blake uptin

 ok so here's my table talk thought for some of the right next door and all over here the families it's this the mountain bike so some of that would be direct questions are your kids going to go to university are you going to tolerate them using cannabis will they go in the military um will they move out will they get married and try to have kids so some more of it ok getting through to your children that how expensive everything is how much one roy rogers meal costs (and all the implications with it sheriff um employment the lawful choice) when you have to get a job or other stuff ssdi mental illness um having to figure out how to get a car or a vehicle a scooter um growing older becoming an adult so some of it would be like what are you going to do today are you going to socialize and social workers too people getting opportunities not just sports other stuff house parties any smokers um skate spots bike rides bohemia so going over to your friends house them coming over um wa...

ok so why join the military here i'll mention reasons the recruiter might use and the reasons behind it so some being education marriage relocation independence a clearance the benefits comradery home loan caregiving those are some i can think of so the relationship can be symbiotic where you get what you put in and things are fair after you volunteer then you get your reward as promised you know how much fun i had in and the whole honor and other values coming with it going off to germany to party with my friends before they left for the deployment and i got covered for the healthcare too meds and the inclusion the socializing there'd be more access to veterans affairs benefits caregiving more stuff healthcare insurance retirement and va programs social work so education yes the certificates yes the accessible programs at the unbeatable price at times of free because you earned it so there's the gi bill there's voc rehab there's basic training and advanced individu...

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 so i have a smartphone i can get messages (but too would be direct and save time) i have a computer and accounts (both seem affordable to maintain and check) um who wants to spend time together (greet and book) but what really is there to do pizza caffeine (tea or coffee mostly) the dog conversation my parents too (like their pool) any creatives out there (remember when i wanted to do podcasts or other documentation pictures) so i have free time and i am with my parents so the downstairs basement with the bed and the youtube for tv um that side for when i am up here um i have my freedom is there anyone nearby i could just walk over to or they could meet me and we could go to a common area did anyone live like that or was that my dropout delusion still hoping for bohemia and creative collaborations the censorship and safety too am i approachable enough to meet strangers in reality and go from there like another one i saw others do that i had some interest with was taking photograph...

 ok so alexandria my pro read on that it's walkable but rare that others do that (also most of the 'lively' youth and hang out folk would be smokers communities) too so it's possible and that too without getting cops called on you though along the way many people may taunt you from passing vehicles (don't respond trust me the pantomiming) so what's around here lots of restaurant chains (and the more affluent middle ground places like noodles and co or mcalister's or jersey mike's) being further from fort belvoir (where there's shopping for mil vets with benefits commissary and post exchange and the new hospital) lots of families with kids who graduated high school so the difference between kids and parents and too how many out there on ssdi prescriptions doctors appointments welcome so with the car there's all the spots around here from washington dc (nightclubs museums gov jobs um chinatown h st u st the mall etc) that being a big focal point to...

 ok so a first lesson was it is not quite entirely walkable so with that in mind it is possible to get to the walmart shopping center through past the airport on the hill but that introduces the car so i have my insurance and my loan on it um what all is there really to drive around here to so taco bell and groceries walmart or food lion that's most of it then there's further out stuff in the region harrisonburg new market woodstock massanutten front royal alexandria winchester manassas west virginia stanley there's some of the choices of places to eat at in page county mcdonald's burger king subway hot bar food um hardee's dominico's anthony's il vesuvio the mimslyn inn jess's brookside ok so there's the huge assist with my parents being nearby so them driving me places and helping with errands the va appointments um costco so their house and them cooking the blackstone griddle the traeger smoker the oklahoma joe's grill their porch their living...

 ok so here's a little of my history i used to smoke a lot before i stopped (mil rules) and still have great memories of the people and the times back then so there's probably other similar companies out there mark ecko um lifted research group um the bob marley paraphernalia lines so some of this is the full picture like you go to your store and it's got a full display like a room set up with a poster showing rocky erickson (i saw this for sale at black cat but didn't get a copy) so it's like the couches that 70s show the personal space and the worn in denim being free so the ash tray the bedding the cleaned room at your parents house as though you were about to invite a close friend over and trip on some psychedelics robitussin acid shrooms so that picture of the choice to put on media to enjoy that's safe the music so a rug or a carpet maybe a fish tank or a dog with his personality um the backyard a picnic table and snacks a mini fridge or really cosy and li...

