I got into a tier 1 school. However I dropped out because of familial obligations and financial burdens. My story was natural and moral. I was accountable for my decisions.

 What happened you ask? Well all along my college trek there were issues I addressed as a responsible young adult. It wasn't premeditated. It was all natural and ethical and humane and caring. 

So before I left for university I was intercepted by many. Whether that was my peers or others parents direct and indirect or even faculty that was where my mindset was adjusted. So basically I was given no accommodation or time just point blank asked how I'd pay for it all. Something that I now do to my brothers kids is muse how will they pay for their education and point out how you can graduate and have no vocational skill afterwards. Like a picture of a child drowning. 

So initially I thought I was going to go to VCU and maybe I'd get an MBA. Or at least a bachelor's degree in business. So people all throughout my life would play devils advocate with me.

In hindsight I don't know if that was just that and they were right and were helping me face reality. I was given warnings and ultimatums that I heeded. Basically it was like people were asking if I'd let my family kill themselves or get divorced so I could finish school something they didn't get to do that I was doing and that I felt guilty about and responsible for. I didn't let that happen to my family.

So day one or so or the days leading up to school? People were putting me on the spot saying I'd never be able to pay off my student loan and that I'd regret it and yes I could graduate but I'd still be a failure with lifelong unfeasible debt. Also people were pointing out to me that in the process of higher education if I stayed the course bad things would happen to my family. My parents and brother could kill themselves. My parents could get divorced. 

So in the background I had the plan that I was going to write a book and get rich and famous from that in addition to many projects I did do. Whether that was movies music photography skateboarding producing etc. There were lots of things I was teaching myself and following up with.

So when I got there I was basically directed to partying. More of that was when later on I had a pseudo job in nightlife. All of this was business. So it seemed I was being guided by my peers to party for a while and then join the U.S. Amy to pay it all off immediately. Which I did despite student loan forgiveness that I didn't get. That was based off people asking about EG my dad's professional background. He joined the Army and went to California when he was younger and met my mom.

So I smoked a lot of drugs and drank a lot of alcohol. Not knowingly doing heroine. My grand aunt who helped prep me for school since elementary she is a JMU grad I thought she was an influence on that EG my cousin was a drug user her son. So explaining myself? I was immediately sucked into the underground illegal drug trade business. Before weed was legalized and decriminalized in Virginia. 

Again this seemed to be another natural job I had. I didn't seek it out rather it fell right into my lap and began to strangle me. So I could explain all the logistics and psychologies of it. I would deliver drugs on my hand me down skateboard from a peer with divorced parents from WPHS and in turn mostly got to smoke for free sometimes. But yes my summer job work savings was blown spent on surcharged marijuana grams strictly. Or just to summarize that that was the gig I was given and I didn't complain or fight rather I manned up and took what I was given and made the most of it.

Also there were other warnings I heeded along my journey. I never got divorced or had other bad things happen to me like disease and garnishments. I was cautious and skeptical of women. 

I thought I did fulfill my education quest by my hardwork or moral integrity or self taught discipline. I did the best I could with what I had. My lesson was to pay off my loan as opposed to graduating. That was like Ebenezer Scrooge with Charles Dickens. 



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