blake uptin

 So where's this now? I can not do substance abuse now due to the VA. That's how I get paid and that whole loop so respecting the doctors wishes. Before when I couldn't I still managed to try to make amends with nightlife from Willie Nelson to countless others. There was my past involvement with the drug community. Users dealers even entertainers on the circuits. Now I am on a regular sleep schedule. Did me and my old friends just get grossly disconnected entirely? I can't do that and won't really budge on it for safety with my military benefits. That puts me in a quarantine in some ways. Furthermore I can't see how they manage to pull it off entirely. Factors like the stress of the potential danger or that countered with how much money you'll actually make. By stopping doing drugs I've probably maybe greatly improved my potential lifespan. So my freshman and sophmoric releases went hard but now things have cooled off now. Would future releases still be ...

I have been forced to stop producing my old projects in some ways. Despite my freedom and free time I have assimilated with EG the VA. I don't know why I have been shut down. I thought I had good content and explanations too.  For what ever reasons it seems I am being discouraged from doing my old projects. Not sure if it's my brother and his family complaining or maybe the VA government? Is it my parents protecting me? But what's left now after all I really did do? Maybe by stopping I'll live longer. The other day Todd Snider died I think of pneumonia. Is it because I am not under someone? Is it because I am independent and separate? I have the time experience and equipment now. I have gathered views through the years. I afforded my own projects and taught myself a lot and had lots of references too. But my parents and the VA lately seem to be against me doing EG my old youtube show or other things that also my research showed me reasons to stop like internet rumors of...

 I have my privacy now. I haven't been sharing everything as much as before. Now I have my own distance from the public. Nosey people won't know quite as much as before. I don't have to stress my producing anymore. I can set things to private. My life isn't a complete open book these days. Still there are stalkers and followers though. I can close the door to my house and lock up. That's that. Nothing after that. Inside my place I can not have my life revealed. No longer am I sharing everything. No more instagram. Now being separated from my past. The old history of mine gone to whoever was watching.

 I have gotten really good pressings of things before. Great understandings of source material. I could have heroes. I could admire celebs and not hate them or nitpick their stories. So there can be fun suckers dwelling on trivia that aims at ruining stories. Maybe I was naive falling under the spells of famous people. Wasn't that cool that Brad Pitt adopted lots of children? So maybe there's the other side too maybe hear the warnings of problems coming. But does anything bad come from just watching some television or using the smartphone? Or is it better to stay on the safe side again? So isn't it fun thinking about the celeb lifestyle? See improvements I've made throughout my life. Isn't it cool the at Keith Richards Greenwich Village home he owned that he had leather hand rails put in? Or what about the front cover of Men's Health that story that article? Within the boundaries isn't a lot of these products fascinating and entertaining? Even guilty pleasur...

 Explaining a parallel. So my friend in TRADOC had tattoos and thus could be stigmatized. He referenced RHCP as a representative. But let me fill you in on the timeline. So RHCP were gone for a while and Frusciante left the group. So as an American I half joked half seriously said I'd go replace the guitarist and fill in. So then came in Klinghoffer who seemed to provide a good stability to the group with his maybe education or connections. So then the RHCP came back and had Frusciante return and now all is well again. So here was some of my take away. Klinghoffer got some of the best parts without the pain and suffering that Frusciante went through. Klinghoffer got inducted as the youngest member to the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame. So of course I am still here for my friend but it seems like some people really have it out for my friend who liked Kiedis some of that was like the explanation see the short cut of joining the Army for reasons like keeping my parents alive and married a...

 I've made it a little bit of my mission and campaign to help my parents. Some of that was like growing up with Obama and his promises. So let me explain. I'll see occasionally specials that seem like they'll help my parents and if I can I'll get them. I remember a character on jail shows where it was a normal guy who was doing hobby houses in prison. I didn't want some head game like that to happen to my dad. So I saw the Barbie Dreamhouse and got that and other ones (Malibu house and the camper too) thinking that'd make it more like a game for my dad and his business. That as opposed to the bleak outlook shown on incarceration shows. So there's been other specials I've seen before that I tried getting to as stated help my parents. Some of this was I thought traced back to my VCU professors their business acumen and products. So for example for a little while I was using DK Oldies and liked there enthusiasm nostalgia and other positive attributes. So fa...

 I believe I learned that it is more important to focus on the conventional and needs more than pop or wants and impulses. So some of this is like television with being taken serious. Or with being alone and sufficient. However I fold this at it'd be cool to meet Keith but not walking into the heroine territories. So focusing on what's necessary. Thinking of having bills paid for essentials. That over extra frills. Taking care of business first. Home ownership. Parents. Freedom. Passion & priorities.  So being able to handle oneself safely and conservatively. Being able to be alone and independent. Being able to provide for myself and have a future. Having the fundamentals guaranteed.

