sharing some entertaining thoughts and explanations with some privacy too under a pen name
things i appreciate this is sort of like a thanksgiving what i'm thankful for um taking time to savor the great parts of my life also some tv shows i'm interested in catching up with
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my family so my mom and dad my parents them caregiving my mom prepping meals for us my dad mowing my lawn my brother when i'd walk over to his house in the suburbs my brothers family his wife and kids the nice times i made episodes for the nesbitt series my dad's siblings their seeing them aunts uncles cousins
my car doesn't need any repairs in good condition working on paying it off with the loan it's nice to be able to take myself to places i have to go like the store or church
being retired and disabled it's nice to be able to do what i want to produce hobbies having a paycheck
my dog he's nice and loves me good companion to keep around bring him on trips to alexandria or walk over to my parents house i like animals
my portfolio online the whole releases i've shared
having paid off my student loan the huge stress relief of getting caught up on all my banking and money and having had that opportunity
my longterm housing having a mortgage on a good home to live in a nice mansion the furnished and staged look here
being independent by myself
so some of the tv shows i wanted to watch adventure time californiacation entourage boy meets world um what else hey arnold maybe the simpsons um
so i did see that the father in the catholic church can be a massive power like if you think oh i have to pay for every song and show up different answers about that and not going to how you got to that so a different choice and two another option hmm thinking other people could be a father figure so there was dr machmer and another robbie t so that being maybe single male power whether that's like the melting pot restaurant regularity or the africa peace corps money different things going on on that so gamblers making sense of anything the water essence from owners another so there's the it was oh the bob dylan story so that being like like keith that falling under spells (heroine guitar hobo legend um) someone whose like this not possible figure and maybe that groups tricks on it when i ignorantly was fascinated with the jewish community (thinking things like world wars holocaust) so explaining it some um the term i told taking back sunday in a comment was like a dalai lam...
It now dawns on me that Jack Kerouac actually made a lot of sense. So let me begin. I use the VA for my benefits and follow thus rules. Thus I have found at times I can be bored out of my mind. I can't smoke weed and on my meds I can't drink anymore. So what's left? I can jack off occasionally I have video games I have a dog. I live near my parents who are my caregivers. So I can go shopping I can do surveys. But the fun of youth is gone. Maybe I should stay positive and optimistic. I get excitement out of dad hosting his weekly game nights. The party is over. No more freshmen year of college. No more starting AIT in TRADOC. But maybe things are still going along? There's still writing and studying.
Was what i actually wanted to do be sexually active? But going back when that stuff was available there were always issues like housing income passion (even family obligations) etc. Another part would be in general the issues with logistics see the men with power over the women cutting me off like the government the school system the military the work force etc (complaints and police). So was I the whole time actually just trying to be promiscuous (but how many times did the references on that stop doing what they wanted like David Bowie or Anthony Kiedis EG)? I didn't know sex work and still haven't learned that much. For example prostitution is illegal. So I have tried the paid pornography and that seemed to show normal sexually active males. I remember when I was pursuing the music along the way people would confuse me or play devil's advocate bringing up the sex industries as opposed to the successes with eg guitar or literature. A story I actually remember was I went t...
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