unmarried and gay indoctrination parts so i am single selfish and purpose driven what i realized
so things i learned:
- wives inevitably probably commit adultery which can be hurtful and unavoidable though explainable and rational
- marriage is difficult and can be preplanned
- hanging with males is sort of shunned by public opinion (people will derogatorily call you gay if you hang out with dudes casually in free time) the long 2yr at undergrad can be a exception but mostly not that accepted and in addition to people being closeted
- the entertainment industry can be gay and also rumors of predominately jewish but did i have to find that one out with less than a decade and other times learning in my own in personal showing up there can be gay bashing
- survival um so you'll need a career and a way of surviving straight people can die early or have bad things happen so no real sex fiend successes by my math you'll have to assimilate and be untroublesome or work oriented to get the best results
so some of the dynamic of things i learned openly unmean so the term bear cub there's like motorcyclists or like biker gangs so you have a innocent idea of the future and avoid getting 'mawed' by a bear and can be a cub where you have like my dad me as a subordinate or underling so think like unniave or also platonic i'm not like sexually gay just some of this stuff that was sort of like unchanging and in reality
another um there was gender fluid when i didn't want to be a plumber um so there can be post op transgender who can have children and stuff about that the bathroom um
mistakenly flattered maybe a term i was stumped by was gold star so that thinking of things getting built up like southern males or um not having been gay i think that only happend in my life once knowingly maybe it was what i was saying was like the term a harpie this bird creature in dungeons and dragons that it can like moan and make people go mad that sounding cool like when i talked about guitarists to a interested understanding ear
so i'd think of someone famous and like that being presented to me where i could handle it and not be like scared off or call the cops or be depressed so here was what apparently may have been a big inside joke was bob dylan the 18yr recording artist legend so comparing to me um the tale is massive and almost like not humanly possible (him leaving to be like woody guthrie who did this land is your land) but so i um later saw other things for the maybe even naval story tellers like a picture that's famous of him outside with allen ginsberg a sort of known homosexual
so there's all the people out there that'll you'll deal with about that community the lgbtq flag lesbian gay bisexual transgender queer i learned queer can be pretty 'rock and roll' but difficult and drunkening like maybe little richard ignorantly in some ways so with that um i guess observations or stereotypes
so sticking to my parents having a form of service dog predicting troubles about marriage the story i repeated about the neighbor on the belle haven border um current gay okayness but not having it currently having gone further so the rational that if the va sodomized me i'd have to get through it that's where i get my paycheck from so thoughts on the list of poster childs for that niche of people
um unmarried so not abandoning my parents or facing reprucussions and retaliations for that what else um the like time and age for that sort of passed maybe hypothetically um enjoying being single and mental health drug use masturbation things probably work out for earthly people so the excuses and explanations to the logic of single male and retired disabled business
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