blake uptin

 so in a poetic fashion even like a theatrical screen play (the faces made the expression the acting the on stage picture the cutscenes the lights going off people scurrying about people in the background the main cast the stars of the show) my exhibition (the old portfolios now set to private) so things on the brain considering the 711 but at the same time hesitant for reasons like seeing my old roommate and figuring how he got there being fat-skinny um unhealthy or the veteran music hobby (a musician turned inside out and military aspects) basically how i figured i saw him get to that point of what i believed was return to duty and being both the shit sandwich and the most squared away soldier (but at the same time that being somewhat of a in and a positive reinforcement to not 'leave a fallen comrade' so the benefit of keeping my old coworkers in mind) but was it just the gross way of things anyways when that was scifi for a pkd story phil dick (see 1980s the decadent the hu...

 day one of 3 so tonight drop off the dog then the dinner before then wrap up online and the nice sides of being disabled staying within that safe zone um the next day shopping with mom after the office day wraps up so brought my cpap with me so where am i no tobacco and mixups over old names tom waits and the booze and smoke um now healthier and more normal um being regulated not hiding anything really or doing things not allowed  my nice flannel and my recent uploads any news stories the queen died um and the drive back home again before the next week starts up again um laying in bed after work take my meds take my shower maybe call my brother though now i think he has his practices for his kids  so the dream continues parents well and the professional office the payment window the kitchen with the keurig my desk um digesting lunch in my stomach a burp the old memories gone when it was kaitlyn at stuart court the semi squatting there the maybe 6th floor apartment the bi...

 so no matter what the goal is it'll probably need repeated focus like if you intend to get married (and stay married) graduate school (and consider more schooling) perform music (get records get tours get gigs get merch get fans) survive the military (not get amputated not get killed get your benefits) become a home owner (have savings have a steady income know what you're looking for) all these things will need the preparation and concentration to get to the particular desired outcome so my lesson being well was it foolish to be so whimsical to do things however and whenever the story of dropping out and enlisting though was my goal to be like jd salinger author of the catcher in the rye and other stuff franny and zooey did that require my full attention so is it annoying to be self centered and purpose driven is it better to be open and free and available um but you'll have to look out for yourself so you don't get used or screwed over  did i from wherever i was at e...

 so what was there really to do for fun the participation previously from the stoners (cops not doing their jobs and) the hang outs the lounging so couches and a tv (plug in video games that work) the paraphernalia bongs pipes blunts vaporizers joints so when that was a regular thing even before the legalization and decriminalization in virginia so it'd be constant openings and opportunities for socializing people even doing blunt rides or 'breaking down weight' distribution but then there'd be different barriers to stop at like a minimum wage budget that being a big one the past price of bud being about $20 a gram so that being firm when there'd be the paycheck from jobs i had and then too buying cigarettes and other stuff a rental groceries and different deficiencies education with univ affording transportation no car being broke and youthful ignorant and spiraling out of control  when that 70s show was on tv or the endless smoking movies the teenage movies and co...

 so as a kid i got exposed to some marvel stan lee (and other later coincidental army names old men hero vets like hugh h of playboy) so it was coming of age from adolescence to adulthood even in my 30s the marvel stuff continues to roll out thinking he's dead now but his legacy and that of other places too lives on like walmart or miller's in pa um so i can't really predict what'll be the next big things or what'll happen to the old stuff getting older isn't the original founder and creator of mcdonald's dead  another was george soros will be dead soon i think i got a pretty good part of the greatest generation like my mil experience being somewhat of a cakewalk at times (the romantic overseas tour) um so with that i was thinking like world war is getting completely gone thinking some of that being like people who were there for the nazi's the holocaust (not to offend anyone with the display of the war back then hitler and history) the stuff that's ...

 so some of the mentality behind grocery shopping i'll save money and additionally the money i save and i can use to put towards other things i want like in my case i wanted supplies for hobbies or other things making car payments replacing ratty clothes padding my savings account (such as readying in case of emergencies) um  so some things i'd pick up chips hot dogs (thinking to get things i might want from the fast food or other places getting that at my house instead places like 711) pickles candy popcorn frozen pizza pho canned food soda nacho cheese frozen food sauces  so some places out there costco the bulk and membership walmart the style food lion the affluence so noting different visuals to each place  so some of these places 'calling' me or keeping me on their books them keeping me in mind sort of glad i don't have a fast food addiction currently because of the money and maybe weight too though the fast food is great and i eat it regularly i just had roys...

 so how it all started we moved to a new neighborhood (not too far from where we before the somewhat famous cavalier dr) i saw the neighbor a older southern type guy (white hair his pajama clothes black shirt black shorts) and he had a dog he was throwing the ball too (there was a glow in the dark ball too) and also it'd line up around times that like i'd be back from school something i'd see him there so one day i walked into his yard and asked if i could get a job walking dogs for him i think the set price we agreed on was $20 a week so um there were two dogs premier and premier two or p1 and p2  so learning more about him (he had his ford explorer for years) i guess one thing that he said that stood out to me and i respected him for or was impressed with was i think he said when he was younger he was in the peace corps in africa um and later i'd see him do stuff like go on a vacation to germany and come back in a sweat suit he bought there um he'd have some souve...