augusta georgians and bucknell virginians a drop of that adventure done

 ok so here is where i am now i do not want (actually this was mostly non negotiable never wanting a tattoo the unmostly part being like insurance or screws getting turned) i was maybe stupified to be okay with the retirement i was happy to be out of the unit those stresses um i thought i could always be understanding like even if people i knew (this was a semi big issue) were with the woman i thought to wed the adultery being hurtful um so where was i now um i think the term was showing that being hurtful or upsetting in a way but unavoidable and unchangeable but it was um though i ironically watched porn so um i was now the short hand of just thinking jd salinger because the story of the people i could walk to from where i lived in elementary school that childhood house and those long term people like thinking you can't break va rules you'll get caught that as a anchor and different rationals for that reasoning like accept the money and don't buck the system with like healthcare 

so what i see with georgians that i try to avoid as triggers for me

  • maybe gross issues with the reenlisted (national guard too) but those personnels personal life like family and grossness picking one parent to favor me no not doing that so reading into like how they got there and why i don't want to do that so there's other stuff guessing their voting um the gross part could have been further wedged with social work psychiatrists colleagues but that as a tactic for maybe how many people have been to germany but where i was i did still have maybe some loyalty for them like how i got there thinking maybe that'd be permanent become a georgian liking the travel or other parts before coming back and reestablishing myself 
  • adultery trigger um peoples feelings being hurt the uncensored thing is i think it's called showing where people have fetishes and vices me um i got hurt about maybe solving that marriage was not that feasible for different 'excuses and explanations' hiccups within the family 
  • military recruiters so people can still leave that gray area out there so with that i'd think the benefits that's like the end all at the end the whole reason clothes that fit food to eat affordable shelter um maybe that's under uniformity teachings and training that also being shanghais of unability to survive tracing back in and wasn't it a good time the though tradoc 
  • sex being a danger zone just the same as like smokers can be dangerous so losing touch with reality over temporary counted orgasms like a long of a span of that and the publics power and opinion of that 'offensive' 
  • some stresses and uncared for in a way (try purely starting something ergo the impending reality)

    so what i see virginians that i maybe naturally did but also my own trouble

    • 'envy and jealousy' i had seen others with mil benefits and felt bad about that so that topic of being modest and humble being understanding like the merch i bought though it was donated um different things non intentional maybe because of my own voids and holes in me that were there online school drop out a counter being someone maybe a few how good of vehicle was had and how good kept the property was so thinking of insights about that don't see those people all the time but different providers 
    • sort of single male people (though there's lots of others and specialities about them) with also a pet a dog or maybe some regulation from the state like distantly fearful the voters and politics a scare zone being election day the superbowl um but also um different case workers getting their points proven or other parts their influences meanwhile active duty or other crazy aces peace corps instant knock out argument 
    • home owners so that guarantee and reassurance no worried or troubled about that 
    • some intellegencia so thinking to of the am vets thrift store as like a common ground and seeing what people say about others when they're not there like orwellian reads on the shopping experience like browsing used books or the clothes season um 
    • maybe some trades to stay alive loss of past flares and then i noticed i think on two locations there coincidentally was a 29 date in the system 
    • maybe some access to slothliness getting to recover rest and be under doctors reoccurring appointments though health factors like no smoking and somewhat quarantined
    • not hurting my caregivers and helping the business 
    so my lesson with this was maybe thinking of famous people while i still have some hope for hobbies but then there's what i called deterioration so the template i next morphed was jd salinger um thinking keep my parents good um all those projects i did and how that works in reality but then like i said some labels of people continually harassing me 'the muslims' from operation enduring freedom um so i'd also think to of the greatest generation me overseas and that overpowered by civilians so dreams with the constant goal of staying alive to old age with my freedom 

    so some of the reveal about georgia i think some people tried threatening me with like ncis or other things maybe a beneficial one being job training that mentality but i was basically dead ended and no turning back plus the price i had to pay so just go through and do everything um i have always been peaceful and social so maybe steered to be upset at my family and the vacation in georgia seeing mostly just the installation like the walk across barton field and um following the tradoc where i learned to quit tobacco so was i going to start a new life and did that keep going with my military career pre knowing things like a story of claude monet the french veteran painter so i didn't and don't ever want to be jailed so after that um back to virginia where at one point i was going to be famous for different careers in development a guitarist 

    so virginia again i thought people were out to get me i had a forced court date from someone who may still be keeping tabs on me um so i came back and just said i don't want to move anymore though still anticipating maybe two more though richmond could happen to avoid my parents being put in an old folks home and though back to alexandria thoughts on the bucknell owners research saying a 20 yr part for some and another maybe a 50 yr mark so um with the money and not being coached i'd be just fine no yelling um over here i paid my bills and now still had hobbies but other parts like 711 and smokers being immediately dangerous and someone else maybe hinting that 'sex' can be just as dangerous also pre knowing of a virginia namelihood to me 

    so for people wonder why i would write this um i don't want to be homeless um that was my original career like when i had to get my mos um i don't want to end up in a bad place so i did everything i was supposed to and could like people ignorant to systems like the drug underworlds or other things explained that can be ruined and people attacking me like when i came back to basically be the product of healthcare forever no anything else failed marriage um not to get into my personal life but not complaining and doing what i can from where i am like not being a cable watcher thought that'd kill my parents 

    another one was apparently like balances to things when i said i was celibate or parts about that and those circles like civilians what i dubbed siphoning but responses to things and overpowerment um my story i wrote now i i'd be a old guy who owned a property (was and is disabled and retired) um don't think i'll tread up the sex or women or woman or even transgender part due to lessons about that spirit breaking but um planning my future so i am alive and well other things i am not in the drug business that i am aware of unless some crazy stories true i told um am i well yeah the getting ready

    i thought things like i was going to have to basically some scares about military the terms re-upping um contracts and all that stuff to now um if i was going to have to do that then i would prepare for that and to the people who that is their life i didn't abandon them but other parts each side of the wormhole being against the other maybe raining turds 

    outside base how many people related into the military and then thoughts on processing or predictions and that affecting us to here 

    so i can't talk to georgia and i need virginia or how am i going to live while also respecting memorial day though suicide missions or high risk dangerous parts or um responding to all of this like fort hunt um macon or savanah but back to helping my parents and daydreams so military spokespeople thus when i was spirit broken about phil dick pkd about disability and people cheating the rules the rule said you pick someone famous and do that version and you'll be okay i did that then people broke the rules like the adultery so don't talk to me don't bother me or that and all those loops i'm not doing that quit trying to kill my mom and dad and then like these cockameeney crazy stories i tell that turn out to be fact remember mexican drug tunnels remember online drug dealers cryptocurrency remember crooked cops so many of those 

    the recent story i told was while in public places like costco i'd make a elephant man face some 80s movie i heard of that i think i saw some but maybe was sensitive and scared of but so elephant man face then that followed by rolling stones logo tongue teeth face that about politics like i thought some republican party alignment different reasons for that gifts knowing someone um preference but pathological explanations running water utilities um marriages different difficult things but um then all these like weaponized things out there like crazy dark stories to mess with someones head and like personal life

    um augusta downtown um landlocked um the dirt and trees further from florida the architecture historians on slavery the roads to the oddness the deustchland influence the countryside 

    um bucknell outside old town the tourism um outside fort belvoir um the suburbs the major highway the demographics the surroundings like dc or belle haven um the daydream and longterm owners 

    the comfort of the future i know i'll have that to how far what's the guarantee and best cases 




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