i am somewhat established now why don't people give me a chance but then too being stigmatized alienated persecuted ostracized slandered excluded by the system your boss your professor your parents to name some

 only interested in those 'domesticated' btw ok so here's a story having been in other peoples shoes before it'd be for example going to a college town and being some what transient another would be being stationed somewhere else in the military and not having any connections (and times i saw this work for others)

so other details fine tuning everything maybe the being straight edge part (not wanting to be around substance abuse people in someways and different things i already sampled and passed by) or what's 'lawful' um what's logical and smart too making friends being available i have the world at my fingertips but have been outcast from the world to be ridiculed and despised too to think of hobbies and dreams passions to talk with artists to produce to make material to document and share another was what about taking pictures of strangers good outfits that but then again the story 'alx is not rva' being policed and again outcast

so what i was getting at was now i am at where i can swing ok and have some solid ground for now um i own my second house and have a car and i have paychecks isn't that just about everything there is to ask for and i have my freedom

so meeting other people at these hubs when i was right next to washington dc with the terminal point of the yellow line nearby huntington or other places drawls being near fort belvoir making friends with those people now being near jmu

um my house and what of beatniks what of creators to think of collaborators where are the poets the drunks the stoners well actually not those and also i heard how that can be trouble the toilet issue with guests am i naïve to think of hanging out at this age what about directors photographers actors actresses trans um writers bloggers philosophers musicians and with these people some 'domestication'

to do a podcast on my back porch a chat a conversation to post that recording to share that upload um what to do to get some coffee and lounge at my place other ideas pizza or heating up groceries to keep the budget in mind the thrill of socializing nearby stuff to do my parents their pool in the summer the trails to hike or have a picnic at um



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