An update to anyone out there who still cares about me. Never officially having babies. Was my children had before and I didn't know it? Would they be taken care of for my good behavior? Were these people still keeping tabs on me?

 Here' is an update for my alleged kids and past relationships on where I am at now. So I am still disabled and retired. I don't do any substance abuse anymore not even tea (not needing caffeine like before because of being sedated on meds) no smoking anything no drinking nothing and I have VA doctors appointments thus to keep my benefits. I can get negative about things but figure I don't really have any other choices. I am around my parents a lot because they are my caregivers and because I believed in helping them. I still thought Obama's promises would be kept but I don't know if that'll ever happen I care about my parents and follow the VA rules.

So a few times I kept getting stumped trying to remember some way of getting high. I did video games for a little while using DK Oldies. I have a game cube Retron 5 (nes SNES etc Genesis). My most used system would be a Nintendo 3ds. I did just order a Retro Kid that I haven't gotten yet (not sure if it'll work it's got a lot of games according to the site I saw from the facebook ads). So I have a poodle whose getting older he was born in 2015 I think (alluding he'll die and get replaced I guess). I shop with my mom on dad's game weekly nights we'll go to Marshalls Beacon Mall Alexandria and Fort Belvoir for the commissary Post Exchange and class 6. It makes me happy when my mom can use my military benefits. I like getting clothes sometimes. I believe I wear 2xl and 40x32 pants. I'll get graphic tees polos and my bottoms I've done pretty well at Costco getting pants and shorts to last me and scrape by with what I have for longer. We'll overnight and commute to my parents house. I clean their office weekly for money. But most of that money seems to get spent back on us with meals or EG work at my house landscaping or I said the deal would be getting to get myself something nice occasionally. See being pessimistic about jobs saying you have to pay to keep it or logistics issues or you get fired. I don't have a cleaner at my house any more and I live alone with me and my dog. I stay busy and am a practicing Catholic. I go to week day mass every chance I get. I've been consecutive Sundays for maybe 4 years in addition to monthly confession. I heard sex was against the Catholic rules and haven't broken that rule yet. I can get paranoid and negative about lots of people in power priests generals doctors etc and I think I am right about it and it's unfair.

So I still masturbate and occasionally get confused about sex. I don't want to get martyred or other things I am cynical about like not wanting to get cheated on. Fears a baby could not even be mine. I thought women may have had my babies before and would be taken care of for my good behavior. Never really confirmed before. I don't really try talking to women because my lesson was that gets me complaints and police called on me. I haven't played guitar lately or done other hobbies most have gotten shut down my old youtube channel instagram etc. My doctor seems to go through my parents to shut me down in addition to a sodomy warning my cousin said would happen that hasn't happened yet. I miss my Nesbitt Realty movies I'd make. My bicycle has flats and I never fixed it again it's in the garage. I have two longboards and occasionally hit my hill and carve a lot so I don't go to fast and I've never fallen on it so far. I don't drive that often but have a car. I still have Tumblr but have deleted those accounts before. I think I will actually do a HMGS vid I think on youtube though. I upgraded to trying paid pornography subscriptions Adult Empire Unlimited Hustler Unlimited Video Box Reality Kings Bangbros. I for some reason thought it might work where it'd be like the music I used to pay for and how I learned guitar. I use Amazon music and have a monthly subscription. I don't really buy music anymore no more vinyls or cds or anything also no merch really. I have explanations to all my choices but never have time to explain them (and they make sense too) and then by the time I do I missed out entirely.

So we'll got to Harrisonburg sometimes Costco. Other places around here Elkton Front Royal. Restaurants. Days at my house. Days at my parents pool. Sober. Alone. Stigmatized.

I guess I thought of before my old friends from EG smoking. I thought that was a business before too. Also it was thinking about EG the ramifications of my John Mccain vote. Also  I believe I am a lifelong Republican but don't really keep up with politics that much I'll use my smartphone and see different feeds or I have cable but don't watch it that much because of issues with the descriptions or other erring on the side of caution not wanting drama or divorce.

I guess some people I thought might still be out there were randomly:

  • cpt hewitt
  • jono (and the rest ben ben marty)
  • german house worker
  • british girl in spain
  • kaitlyn kinloch and other vcu coeds
  • crystal fiedler
  • Amish girls?
I guess that's some the rest seem to have disappeared or never really been there to begin with.

I thought women may have had my babies before when I was asleep. I thought other parts like listening to advice or doing what I was supposed to. I think there can be a lot of bad people out there. Nosey people too.

I guess that's something for now.




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