Would that have been cool if I was a male pornstar? See having great sex and doing that on video. But then too see having the police on my side and living wild and reckless. To see the 1970s and pussy. Thankfully I didn't have to go gay awake or contract AIDs.

 I admit it I snitched before. So my aim was never revenge or punishment or anything evil really. It was rather protecting my own neck and my family too. So I never got the sexual benefits I heard of for compliance.

I told the VA and FBI and outside police before about my knowledge of the drug world. Way before I got word they were looking for a collar which was slang for someone to incarcerate and I basically ran like hell. I instantly joined the Army and paid off my loan and complied with all my military and state protocols. But I guess to be thankful for what I got I did get exposed to some sex here and there before.

So would that have been cool if I was actually an undercover or an informant? To get police immunity and favored even more. Basically referencing John Holmes I was semi interested in that but strayed after hearing his parents divorced not wanting that that being a deal breaker. But were there ways of still doing different versions of that like Elvis and guitar for me how many guitarists did I see and learn from?

I just wanted to have fun and things unraveled naturally. I followed the natural occurrence of each thing and to be honest was put in a bad place before but each time I surfaced okay mostly unscathed. Again my motive for why I cooperated was I didn't want to get in trouble myself and could see how easy that was to happen I was in debt for my student loan and that whole loop. It would be nice to be a male porn star and flattering myself I do have a modestly little larger than average sized penis.



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