A new drug appears so would I try Clozapine? I think my parents weren't currently interested in me switching to this. Daydreaming about it I'd see me EG having sex with Harrisonburg college girls. The smell of pussy piss on me.

 Here was the story in my head. Clozapine would make me sexually active like the character F by Nicoloas Bro in Nymphomaniac. So there'd be some side effects that wouldn't be too bad like putting on weight. I'd be fine with them and could see how that could help with my goal of being sexually active.

So it wasn't like I had to be JD Salinger some of that was like a soldier who has to meet his objectives. I prioritized my parents over my brother but didn't really want anyone to die. But the vulgar temptation of being with women. It would be nice to see people from the past or have an advantage in the bedroom.

So some side effects peeing the bed while asleep at night constipation potential seizures gaining weight and prolonged erections. Was this just a fantasy? I think some of this was previous things that greatly affected me like Haldol (can be used on parrots and was used on soviet dissidents according to Wikipedia) which was a older antipsychotic. So I could see some of it like going to the grocery store again Walmart and Food Lion loading up on food or ordering clothes from Casual Male XL DXL.

I've seen charming larger people too. I was not trying to be insensitive calling a person fat. There's the Sheer Terror guy who could be charming. So what if this one ever came about?



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