A memoir sample. Two specific VCU girls did they cover for me? I have no evidence or confirmation that I have ever had children. I still can't escape Scrooge. But I have my suspicions I have gotten women pregnant without doing that or without problems for me. But what now?

 Here's a bit of a memoir. So sometimes later on things can seem to come out or. So in this case here was a story I was remembering. To give you the testimony or play by play. So here was where the story picked up I thought some women in VCU may have had my babies and I was following up with that before someone interrupted me (that was a group who played Nats stadium the interrupters) and kept harassing me and stalking me for years.

So to begin from that persons perspective. I was a new kid in town that's an Eagles song. So in the new elementary school I saw a fellow student wearing generic I think pay less shoes and he seemed to be infuriated by me and jealous of me but intrigued and fascinated. Later on I think it came out that EG being from Front Royal and having tough parents I was original and not processed. Around this time I vaguely became aware of terms like social work or other city terms. So he later attached to me and I've always had a maybe French set of mind (maybe from my grand mother) where I wouldn't fight but I'd still win see seeing Seu Jorge live. So more on that was I think Eric or Sonny may have been sent to me from my grand dad's golfing. In hind sight I think I may have always been one of grand dad's favorites. More would be I thought him and his spouse got in an argument and later there was a divorce but I thought when I saw him he said otherwise (I'd forgive peoples trespasses for years or listen to excuses and explanations always) so I thought some of this could've been over things I was doing. See a story was country club kids having their parents go through them to ask if I'd cheat or making deals and promises like I could do that forever so that one was being asked about marriage and basically getting shot down. See later on considering it but it not working. Maybe to my benefit.

So here was what happened. The other day I was at week day mass doing the rosary and I thought the priest was insinuating that Sonny got me to the girls at VCU. Did he screen me and introduce me to the connection point? So for years to my defense people had been finding things to use against me like when you see horse racing and the gambling on that things that can make you lose or distract you. Some ultra competitive parents or people trying to make me feel small or take credit for my victories.

So at VCU I met some girls. My intent of this was not to hurt anyones feelings or be vulgar. (BTW a rule I looked up that I still keep was waiting 10 years to be in the clear legally sometimes that unraveled naturally like the spray painted rooftop but moving on). Rather one part was to clear things up or find resolutions. So here was the scary part Rachel and Kaitlyn those two later on I thought may have stepped up and had my baby. So now I'll detail each one.

Another part was at VCU things like me listening to warnings or deals. So in this case my Aunt Allison I thought went through my dad to gift me a perry ellis cologne set that it looked a little bit like a giant phallic shape not that vulgar a tube with a sphere circle at the end. If I remember right I think my black roommate in the dorms black mailed me for this and other things before. Some of that was my friend from New York I think may have found a good answer with showing me smoking. I think afterwards it might've been cocaine too. So I thought my Aunt's reason for the gift if there's a motive was maybe she saw me as a developping prospect as did others I was becoming a modestly good success. So here was as another subplot that may have been reoccurring in life. Women very mad with their men or very happy with me before too. Did the black roommates girlfriend who later became his spouse did she too have potential to have had my baby? Some of that was later learning the garnishments were on the way so it's possible. See the story of being asleep and ejaculating. That wasn't where the story was going that was a side note.

So Rachel had big boobs. What I thought I may have remembered as a good sound bite was that she'd rather kill her self than be uneducated something like that like seeing the depressing side to minimum wage jobs. Around this time there was Bangbros internet porn too. And this was before Obama. So later on I think she may have said she was in a relationship with a Sheriff. I think she was guiding me about EG my skateboarding career too like the baby being a girl because I bitched out on my rebellion. I think that guy may have given me a pretty good deal seeing how many times I was cast as the art weirdo loser malnutritioned before too. So basically some more was here was a story in VCU the mac books were very popular. Later I learned John Lennon had ties to starting Apple. More would be when I read bios in the military library about him it always said how successful he was with women and how I thought he had a lot of babies. Later I didn't know that his mom got hit by a car and died early. More would be this was later when hypothetically in the Army I was going to do a EG artschool hobby professional and be a genius and become wealthy. So more would be people guiding me. Telling me me and my family would be alright if I did this or the coeds almost taking me away instead of classes. Hearing my NY roommates childhood friend Adam later say that I was a ladies man in the dorms. So Rachel introduced me to a gay man before who I think was set to graduate unlike I think both of us dropped out. This proved I wasn't gay. He had blonde hair and I think plastic surgery done and also like A&F. So more would be I thought she said he's not getting what he's paying for and thus she took it into her own hands. See the picture of like arrogant lawyers being sexually active big egos. My mom says I don't have babies because women haven't ever came back to me looking for money. More parts she fed me spaghetti o's before I was tough to deal with because I'd see like locks on things (despite how many times I gave away my stuff before) and think I'd go to jail if I took them but she forced it down me and fed me. Another was she said she wasn't ever coming back to Richmond it was too far she was from Waynesboro. So during this I suspected she had a grand mother or matriach figure in her life who was getting good superstition from me. Many times I'd feel like there was someone watching me and thus try to be on my best behavior. This was before my grand parents died too. So I think one time I had on a pair of red levis tight pants from Unique Fairfax that she liked and was saying an introduction to quitting hobbies or porn. Maybe that I think police type boyfriend tayloring me. That story was Michael Jackson being seen as a martyr. His whole life sexually frustrated. More parts were rewards for good behavior my integrity so because I was doing what I was supposed to. So while she was still in town she helped me on nights where my roommate was difficult to live with a Navy vet with a scar on his arm whose rental roof I spray painted on as a favor to the professor. Her roommate let me sleep with her before and on occasions offered me sex before but I turned her down for fears of EG my uncle or other repurcussions and shame for my foreskin. My uncle may have been made example of with incarceration and heroine.

