i'm still somewhat of a guitarist was that in some ways one of my best decisions to buy a thousand dollar guitar i still have it and recently have been using it on cassette tape recordings somewhat french and optimistic

 ok so i was having a blast it was the 2000s i'd walk my neighbors (who died in his house sometime) dogs and another neighbor i'd let their dog out in the backyard (i remember leaving wphs campus with someone driving us to fastfood the wendy's combo and i afforded that from my jobs) those two income sources (i think my parents back then might've done my taxes for me too) so i saved up most of my cash and my parents took me to guitar center where i bought a gibson sg in black and i think i ordered my amplifier a friend researched it was the line 6 modeling amp line so some of that was like in public school i determined that sex would be foolish and dangerous or unhealthy so i was also ashamed of my foreskin so i'd only makeout with girls and then i had a lot of time masturbating online late nights to internet porn my parents basement um that may have guided me away from the scenario like having to start a family formally where later i thought i had some 'showmanship' or 'aristocratic' stature like staying at hotels (eating at the hot spots amish country shopping on budget) on trips or my journey into the army (later a big influence being guitar) so that covered i think and believe covered me as far as my life line and maybe i also thought my big hobby image of myself (thinking of stories about henry miller's kids and others gary gygax things work out) would lead me to some form of immortality from my good works

so um one thing i remembered was my dad's friend (i think he liked italian and married a blonde woman and became a father) gave me guitar lessons and he also mentioned the television group as a big name i later saw them in person and was thinking that was a cool story i read somewhere that he had a expensive guitar he invested in himself for maybe was the fender brand and he kept the instrument for a long time of his career practicing on it (lots of sentimental value) until later upgrading or moving on um so that as a hero a american successful guitar player there'd be many guitar players i admired (lots of ernie ball string sponsored players i saw from the back of the crowd drinking through the night) who i showed up for their event the live music concerts with alcohol and metered rides (some other names that hit it for me keith richards sonic youth the 13th floor elevators kepi ghoulie john frusciante fu manchu conor oberst u2)

um i'd think that price being firm was really truly worth it in some ways it always gave me a little bit of respect dignity um a cool stance with that through other times artschool at vcu um germany at the barracks it was like this guys serious and means business i respect him um i had an ego and was reputable i had all this potential but i'd do things safe ways and smart ways later i had a few open mics that went well um i compiled up some recordings as time went on i really got my homemade celeb career going but then too was cautious of warnings and what not

so as a guitarist maybe i should go back to that high strung way like not really seeking sex anymore (i was about faced with my judgement at one time thinking to be a sex addict and porn star) just do it myself masturbate occasionally um to be professional and not goof off or be trouble um for the crowd and the audience to do my job right not being annoying or misled with the wrong answers not unfair so other names too the beatles and their charisma with their presentation

so more on the guitar um i was driving home from georgia just released early from the army and i had smoked spice and i was driving with my injection and sleepy i swerved and literally flipped over the railing and my van of all my stuff in the process broke the neck of my guitar but i later used glues and glued it back together and it was fine um i still used it but maybe as a 'household' name thinking like not going too far with that stuff like taking my paycheck and my position and enjoying my retirement

so in modern times being a single disabled veteran um a home owner and future oriented