I can't do any substance abuse now because of the VA. Are all those old friendships thus permanently terminated because of logistics? At one point I went out of my way to try to help them through nightlife bankshots in the 2010s. Did the substance abuse community help me to get me to where I am now? I can still pray for them like doing rosaries at the church and with my parents.

 So where's this now? I can not do substance abuse now due to the VA. That's how I get paid and that whole loop so respecting the doctors wishes. Before when I couldn't I still managed to try to make amends with nightlife from Willie Nelson to countless others.

There was my past involvement with the drug community. Users dealers even entertainers on the circuits. Now I am on a regular sleep schedule. Did me and my old friends just get grossly disconnected entirely?

I can't do that and won't really budge on it for safety with my military benefits. That puts me in a quarantine in some ways. Furthermore I can't see how they manage to pull it off entirely. Factors like the stress of the potential danger or that countered with how much money you'll actually make.

By stopping doing drugs I've probably maybe greatly improved my potential lifespan. So my freshman and sophmoric releases went hard but now things have cooled off now. Would future releases still be as rewarding and uplifting? Am I just %100 cut off from any ties to that now because I didn't want to leave old pals hanging?



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