So Kaitlyn. She was a fashion student. To this day I like shopping with mom. There were other fashion students who helped me before but I think some stopped talking to me like Geneva. I met her mother and they were from Pennsylvania. We first met while we were still in the dorms. More would be after my roommate kicked me out of his apartment I had to move (and didn't want to go home yet thinking the party wasn't over yet) so Kaitlyn and her friends had a suite on campus at Stuart Court. So at the time me and Erika were sort of pseudo dating. And other times sex was offered but I turned it down. Fears of pregnancy garnishments even disease and not as much divorce. In high school my sophmore year I was doing well academically and listened to my history teacher Beeby about apparently the prevalence of Aids. Moving on around that time the professor was telling me about Henry Miller but I turned it down maybe because of Raymond and his inputs. I had dental problems I couldn't afford. So many military affiliated people getting into my life and maybe rescuing me I didn't fight them and heeded their suggestions. That one was Ray was a Navy family and I thought things they knew could be like before I even had any idea who Scrooge was. So Henry Miller was sexually active and I suspect could've been exposed to more. My drug dealers one of them warning me he'd do heroine to me if I didn't pay my loan. Fast forward I made it home to my family and they are still married and alive. More would be I was going to point out this one. Maybe in Kaitlyn's case a point was like my Aunt when women would be embarrassed or made to look foolish or hurt. That one was where she later introduced me to Keith where I was scared about that that was about how far things were going to go (see Bill Wyman instead he's the veteran bass player founding member of the Stones as opposed to Keith eg Africa). I'd been invited back to peoples home cities before but turned a lot of them down because I didn't have any money Corey and Dexter covered for me though and brought me to their parents. Back to where I was more of that could've been uncircumcised women or even transgenders. So the story in general with VCU women was we cuddled and slept together and sometimes I'd remember a good night dream where I thought my penis went inside of a vagina. To make it more realistic afterwards it wasn't nearly as vile as the movies make it out to be. Maybe it was from being around my mom or old people now that made the body seem more like a catcher mitt or pee hole then some offensive sex scene. See the brain hit nymphos stuff. So it was like putting my penis into someones woom and rocking back and forth unconcious and shooting a load and later being very hungry. So I'd walked in on some of the other girls having sex with guys before and been hurt and got my teeth cut on that before. To the point of being warned of permanent homosexual Bob Dylan friends with Allen Ginsberg. So I had my strengths. Were we like pirates back then on campus?

So now where I am at is I believe having babies by strong arming it is very difficult with lots of logistics issues like unsatisfactory sex or a lack of a bond with the partner. Also I thought by being natural women could've helped me already. To name some scenarios Georgia Psychward Germany brothel Spain British girls Richmond VCU girls Amish girls Lancaster PA Catholics etc. So sticking to my story as I did the entire time I thought there were more then a few times in my life where women had my babies. I thought there were reasons like my parents are married I have a paycheck I paid my loan or I was in a opportune spot in life or I was masturbating lots of reasons I was a good candidate. Is that ironic that out of how many times I thought the women could cheat on me and not have my baby ironically maybe they did actually have my baby? That was like how I said maybe being like Bill Wyman made sense. I thought those famous rockstars were very successful reproducing and I thought he was like a different version of the EG Beatles. I didn't want to abandon my parents or have them go through strife. So I don't think I am necessarily killing myself but there were other parts too. I thought I had obligations to my parents or kept swearing Obama was going to keep his deal with retirements and good lives.