my american dream the 19th century influence

 so was that actually my material um the writing prompt from the tenured professor when i was going to write this magnificent book a best seller everything you can think of inspirational um pulp so that whole big book that i actually did write so there was a usps box full of hand written books for the source material for my some influences um catcher in the rye jd salinger but difficult parts like the whole moral of the story or english things um from one point to the next so frederich douglas getting out of work or pseudo slavery another um bob dylan so condensed highlighted um the youth um dreaming so it was this scrappy underdog thing of high levels of love longing and the whole supplies on hand sea biscuit the romantic poets more citations and maybe some of it's scope being the 18 year old to school like this side of paradise

i'd think of older peoples stuff the norman rockwell paintings john lennon being alive jfk speeches and memories the fill ins on the rolling stones the blonde guy in it's only rock and roll but i like it and bill wyman the 1940s and 1920s the jazz age the world wars 

so when i say nineteenth century i mean all also all these things references dog ears i didn't get from before my time or generation like a name that popped up was danny kaye after last night thinking i was special in a way i was somebody so my stab at this tabletalk piece us having coffee before quitting cigarettes um the cars the movies the music of how i was trying to make my own brilliant thing in lots of formats 

so i was dropping out of school i'd spend the night at friends and associates places like it was nothing um then trying to dig deeper the young ones like my grandmother mama when i had this bike from the thrift store she bought me and we spray painted it gold like trying to voice this stuff or explain it um thinking i was poor or a good one um others like her bluegrass knowledge of life um a sexual forray the whole story of also wanting other things to play concerts to be in movies all these art school maybe thoughts

so some social dependence like being happy for my fun um right at the breaking point into adulthood and losing sanity um really feeling good about that drinks after being straight edge no more well there was some smoking and then the whole military experience georgia germany maryland south carolina then back home in virginia my big adventure the hobbit 

to today supporting my parents in some way um being humble thinking of them gloriously like the adams family or the joys of changing topics and incomplete origins of ideas 

to today um diags typed up other recordings a memory i saw was henry r talking about valuing a original bad brains tape it being rare and valuable and his know how and insight on hobbies 

by the way i question and also avoid the bad parts of peoples stories i think my parents keep freedom stay together for the future um the bad parts of the templates