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 Dad told me to tell y'all what I was telling him. So catching up. I lately have been feeling like I could die any second. Some of that was what I attributed to a deadly spider being my spouse. There was a backstory I tried posting about this on FB that was denied. So I have things happen like I'll fall into trances just zone out and rewatch my material. Tumblr wymanditkomullen. Then I'll feel like any second I could die. (I looked up spiders can have deadly hairs and also their bites both of which I thought happened to me. Not to sound gullible or like a liar or embellisher or disrespected). I did tell my parents I was interested in getting a pet tarantula and found they sell them in VA beach but they currently said no. The story was in Schweinfurt my roommate and Spc Shehe (mil lifer? DC VA basement dental and other spots) I thought were saying how if I was serious they'd get someone to go get me a pet spider. Stuff about my education or saying this. Wikipedia. But it was Bowie was great but seems vandalized and stigma see his album heroes. Also frugalness and miserliness again. Previously generics now name brands. A little tic that didn't last long was not eating everything and leaving some for the garbage for people. Knut Hamsun Hunger great depression holocaust World Wars greatest generation. That seems to be a huge one for my Army ones where they'll do heroic things. Saw someone could do mean memes to help me about that from Fort Hunt. Are VA survivors useful or not? Some Army things that have gotten to me before that seemed loved by all. Vietnam vets (the unit overseas)(see interracial vids which were my favorite the white women) VFW Africomm oceanography (did my navy captain rescue me all the way I think probably?) US AF characteristics (hotels England) etc. Rewrote in crevices. That was the Bob Dylan more on that. I thought about getting his book tarantula before seeing logistics issues. DINFOS. A story was that's my story and I'm sticking to it. So legacies and your word. USMC Gideon Rogers SFC Kiltner Army. Rod Serling Twilight Zone. I thought I kept my word as best as I could each time. Then like a rolling stone Bill Wyman that being an excuse. Some saying Dylan was a hobo grifter vagabond trobadour etc. Not busking. Not panhandling. Seeing others. And the deck cut in my favor a Professor Nick Sharp memory. Sort of believed he could've faked his death or immortality stuff. Wormholes. Dark arts. A recent answer on my sex confusion was this. The three heroes I have currently selected who also I requested autobiographies and bios for my $150 Christmas wishlist on all appear to have married parents and also I surmise be celibate masturbators. Wyman Ditko Mullen is he a masturbator? Don't know think he's like a fake person like a legend but maybe sexually successful. Promiscuity Others Jay Leno Roy Rogers. Dylan he's a legend. When I got that close to doing that and coverups and hoaxes. Railroad clothes. DIY. Did think to see his new Chalamet movie on opening night. +XP. Premier was Rick Machmer's dogs names Peace Corps. Mike Mccusker. Saw Dylan in Baltimore and his son in Baltimore Jakob. Saw Chalamet in Dune 1 & 2 with my parents and a Wes Anderson movie the French Dispatch. Heard internet could be wrong or right EG married parent celebs. Like Entourage the series a lot but little issues. You can lose. Are his parents married? Was it just a a fantasy and trash tv lessons to learn about that? So Dylan an excuse about that. Had his vinyl up to a little past how old I was then studied some on Amazon Music. Street legal. RS albums comp mag. Then that's Birchmere maybe inferior goods. Bluegrass. Sex workers. Woody Guthrie who I listened to Smithsonian recordings of before and I believe I did read bound for glory his autobiography. I think that was Schobel telling me how if I didn't what'd happen and how easy it'd be if I did. Dylan which was a fake name from Dylan Thomas the poet who I read like Portrait of a Dog or a hardback blue one in Schweinfurt and he previously was Rob Zimmerman his bio never really mentions anything about jail or court. I can see these things like they were five seconds ago. I read chronicles and philosophy of song. Jail and court those being scares for me. Always feel like I lose at anything and I don't gamble. So I don't know if they did get me the spider or not. Believed it could be hiding around me at times. Things my parents got for me that they were very happy with. Cable tv. Robert Pattinson's parents dealership. Charming self made honorable. My parents marriage. Front Royal VA. A friend at Melting Pot his legacy. Early death but did he help get the two DC champs? That was Schobel who I thought I was telling to be like Guile because that was what he wanted in his heart. Dahlsim boyhood Street Fighter arcade game in the laundry mat. I tried explaining the times they are a changing to him in the barracks at our split room. Kendra bartender WV 930 posted a heart warming video of a French champion boxer going against the police. Never found that vid or many other ones again. A