Is it smarter to just be disabled? Is it smarter to never go pro or past amateur? Is it smarter to use paid pornography? Is it smarter to quit? Is it smarter to not get put in bad scenarios over foolish naivety? See my point?

 A little bit of my lesson actually is don't do anything. So I was having free time and thinking deeply? So with a guitar there's all the next steps I don't want to take. No tour no hearing damage no exposure to drugs because of the VA etc. Then with porn I don't want to be at risk for problems (disease divorce garnishments) in addition to it being a sin.

So what was I trying to do or say? I guess I enjoyed producing and making my own material. Doing things my way. But there can be downsides to that like not making a commission or neglecting other more important things in life. So obviously I can't get high anymore and that was a flashback that can't be really  compared to anything else.

So I was looking at guitars because I played one of mine that was cheaper as opposed to one I had that was more expensive. But still. It seems to conflict with my parents schedule or my own desires. And that whole dynamic of porn versus guitar? So what is there still out there?

And how many times do they have me show up for the people who are trying or attempting to do something to only be shown I am better they are fools or it wasn't worth it etc. So I increased my guitar playing skills bounds by being AWOL in a hotel in Germany or paying my dues to professional nightclubs. But after that what is there? It seems that it is annoying or irritating for others for the incomplete answer or as always with me excuses and explanations.

So the story of guitar shopping. There are so many different guitars at different prices each with a specific purpose. But you don't want to go to cheap and regret it and be left with a embarrassing piece of crap. Or you don't want to neglect pornography and be left as a hermit wanker idiot fool? So it's fun to produce and release new content. But moderation clearly. Using my caregiver parents.

See the deaths that can occur from someone's selfishness and neglect. You can't undo suicides from your neglect. See the insurance issues losing military benefits over taking illegal drugs. See the issues with women disease garnishments and and it's a sin. So see how the disabled make sense? Even when it isn't fun or it's annoying being shut down? Not being put in a bad place. And how quickly that can happen. How easily that is to fall into a bad scenario.

But then in this story I could use a professional. There's Alexandria Music in Belle View. There's Guitar Center in Alexandria. There's doing it myself and researching and shopping online.



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