of music there's your collection there's who you know and meet so chatting with friends about what's getting sold out or going your own way um hosts and the guests  so some lessons learned you may want to work with the people already established another being you may be better off as a alternative thing like serving drinks responsibly with regulars but then too the fun of funding a project a set list duct taped to the floor practice earli...

 so my conclusion was mixed about this like different groups of music i was exposed to classical compositions the famous night club guests um vintage white bands um drinking so i read some from all of these there was life chronicles volume 1 i am brian um a playboy interview but so these ones i thought were poppy um everyone knew all of these then different differences with each one the dirtiness of the stones heroine british best guitarist um the folklore legend of dylan greatest song writer the family wholesomeness of the beach boys the american great catalog and all of these still here today cranking it on and the beatles best band ever and it being pretty accessible no tours or concerts to consider showing up for so the royalties on their material paul m  um thinking of what shows up every so often year to year these reputations um the prolific lifetimes spent on life's work and all of these countless endless groups modern or whichver category so many musicians  so fr...

 so here's where it was so i get back there's a pause before my pay starts (and i actually have my fund i saved up depleted me and my parents and me getting popeye's reasons for eating at places with my debit card after the van was gone before i was poor with no money left) so then the social worker marcus shows two sides one being nothing to worry about the other being don't do that another being here's where those people are now (i actually think i saw him to in georgia it was behind the gym near barton field doing some terrorism check where i was terrified but a reassuring face and maybe even a nod to bernie mac the before hearing too many heists but the clooney or the oceans maybe some of this in hindsight navy army fun the theatres of war a bomb thrown football yardage) so it was how it'd break down basically i got my pay started then started some regularity at the hospital for a little and in hind sight that was soo much fun the way the city looked each mo...

 so the resellers a beginning was i heard my brother say he'd buy jordan sneakers on release dates then later they'd sell out and he'd make a small cash out from his investment posting to where um facebook marketplace ebay craigslist online forums um anyways another was i'd see records online that if you bought immediately on the release date later it'd sell out then after that it'd get listed at prices like a $45 record shipped ($20 for it $15 shipped $5 tax and miscellaneous fees) so that'd later sell for up to $500 but too you'd have to store it till then when some close to me paranoidly thinking my band was the intellectual rights were done with ghost or when i was a fanboy for the orwells so a lesson is if you stay on top of stuff it'd work like you put all this effort into it see competitively people with like diets surrounding this being meager and buying merch instead of taco bell wendy's arby's kfc mcdonald's roy rogers 711 so bu...

 so i think a counter to the dickens logic of ebenezer s was some american answers even like bill murray (who did do the christmas carol before but thinking maybe ground hog's day the dr) maybe residual impoverishment but it's this some of these things the terminal thoughts on it like musicians being somewhat of a suicidal dead end (dave brokie died in maybe his forties allegedly) whose gonna pay or the crazy parts like though that having a pretty good far sight (i think i heard david bowie made it to maybe like 65 with ok parts his wealth his presentations) but it was those other choices like bios and templates what's wrong with this (gays extremism) specific person in addition to vandalism and hearsay completely fictitious stories out there and slander or gossip  so being miserly um hobbies and caution or the term reality for the bad sides that sort of don't change you still have to pay for your everything you still have to plan your future todays prepping makes tomor...

 so being a serious musician this is a great opportunity for pursuing that goal professionally my time here was amazing (could i have went pro in a way) maybe some precursors to my advantage i am retired i am disabled (i have pay and insurance etc a mortgage i can afford) but so maybe a ten minute set that i did a few times and how far that trajectory can launch you see big names at their primes and navigating royalties or performances the nightclub socialization and social workers too but other things like being singular and solo what'll become of your parents or other family unless there's other discussion or planning for your future in the limelight start a riff of positive wanted presentations  so how i got my performance there'd be jazz (not getting dead ended with faces or misleadings) there'd be classic rock like antiquated royalties and which names cited so i'd pay to have a couple drinks and be non troublesome i years before studied up to that day there...

 ok so one idea i had was like a recording studio painting sketching that first (usually i do no errors first try) but other parts the surroundings the suburbs the waterfront (a otis r on that) um the comfort of not having to have had the complete homeless struggle (james franco rumor or dropping out to enlist that episode) all the way to the top like lessons in appreciation (blues heroes too) and staying hungry so these releases seem ok such as the intellegencia fear um being a hermit painter and no real risky ones as much anymore though that never happened too much see rapport bar and being a good guest so getting better with the colors and taking time on them while juggling the other interests  writing blogging poems prose publication painting miniatures  reading using exercising my brain movies and photos documentations  community participation events outfits while weary of police (see hollywood see censorship see insurance see excuses and explanations family see...

drop off the poodle with my brother in bucknell with food and poop bags the leash so the easy drive up the backseat the great dining around the hotel stay many good shopping options from the outlets and then the convention so also what's for sale dealers wally's basement so dad and mom and spending time here the cable in the room um  getting new clothes to bring home a fresh wardrobe the past when there were the movies i made fall in cold wars historicon the great meals miller's good n plenty chikfila so the fun of the gathering walking into get some stuff the sales getting some miniatures to paint or collect different deals the beautiful table spreads the hotel one time i played the piano at the bar so the lot of people in the games the morning wake up hotel coffee black um lunch dinner breakfast a short window here then back to home again seeing the amish community different companies used stuff ral partha games workshop the brown gravy meatballs fried chicken mac and che...

 ok so returning here's some all that effort and all the progress (see maybe my opinion of at one time the teletones ghost lovin') to be basically stale until the point of back to the beginning (think not being the writer of les miserables what i heard which could be false was he was barred for basically life) though this time with my essentials probably met the housing and the healthcare mandatoryness or the stateworkers too and my parents so way in the future with basically spirit broken parts (seeing the chance and risks like full time personalities not worth it or having had small nudges away from bliss) while retaining my self confident image (seeing other versions so still some iron cauldron hunger or the supervision peoples weight size or their schedule regular office hours) like not having the parents stranded (or myself stranded two way street right people having their own self defense and power) or not having to deal with law enforcement (people calling the cops and c...