 So I won't be able to place as much anymore it seems. What I mean is not doing my hobbies on the amateur full time anymore. For example I believe Tiger Woods whose great and all but I thought he may have contributed to his parents early deaths. I prioritize my parents over my passions. So knowing when to stop? Being able to understand what's more important. For years I've placed my parents and family above my own hobbies or dreams. I like my fantasies but I don't want to lose loved ones over that. The internet said various celebs parents died early and I thought that could've been because of them neglecting their family. Bill Wyman it said his dad died early. Rodney Mullen it said his mom died early. But their parents were married so that was the initial criteria. I'd rather try to help my family. Even if that means being drained from the rosary and weekday mass. I'd rather revolve around my parents then lose them. Call me a fool but I thought someday Obama...

 I listened to black mens advice for years. But by the same token there were other demographics too. Gays. Fat people. Uneducated. So take for example new Taylor Swift. I didn't realize that that could be trouble. Apparently usually there's people with proof for what is possible. Better to not endure injury along the way to new findings? Do EG black men usually know the system? What you can and can't get away with? Well maybe I was a quitter for being a wise man instead. Or is it up to trends like black history month or recent news or new movies too? Is race squashed with equal opportunity and social workers? Mandatory interracial? To practice the Confucius way of learning from others mistakes. Is that just the plights of things like aging or being alone?

 One bad decision can make more. But that can be smart too to follow it down. So in this broadcast I bring to you my readers my thoughts on Frusciante. However did I pull a Klinghoffer (temp replacement youngest inductee into the R&R hall of fame) and weeble by with talent and connections instead? So I heard Frusciante became a crossdressing drug addict prostitute before. While being a artistically renowned famous guitarist. So it's like what you do with your time and money can add up (I considered shopping an electric guitar again). I heard he lived in his car at one point from a facebook clickbait tabloid in my feed.  So I believe people could have done something like that to me before but I took different directions back home again. There's a lot of gay people and crazy people out there actually. I was almost introduced to heroine and sodomy I believe. But for the longest time I didn't know any of that about John Frusciante just thought he was a guy from the music vi...

I am a household name now. I am a reputable good example for your kids to see. I was of the Obama age and kept all my deals and still try to make progress for our universe. I am around my parents 247 helping. And I have my own house and paychecks. Interested yet? Not embarrassed to hang with them in the background. We qualify for the VA caregiver program.  Me and my family seem to be doing well. We give each other support. We can count on each other. We are together in business and spirit. Doesn't all that make sense? To be with family for life? I have gotten to return home and help where I can. Our future seems to have some good sides of things to look forward to and things to savor.  

 In a nutshell? Your parents are divorced and you're not taking your antipsychotics. As you spiral out and putter out please refrain from stalking me. Now I have privacy to counteract your noseyness. My parents are married and I am taking my medication. Did I ever actually do anything that crazy? And when I acted erratic wasn't it a side effect? There is a whole community of a whole population of children of divorce who have exposure to mental illness drugs. Understanding the issues I choose to heed their warnings and suggestions before. Always some deal breaker trivia about things like cable tv that apparently ruin the shows and make them unusable. It's like I browse then if I think something bad could happen with a tv show my cable box explodes that was actually a joke I heard the other night. Why are you investing some much trust and faith in the doctor whose got power over you? But what can you do about it? SSDI is good pay right? But why when I do it is it misunderstoo...

 You have a right to be upset. Things are not fair. But I knew something that you didn't like graduation wasn't as important to me as paying my bills. I won and you can hate me if you like but still that won't change anything. How did I accomplish some of my miracles? You'll see politically my points Mccain austerity Obama healthcare Romney business Biden longevity the list goes on. "Just because you bought Jordan's shoes doesn't mean you are Jordan". You'd have to actually learn what I tried teaching you to do what I did and do. I jumped when my windows were open. I pounced when the chance was there. I waited when I was scared I could be barred for graffiti and kept it a secret for a decade when everyone knew it was me. I was naive and believed in the Virgin Mary and divine intervention. You can tell me I cheated or how it's not fair. I still did that and got away. You can try calling the police on me for walking into Rt 1 Popeyes. I still sav...

 My grand aunt got me my education basically all the way. I did things no one understood. I managed to immediately pay off my loan and get a paycheck forever. I often was ahead of the curve on everything. So I smoked lots of drugs and drank and partied hard living wild. That was despite that being against all the rules (drugs were illegal and I was underage). While dropping out I made a friendship with a older English Professor based on my passion. From being a teenager I started off with rebelling and substance abuse in the name of a higher calling like hobbies. I was certain I was going to write the next great American novel. I joined the US Army like her husband (RIP) and managed to qualify for a lot. I developed a mental illness schizoaffective disorder that in turn got me medically retired at 22. So recounting I got accepted to a tier 1 school got office hours with the department head and earned a lot of awards with the military before being ejected with all my benefits and no...