I might've been on Blake Richardson's radar. The drummer for Between the Buried and me. So getting back up again. Trying again. Unsweet tea and maybe one concert a month. Merch? Am I already sucked back in again?

 An update. So the other day I had a termite inspection. The guy kept wanting to talk to me and I thought is he some perv or something? He kept bringing up how BTBAM he knew and the guy literally called him when he was at my house. Then some of this started dawning on me.

So I remembered the band he was talking about. A little story was I bought a BTBAM shirt as a boy and remembered someone whose parents were divorced and his dad was in the navy the guy cornered me and talked me into selling him the BTBAM shirt for more then I paid for it. So at the time the band was one of  those things back then that was going to help me and solve problems for me. Paying attention to the materials released.

So the guy said he was friends with the group. Between the Buried and Me. I think he was going through the termite inspector to get to me. So we chatted a little bit. I told him how the time they were booked it didn't quite line up for me but how I saw other similar groups before.

I kept not wanting to talk to the guy because I thought he was weird at first. A reason I at first didn't believe his BTBAM story was because when I saw his tattoo he had it didn't quite look like a real BTBAM group style tattoo. Made me question him or think he could've been lying. It was like a sort of trashy cross with writing not like artsy stuff I'd imagine them having.

Forgot all my points I could've added. One was how I'd have a knack for picking the best ones back then. Like in the movie Tulip Fever when he picks the winner flower and was going to profit from it. Some of that was I'd get some merch and then later see the band after I left could be getting run into the ground a little bit but still loyal to me and at times still producing quality material. A bad example of this was how I said how I'd seen EG Trevor Strnad before he died.

A bit of trivia was in some ways my hit single I wrote in a hotel in Germany was from BTBAM. It was a chord progression a peer showed me that I reused on that. It was from the song Mordecai from the album I think it was called the silent circus. So maybe thinking of how I can help out the people who helped me still?

So now what? Maybe thinking this was like the Angry Birds game where these musicians out there help me. So anyways. Believe I might be back on board for seeing stuff at Hollywood Casino. Some of that was having a tea with my parents at dinner before setting out for the nights show. One a month maybe. 

So I looked up a little bit about Hawthorne Heights. They're booked and maybe it'll line up for me. So that was like thinking that helped me get into college and pay everything off. I didn't know they had a death in their band before. Thinking of some of the stress or seriousness of college though. 







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