What do I have to do to get memorialized? Would VCU treat me like Mark Twain since I dropped out or paid off my loan? Doesn't my reputation and image deserve to last and continue? I think I should be memorialized when I die with even merch or things named after me.

 They should name some stuff after me when I die. What about a school or a street or a park? But then again the negativity never was my merch formally made see the corrupt gay jewish entertainment industry. Don't I deserve at least that much for my effort?

Remember the Nesbitt show? When I had the videos on youtube and facebook of my family gatherings. Or when I made my album I wrote. Aren't I a bit of a local legend?

There were the places I got to see. Georgia Germany DINFOS Front Royal Alexandria Luray etc. Didn't I have a positive impact on those places? Why aren't I getting remembered for what I did?

Or is it back to Scrooge with just the future coming true? A dead body in a cemetery. What about all the writings I did like surveys or blogs? Also does my great grand dad's legacy count for anything did some o that carry over to me?



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