The blue collars explained this one to me through my brother. At Roy Rogers I got a '2 piece'. Trivia is Roy's parents were married.

 I have excuses and explanations again. So here was one. I could've been more sexually active but instead I decided to attend to my family. I was concerned with my parents staying married. So I got distracted from focusing on women by thinking of my parents and their well being.

An example of this was Henry Miller. So I did a first draft that was similar with Tropic of Cancer. I was stationed in Germany and free and wild. But instead of following up with being an expat I had various parts I stopped at. I didn't want to get barred overseas. I didn't want to neglect my parents and brother. So I flaked on that quest.

Another was Adrian Grenier. I had a similar background with some parts like Vince starting with commercials on Entourage. But as stated I didn't want to contribute to my parents divorce so I found various places to stop or do things differently at. I heard warnings from peers with divorced parents. I took that stuff very serious and made sure I didn't get divorced myself either. 

Also to play devils advocate there were many issues I thought of. Divorce disease garnishments. So I played the role of a dependent disabled veteran. I used my parents and interact with them. Things can go wrong despite being innocent. More would be how many womanizer men do they show all got married and possibly divorced see that hole in the story. But maybe it's different I have said how if things lined up right I'd get married and start a family.



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