My references continued? There were a lot of them out there but here was the last literary one and one that was trending recently that caught my attention. Respecting what TW did accomplish the riches and sponsorships the sex etc. Another blog update quickly.

 Another one I forgot? So there was Steve Ditko. The co creator of Spiderman. That was being a conventional success. Paying the bills. So he's a veteran too. That was little wins. Being able to support myself and do what I enjoy forever. Comics? Art school? A long life. Also his parents were married but I think the biography Christmas gift book I read on him said his parents may have died earlier and I attributed that to his career. Thus I quit on that. But I think a youtube doc I watched on him said how he kept quitting on things that being reoccurring for him. So relating to that part too. Staying alive and doing well little improvements and progress.

Another one? So just rambling about Tiger Woods. That was that high of sex addiction. The taboo. The attractive white women. When it was out of reach or forbidden or inappropriate or escalating or a fantasy. It was there but I was never able to do it due to responsibility or awareness of what was at stake. Also confessing I believe in college women gave me the option of a vulgar sex relationship or a 'bagel dog' and every time I chose the baby thinking that was more important and bigger. A human being without problems instead of something I could've done myself being that miserly to masturbate instead to pirated subscription porn videos and get 'night caps'. So that was a little win. Like how I never got divorced. I never got married. So that was maybe succumbing to problems I had and was working on before the clock ran out (am I too old for women now? fertile girls?) or before women covered for me or before that was the best I could do under my circumstances like returning to help my parents. Getting my parents doing very good again.


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