 ok so where to start um your life is important and meaningful (you have grit and survive and personal achievements and quests on the way) you have things going for you and reasons to be happy you can find interests to pursue and develop at like cooking or being trashy and charming tasteful realistic art or outdoors free fun a short walk um um life is where you can see how to get to the future like gas station gamblers um you are having a good time and inside there's solid quality things to purchase tanktops workman clothes to fit different then snoop dogg um more like fu manchu beachy and designer so you and your loved ones mesh and jive together well there's the investment of your family your loved ones um there's surcharged available advancements today video games that work (hobby supplies painting miniatures things to read to teach yourself) um things that can center socializing around cable tv the choice of vintage dvds and conversations there's the heat lamp food ...

 ok so here's some of my tiger woods influenced taste for a restaurant idea i've talked about it a little and haven't got into all the ways it'd work but basically it was this a place like a college cafeteria or like a barracks chow hall so some of that being the common area and comradery like you can hang out with people too the whole day is open from there another was presidentially thinking obama said he'd make education accessible to all so thinking of our parents being included and all generations to be honest i've seen hot old women just the same as young ones or even the trans community being charming so that's the intro what can be done to achieve this goal so maybe a part being the walkable side and that encouraged so housing in very close proximity to an activity spot like even legalized skateboarding for that wildcard excitement a undangerous doable spot and other stuff going on the cadre's position like seeing the parking lot with a sergeants...

 so here's it um with my projects and some of my showmanship if i had a tight and high strung assistant of some sort (longterm friend or pseudo partner) or another being thinking of cool friendships john l and paul m mick j and keith r tim a and lars f henry r & ian m so what could be done um cleaning the house picking out outfits catering for me um cooking meals um maybe if it was safe and solid a driver on my insurance um there's another that seems difficult and not quite fitting the richmond lives i saw that i surmised a lot of could be les miserables the french revolution students and government so two guitars rhythm and lead um a franchise musician big one to bounce off which role for either of us or buds so enjoying our poverty making the most of life on a fixed income doing somewhat very well at times the security the longterm the future the mortgage so someone to take care of me in some ways wash my laundry make my bed do the dishes like liberace with i think that w...

 here's the digestible idea for the not hbo (too offensive and hurts others feelings mine before too) but the visual or presentation if you will to truly enjoying life there's thoughts like hippies and the rolling stones and freedom (rock merch a roky erickson poster) or there's addiction (the vices appear to be gambling sex and substance abuse) like enjoying pastimes 'the boss' bruce springsteen will be coming to nationals stadium soon um so the basic principles of making the most out of each day there's parts like for some or me my lawfulness not compromising my benefits (those circumstances) so there is the next meal the road life the dog um my parents and family the interests the hobbies going outside so engulfing this way and oozing with charm and style holidays events getting involved with the community alternatives to cigarettes alternatives to booze alternatives to games (anyone into dungeons and dragons talk to my dad about a campaign and party) being a...

 what is the choice to be like the old heroes or be like the younger heroes so some of that being lively people who died earlier as opposed to some who lived way longer so to be great and which habits to endorse and promote um the frequency of fast food being sober the med regiment um any risky behaviors being sexually active the poets life and vision unfolding beauty in many formats writing photography video hobbies art music paintings miniatures blogging um i saw that elvis is pretty cool though he didn't live as long (thinking back to rock and roll hotel in dc that used to be a funeral parlor the drinking the blacks) same with jack kerouac his good works phil dick and his scifi and lifestyle but then there's other names stan lee his super heroes henry miller his stream of conscious free way colonel harland sanders the kfc business jd salinger the reclusive writer with a paycheck clint eastwood the movie man carmen filpi a pseudo hobo bill wyman the quiet one in the stones hu...

 so there's the huge divide with smokers i don't anymore so that immediately eliminates much opportunities having friends excommunicate you over that so moving on there's the day passing along and others constraints others with jobs and responsibilities and where their housing is so unlike richmond or germany this isn't some fun filled vacation (or even georgia) so what does that give way for um there's going to get food somewhere and in recent years the options have greatly changed also other changes the different presidents coming and going so there's no crazy ones out there that i've found it's just solitude and cheap thrills (also covering for myself and keeping my va benefits) so there's things getting to the end no more skateboarding in some ways um but coming up here so there's my parents house in the old neighborhood knowing those streets but i lost touch with all the nearby faces so a day there's using the computer (publishing sites ...