a page of the book some content contributed to my blog um a writer with a grand entertaining tale with some influences

 so in a poetic fashion even like a theatrical screen play (the faces made the expression the acting the on stage picture the cutscenes the lights going off people scurrying about people in the background the main cast the stars of the show) my exhibition (the old portfolios now set to private) so things on the brain considering the 711 but at the same time hesitant for reasons like seeing my old roommate and figuring how he got there being fat-skinny um unhealthy or the veteran music hobby (a musician turned inside out and military aspects) basically how i figured i saw him get to that point of what i believed was return to duty and being both the shit sandwich and the most squared away soldier (but at the same time that being somewhat of a in and a positive reinforcement to not 'leave a fallen comrade' so the benefit of keeping my old coworkers in mind) but was it just the gross way of things anyways when that was scifi for a pkd story phil dick (see 1980s the decadent the hungry more on mental illness um pulp releases functioning products) and total recall (brought back to mil service) and blade runner (a assassin sent to take you out) the gasp at the beauty the big lights the dreamscapes (huge modern marvels) so moving forward um somewhat optimistic about these recent movies i've made these short clips of what appears to be safe things to record and compiling the different clips all by myself but too with help from my parents more on the barrier to 711 so one was it was at one point something to me that cost like a million dollars just for a chili cheese dog remembering walking the historic brick sidewalk from my apartment to the nearby franchised shop where i got cut off from getting the 'free' chili and cheese um

so when i saw iron and wine one little part was before i got there someone in the line started talking to me (unsure if it was helpful or misleading to bad stuff)(maybe more niceness in a way) but it was i saw them and before hand i remembered one way i heard about them was from a school mate he sent me their pirated material that i listened to the vcu folk group who graduated um at that night i remember in some ways thinking all these reasons how this wasn't that fun like he get groupies and i have to show up to this to pay him and drink by myself while people complain about me or are annoying um 

so another was i actually met muncipal waste sort of the iconic guitarist and lead singer were standing next to me before the show they were nice and put on a pretty good show i remember at one point the line 'you've been cut off' was while i was getting another drink the thrash guitars the metal fun the rhythms the 80s motley crue vocals the partying

another was the other night at jane's addiction poppy and smashing pumpkins i remember during jane's addiction (who had a long sleeve shirt i bought at the merch table where there was a guy i recognized from a brian wilson show who was selling merch there so the shirt was vulgar and inappropriate and i didn't know that at the time it's got a like old style picture of a naked woman on it boobs vagina cartoon) he said 'if i get my chances i'm taking them' in this charming lead singer voice a little weekend voice yell too 

so i think my dad is quitting mowing my lawn and i'll have to i thought get my own sitting riding lawn mower to do it instead of using his um i wished i had a lawn service i think the last one we stopped using after they didn't show up a few times so keeping my yard in order mowing the grass

lots of livejournal lately (where's everyone else) will i get any followers or likes on any of my published material some youtube subscribers finally before i closed my instagram account i think there may have been less than a hundred there 

just got my haircut so being clean cut a little observation the place having a asian home owner vibe and that being cool the other culture childhood friends houses those times dinners breakfasts korean pancakes korean barbeque other countries thai food drunken noodles pad thai kung pao chicken the menus um vietnamese pho bahn mi fried egg rolls all those surcharged meals 

so life these days was at my parents house this trip up they were elsewhere for a trip so um different names of interest (henry miller ebenezer scrooge when it was bob dylan) the nights events them loaning me the car so when it was meals with them and them watching me the supervision um when my dad would have game night and me and mom would get pho or stop places like marshalls home goods target being sterile 

um zz top is in a few nights i'm considering that still hopeful of some better choice out there then the complacency the healthcare the police the president the county the censorship the banned books the banned authors

the life so rise up and start the day at a reasonable hour fuel myself with unsweet tea lounge around with the computer on the internet share my content what to muse upon trips with the dog then back to the valley the outskirts the mountains the country and different music r&b blue grass sober no more smoking or drinking (and never having taken it that far to the point of heroine or other hard drugs) the past and nostalgia the present and mindfulness the future and planning um 

what to do with the time and energy some cassette tapes i was meaning to get around to recording on hunger budgeting reading writing painting hobbies