my failures or the actual difficult end almost there but then new answers surface mil benefits and housing the dead aim upon

 so i listened about different things like short cuts or best case scenarios (lots of hearsay throughout the years) so here's one i taught my self the music industry (see my 19yrs old album in a chinatown hotel or other performances) then there's like what i learned tattoos (lots of famous ones with that senses fail taking back sunday loud boyz dead milkmen nighthawks guns n roses) other parts complaints (inherent rules and walls not getting to the stage but other small victories online producing) so i had made albums and recordings but maybe police hearsay about that profession like being stopped (nightclubs not interested or people not wanting to start a group) and not making progress um basically all my projects done with my own effort (lots of strongarming and work but not maybe not getting that far the strict budget the punctuality at events) but as stated how far did that make it the conclusion military benefits or foolishness the point becoming pointless later other parts becoming clear too it was and is a gay and jewish industry 

so other formats too staying producing (balancing time with even mailing letters leaving comments and other parts studio time new drafts and finishes) but how much of the business acumen no galleries for my artwork no collabs for my movies no publication for my compositions 

so early riffs that i deduce had lasting effects the use of drugs that were illegal apparent consequences from that so other parts industry norms and pioneering my own way but then the question it could be useless hopeless pointless like the book i wrote in a box full of books that was destroyed 

the huge counter though how much progress i made all my ebook writing online my whole portfolio online um my sobriety and professionalism so not forgetting how far i've come 



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