Maybe try to get the motivation up for some White House surveys when I get a chance again. The count down to Harpers Ferry WV.

 So where was I? Catching up again. Thoughts?

So one sort of point was Mark Wahlberg is great and all but I feel like his movies might be more rewarding than they are always entertaining and also like borderline realistic. Italian Job was fun and the pay out was good. Other ones like Pain and Gain or Lone Survivor seem to be him as a funny idiot. However what I was getting at was Entourage seems like a masterpiece but he isn't even really in that. It wouldn't've lined up that way. So that encompasses him but he's not necessarily starring in that. Another point was he's sort of a charming idiot. Acting like that like when I wanted to be an actor and the characters I'd play out. Tics and ideas too. Being smooth but stupid in a way.

So one thing my brother will do is he'll say are you done. Sometimes he'll take jokes I've invented then run them into the ground on me. So that one was maybe a negative reply to my celebrity statuses? Not liking being hurried. In some ways my fifteen minutes of fame? So I thought two people who paid me out and agreed to that were the Jews and the VA for my royalties on my material. The college drop out?

Looking forward to West Virginia. Not sure if that'll be our final destination. Seeing how it is when we get there. Got a bad vibe a few times from our Luray houses? Thinking it was going to put my parents in a old folks home. So one thought that I was taught and I've repeated was you can't live in Virginia Beach. You end up in Norfolk. So that whole dynamic if we were to move again. Where to? So getting cozy and ready for the next spot. Last days in Luray. Ordering a bed from Grand Home Furnishings. In some ways going to a red state a Republican state that is.

Keeping my parents balanced. Trying not to favor one or the other. Trying to keep both of them alive and doing well. Two sides to sort of balance out. One bad one was Train Spotting where I think the mom dies early. Another bad one was Mission Impossible where Ving Rhames dies early. Wanting both parents alive and well. Correcting that and getting help.

Projects to be working on? Anymore longboarding? Any weight lifting? Miss doing that with milk and the bananas were nice too. So drafting up next manuscripts? Next ideas? Writer surf style skater video gamer the list professor dog owner home owner country boy son family man.

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