Stop trying to trick me into thinking I got burned at VCU. It's specific people I could call out who are harassing me still. I live the Henry Miller way and am still successful. The price of the loan in exchange for the babies seems like easily a outstanding deal.

 So not getting misled about thinking about my VCU experience (people [the alexandria blue collar circuits people my brother uses on rentals and others he smokes with plumbers mechanics landlords children former vcu colleagues I passed paths with etc people who seem to definitively say where things stop at or what's possible in reality] could try to trick me or upset me like I got ripped off or parts I missed out on (not doing sex but maybe everything later coming out would that have made me at risk for an IED victim) or how it wasn't worth it). So one part was were my babies born (I can count on several occasions I thought that happened [more was things that got to me from VCU gifts custom things specials?] and more not just at VCU Germany Spain France Georgia etc) and if so doesn't that make the enlistment bonus money to pay off my loan immediately worth it all the way (for years I had reasoned out EG starting a family for reasons like not wanting to get divorced see hearing peoples warnings or EG my own family obligations my parents? So getting accepted opened up a lot of doors for me (I lived on my own and can think somethings are completely normal that others can't seem to fathom whether that sexual promiscuity or independent publishing or my fantasies coming true) and also I got to live a lot (I opted to hang out with coeds or there was my exposure to the drug worlds things moving fast and just doing what I was supposed to even if some of these things seem outlandish or hard to explain to someone who wasn't on campus with me as a freshmen) and teach myself (I made friends with a professor sort of and I thought his family still looks out for me a little distantly it was I wanted better values as my foundation as opposed to a degree that didn't do that much for me I wanted skills too). To this day I still have a little bit of a back up plan of life in RVA I remember how much fun I was having but some takeaways now would be I don't do drugs other than VA medicine or I am around my parents all the time and they aren't interested in Richmond so it's obviously not happening anytime soon.

So there was my dreams that I did get to fulfill a little bit. I've made my movies written my books painted canvas and miniatures skateboarded the list goes on for a while played music too. I've got to put my penis in women and transgenders before. I got to do it my way. I don't need others skewing distorting or confusing me or tricking me into being upset about what I wanted to do or even did. I was a businessman and artist and had a lust for life where things still seem to be inching along modestly with my passions countered with my priorities.

Were and are others still jealous of what I got? When it was no big deal to sleep with coeds for half a year twice. Drinking like a pirate not a care in the world smoking the best weeds and favors like more drugs laced to it to be like Hunter Biden or George Bush Jr a crack head party animal.

Where I'd left it in my head was remembering a Southern male business math professor who seemed like he was really trying to make sure I got everything I needed. I remember his class showing up a few times and things being worked out. Apparently I was more interested in girls then my studies or this was around the election and the enlistment for me. I saw my chance and I took it and the whole time I was doing what I was supposed to. Coming home it was like I was from some other world when I came back. Remember when I was in Georgia and no one had any idea of life outside of Fairfax County Northern Virginia Alexandria? Or when I learned maybe 5 words in German.

So I've never confirmed it all the way but there's numerous things I kept swearing happened. More would be a measly 10k in exchange for the once in a lifetime time of my life a few children born who were taken care of what else getting to study at university getting the opening which lead to much more afterwards and my parents are still married and alive. So 10,000 plus interest and tips for a possibility that my kids were born seems like a great deal.




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