blake uptin

 Here' is an update for my alleged kids and past relationships on where I am at now. So I am still disabled and retired. I don't do any substance abuse anymore not even tea (not needing caffeine like before because of being sedated on meds) no smoking anything no drinking nothing and I have VA doctors appointments thus to keep my benefits. I can get negative about things but figure I don't really have any other choices. I am around my parents a lot because they are my caregivers and because I believed in helping them. I still thought Obama's promises would be kept but I don't know if that'll ever happen I care about my parents and follow the VA rules. So a few times I kept getting stumped trying to remember some way of getting high. I did video games for a little while using DK Oldies. I have a game cube Retron 5 (nes SNES etc Genesis). My most used system would be a Nintendo 3ds. I did just order a Retro Kid that I haven't gotten yet (not sure if it'll ...

Was what i actually wanted to do be sexually active? But going back when that stuff was available there were always issues like housing income passion (even family obligations) etc. Another part would be in general the issues with logistics see the men with power over the women cutting me off like the government the school system the military the work force etc (complaints and police). So was I the whole time actually just trying to be promiscuous (but how many times did the references on that stop doing what they wanted like David Bowie or Anthony Kiedis EG)? I didn't know sex work and still haven't learned that much. For example prostitution is illegal. So I have tried the paid pornography and that seemed to show normal sexually active males. I remember when I was pursuing the music along the way people would confuse me or play devil's advocate bringing up the sex industries as opposed to the successes with eg guitar or literature. A story I actually remember was I went t...

 Here's another one. Like that except. Similar to that but not that. How many times has there been some later trivia reveal that ruins someones work? I feel like to err on the side of caution I don't further go into ones that have problems I don't like. Does that stigmatize them? It seems like bad things could happen if I thus continued that. A major disabled writer was Philip K Dick but I don't like that his parents divorced. I liked Allen Ginsberg and the beatniks but I am not homosexual. Can you modify the source material without the problems? I liked the Catcher and the Rye and what it stood for but I don't want to be a total recluse. Then certain dynamics can be honed in on and turned up. I wanted to see if sex was accessible but EG I don't like that Manuel Ferrara's dad is dead. How many time is there a really entertaining thing that has some detail that sort of spoils the whole thing? Take the music how easy is it to keep skipping songs because of som...