Starting a new chapter of life soon.

 Catching up? So where am I now what's going on? Realizing I am suffering from a bit of a social media addiction. But also not having any real progress with that isolated and facebook isn't that great anymore (but it's still free). Now what I did a few times was make famous picture collages to look at as a form of entertainment (either set to private or shared with my family) also since TV could seem not that good sometimes. Missing George Bush Jr era myspace. Growing up back then being a teenager during that. All that now gone it seems. That high of youth. 

More would be the big inception of Entourage in my head. When I wanted to be a celebrity. That lifestyle. Confusions about women. The promiscuity delusion. My parents and brother as my entourage? All the projects I did. What'll be up ahead? What's next? Seeing my future and looking back also. Seeing the next Entourage release Ramble On and not that interested. Charlie Sheen got HIV I heard not wanting that. Vince isn't in the show anymore. The Adrien Grier shows and movies I saw from a google search didn't sound that great. Liked Entourage and maybe Drive Me Crazy those two.

Trying to debunk some of these things like now ruling out the male enhancements due to the birth defects side effect. Promiscuity seems to not work also because of logistics. The references who did that seem to have problems I don't want. Was I too safe and conservative? 

Now thinking I am open to settling down and starting a family but the opportunities seem scarce. Younger men getting big with me. Complaints and police. Also as stated not wanting to get divorced. Thought I now was a good candidate have paychecks have a car have my parents to help out too.

So what's next really? Heading to Charles Town WV soon. Republican?

Seeing Tiger in the news. Thinking I had improvements from his life in some ways. Not dealing with divorce or the losses the trouble. Being moderated. Having my parents alive. Small victories. A paycheck. The possibility women may have had my children before. That story of how insane VCU was for me. But stopping. But also seeing how insane what he did was. Seeing the spiral of addiction all the sex the taboo that high the white women.

So settling down. Moving in with my parents soon. Privacy? What'll the future be? Any new videos to do? That being my new 'gerbil cage'. Seeing how it's tempting to be a little more foolish with the money. Being more generous on myself. Hearing the term 'nigger rich' before and seeing that being charming. As opposed to a miserly life spent saving money only for my family (who seems to have estranged me) to take all my hard work and for me to get essentially nothing out of it. That pointlessness. 

Trips to Fort Belvoir. The new commute soon. Curiosity about Hollywood Casino events. But the timing my nightly meds and the drive there and back. Trying out Martinsburg VA dental. Being generous and helpful picking up meals for my mom and dad. Trying to keep them alive and well. Thoughts on the Obama promises like healthcare? Wonder who the next president will be at times? Feeling rushed on that.

So a summary? What'll be my form of entertainment? Remembering the past minus bad parts that were irreplaceable in some ways the drugs. Facebook being a bit boring and isolated. My homemade productions youtube and my logs. I guess that's some for now.

A rumor I was a pedophile? When I wanted to write a book like JD Salinger.

Some names off the top of my head I enjoyed?

  • Jack Kerouac minus the substance abuse his friend Allen Ginsberg minus the homosexuality
  • Vince Entourage minus the drama and having my parents approval on things sex apparently being a sin or not allowed as a single

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