asian kids film maybe shoes in it? Tear jerker. A stereotype they all come back. Deustchland beer mugs in New Market VA. Taxes. Biden. Kammala. So another was I would want a expensive parrot but could be fine with a cheaper indoor bird too. Grover is good though. Daydreams fantasies. The poodle. The spouse was well preferring to be single too. The sex addict story appears to not work because of logistics. Also it appeared to go against the politics of what I originally learned with catch 22s like Sympathy for the Devil. But other parts martyrdom but the good example template. A recent dilemna in my head was this how comfortable I am with my skateboarding. I have different hobbies with reference points of heroes who had married parents and seemed to not have problems. Inceptions in my head and published things held like facts. Prolific discography bibliography. Thinking I do these hobbies for a living. Writing pictures blogging drawing painting miniatures. Cut off my youtube recently because my parents said to. So the one in my head was dropping in on the quarter pipes. I can make up excuses about it now. I have done this before. I could blame the ramp guests or equipment. Using dad and mom more. Having dad be like my coach. Dad like Joe Gibbs. The sweet spot on that was him seeming uneducated and like he was born to lose but being a underdog big winner. But I thought the things I did were soundchecked to be liked by especially former mil I knew. Amateur American. Affordable. Realistic. However I thought their were great rewards for doing stuff like this. My arm is almost back. Chips on the ramp during youth sports and I still went. I thought about starting ice baths again soon and don't know about bananas again. I believed women had sex with me in my sleep and still do. I saw someone at the Ft Belvoir commissary with Rodney Mullen brand Globe shoes on. Previously there were like pseudo rules and stuff about that. So anyone at the library you can be uniform and use as a leader to be like. Steve Ditko who it said was in PA Johnstown I think. My publishing and writing. Studying Spiderman. So that was feeling like any second I could die. Then the different hobbies. Bill Wyman's book to read. But the thing about that is I am not paralyzed. Other stuff reading dad's books Little Things Zantheon's Secret Home World Hero. Brother liking Xmen I thought Wolverine. Responding to everyone. Patty and Sarah. Honky tonking and Bill Murray old school tics. Furthermore concluding my anti sex addict lesson was this. Hugh Hefner 1 I think his married parents died early because of his goal 2 I thought he could have done homicides before which he could've not gotten away with. Larry Flynt divorced parents. But being a user of both. On SSDI and US Army. Playboy Hustler. Or I use Xvideos on my smartphone. Reinforcing good habits. However a little temptation was thinking of TW Tiger Woods. Mil benefits. Married parents but issues like I didn't want to go to court or rehab. DUI jail. So Steve Ditko was a RS article that said his family said he was not sexually active. A possible paranoid conclusion on that is the Democrat victories and being gaslit or history rewrites in general. So I thought like Bill Wyman being a veteran and the producing. RS mag articles. Everyone can be a hero mil or not. Some of that was being spirit broken. See subject matter experts. The Gygax stuff where if you try you'll lose. Always Scrooge again. Every time you don't you immediately lose. So being like Dickens too. I believe I have accepted not starting a family formally and have explanations. Also I thought things I did could help the ones I thought were taken care of because of EG my insurance etc. My job responsibilities. Thought dad and others still wanted 'nightcap' kids and may or may not have had them. An example of that was thinking Freddy's Fairfax VA I think could be a mil vendor. A caregiver and my mom getting the bid. Stuff like Little Debbie who I heard went bankcrupt before or. Life's work. Ancestry and Legacy the guy for the Wikipedia Jansen pharmaceutical. So maybe dealing with a little defeat from no longer being in my prime? Less sperm built up in me. Though maybe other upgrades. Keith. I heard my window was over but I heard I got it back. Something about special treatment from the Sheriff for doing what I was supposed to. Doing the right thing forever. My USMC friend Mike Franklin the Milk movie. John Wayne. So seeing paranormal? Visions projections. Is this a prank? Gullible? No one will believe me. Disrespect. Writeoffs. Trades. Robbery. Old books on this. Glen Miller. Bermuda Triangle. Deadly animals. Veteran heroes. But the mil benefits motive. The sickness feels really good. Hemingway Kilmanjaro high. Ramos and each person responded too. Forgetting some names but clearly remembering everyone. Ferris. Blonde WTB guy drunk. Blonde army guy who stole my saucony's who said they were going to the Generals office for this. Well there's some stuff. Just got my dental done in the office and have to cancel my WV apt. Too far away. Listened to dad and now go to the one in the BH building we're in.