the other side full time pseudo gamer lifestyle so no 'sex addiction' and instead full attention on the visual business of a fantasy rpg to live for hobbies

 so here is a quick lesson you are being a professional guitarist sort of full time living on ssdi then you think if i slip once there's many competitors who will be right there ready and waiting to take my spot so i can't afford to lose focus on what i am producing

another story was a i watched an interview with the french male porn star manuel ferrara and in there basically an answer from him was 'you can't play world of warcraft and be a sex addict' so like it not working because of the different focuses and prepping on it using all your mind and attention on something and needing to know what you are doing

so the crazy talk of how those things can come back to help um a story was seeing at the mgm national harbor at the shake shack dine in section what looked like some full time gamblers taking a break there eyes there strung out high sort of enjoying the way they radiated was it the slot machines which one was it and the hot perfect foods on break

um so which ever hobby and myself enjoying different ones so there's the joys of painting miniatures watching as i progress and collect more and more of them um making home movies getting the ideas right on it all um playing guitar there's lots of ways to healthily use my mind um using my sketchbook and doing paintings blogging up material

ok so how does it all work or other parts is the cold hard answer that it was 'just a waste of time' like to beat a video game didn't do too much and then other things out there the fun of the 'downward spiral' of dungeons and dragons to participate and spin into that way of life



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