Can someone help with an answer to this scenario? Is this feasible? Should I invest my energy in something else instead? Was instead I meant to have a guitar legacy? Was I tricked and niave? It seems like countless others get away with this and do it the wrong way.

 Ok let me explain. I don't want complaints or to get kicked out or to have the police called on me all of which have happened before and I don't think I always deserved that. So moving on. I will censor this to avoid setting off admins my intent was not to be offensive or hurtful.

Starting off explaining some of this goal in mind was EG I was basically sent to the German brothel. Another was growing up I'd always see these males who were successful with multiple women (before finding out about deal breaker trivia about them) like Jerry Seinfeld John Lennon (Beatles but there's tribute groups as a loophole) Anthony Kiedis (RHCP) the Entourage show Californication or the adult content on the internet those free videos and samplers during my teens. Another jargon on this was logistics things not lining up for reasons like adultery or there were issues in my life I have had resolved somewhat like getting out of debt or having a paycheck. I was a new kid in a town and things kept going for a while until the most recent stops see Front Royal Alexandria VCU Fort Meade Fort Gordon Germany Washington DC Luray.

Was being successful with women (plural) feasible with me? I had constraints like I wanted to contribute to my parents marriage and prioritized that over other things though. More of this was I didn't know what I learned about was EG the adult dvds or that whole realm. Explaining some of that I was spirit broken with hobbies before like when I wrote music (guitar and another layer was thinking I had accountability to the entertainment industry or taking that serious learning about respecting the LGBTQ communities) or did other formats from paintings to my EG youtube channel if you wanted more of my journalism I used to have my public instagram all these things I did free and for being a good person. I wanted to stay single because I EG heeded warnings about divorce or infidelity too lots of logistics issues thinking about it I believe 1 women have taken care of me before with babies or 2 starting a family wasn't quite in the cards for me and further more it passed me I am older now though I still feel like I am a little bit of a runt.

I was introduced to the term women addiction in a adults with disabilities group outside Fort Belvoir. Basically the vice choices were gambling (I from experience learned I can't do that like being a npc in dnd though I'll seem to be ok with nintendo lately) substance abuse (I can't do that I follow my psychiatrist's instructions I don't need weed or booze anymore EG or tobacco) or thus the women (I am not gay but thought I was going to get exposed to that as per what my cousin said would happen with the doctor who has power over me so help with prepping for that it's not big deal it just hasn't unfolded yet). As far as being a serious journalist I even took it so far as to see Anderson Cooper with the Real Housewives host (I thought that'd help me with the women it was weird though that night they called me out as being the only straight male in the audience) live one time while I was in mostly famous live music shows during the 2010s that was my beat nightclubs and trying to mindmap through that and also help combat dementia was a earworm for me during Obama.

So some references complying with the school systems formats for papers were Henry Miller (married parents and some comparable parts to me like having been outcast before or setting out to write the next great American novel) or JD Salinger (I was a drop out for explanations I never had time to explain but always made sense like listening to older comrades in the military for advice and guidance) or Carmen Filpi (was I a bum for not selling out or for sticking to my family stories from a comparable guy in the old neighborhood a much older alive home owner with dead cars and an indian care taker). So going back to studying for being successful with women one name I learned was John Holmes and I had comparable parts to him like I complied with being an informant (but again as always some dealbreaker trivia see his story with divorced parents or me not wanting to suddenly die of Aids). My logic was if I can play guitar like Elvis (EG I became more proficient with studies and events my confidence grew and my ability grew that was a goal to be a guitar hero) I can be good with women like John Holmes but nothing really worked going back to the beginning see in other words being permanently made enemy of the state no one will acknowledge or interact with me despite improvements I have like freedom free time and yes I have caregiver or the old mafia type mil affiliates harassing me for life.

So I can let it go if I am wrong. EG two people who may have shown me that it's not possible were one a guy nick named Peanut Butter (half black and half white guy whose dad failed at being a successful with women man) or my Uncle who had problems in life I won't go into garnishments incarceration heroine. More of respecting moderation or the powers over me would be at one point I thought I had to be like Philip K Dick (disabled ghetto writer mil affiliate) but am glad I avoided it and kept my benefits but these references can literally be fake news all the time like there was a French biography of him that didn't seem to illustrate the divorced parents rather it was a francophile depiction I checked out from the County library for experience points before again another shutdown and cancellation mor dereliction. So basically I was interested in women but heeded warnings or quit on self studies on this like another was Manuel Ferrara having a dead dad I didn't know that trivia about him. 

Explaining some more I am quite ignorant to this one but confessing I had a court case for touching a womans butt. I took a plea and got off with no time I hear things within earshot and heard things like things would start going my way for another strike against me was being a lifelong Republican. But going back to my safety EG a question I proposed was why were all the men who were successful with women I found ending up in a relationship? That didn't seem like what they wanted like Rivers Cuomo of Weezer hearing about him with adult workers.