poverty appreciation unreplicable circumstances to a higher learning in savoring the mindful elements of life to overcome adversity and become the person you dreamt of a hero through the money antagonizing course

 so feeling the paralysis of having 'made it' i have a paycheck i can feed myself (i am far from danger sensor boundaries alerting) and pay my expenses on time and fully i am ok i have a doctor for healthcare so going back in time it was when i didn't before all that so with a safety net of family and being an american i had ventured into university where despite the grading scale i think i did achieve accomplish and ascertain a lot i found my purpose too i left a boy and returned to ship off to support the war in support of my country

the glow of hallucinating from being poor so before other cheats are given out snap food stamps or lines of credit or other troubles alcoholism substance abuse ssdi favors there's paying your way within your means so seeing things at the grocery store (truly choosing between different choices the prices the marketing the presentation the visual the intuition) or when investing considering equipment to purchase that may be a two sided thing paying for things you'll need (sort of with money you may not have yet and may not have in the nearby future) to stay afloat and employ yourself

um being poor can improve your perspective if you make it out of there some way look at the success stories of rebels and independent individuals um eminem made it in rap even as a white male so finding a way um so having been financially weak and having made it through that so little reminders used clothes shopping no vehicle and public transportation riding the metro to my cousins rental house in fairfax to get high eat hamburger helper my mom gave me money for that night party party party get a lecture from him as we lived like bohemians see his sister there too after her jmu draw in my sketchbook the big dreams the million dollar ideas walk to the big unique second hand store life on the edge of my seat no insurance it was on the line and i proved it all night we got past that to today a time of ease and simplicity

so um not wanting the issues with some things or finding alternatives and other methods not being a musician or no tour too um so the gain from struggle um trashy feel good endings and making it through again

to abide in a artists studio embrace the way to the next goal conceptual directors cut ideas commentary with collaborators extra content on doing free spirited hopeful stuff to learn from poverty