A sampler of wormwood text.

 My life on the road and home again. Revolving around my parents and the rest of the day. Energy drained up from daily mass. The overnighting commuting.

Winter weather and miserliness. The computer and days with the dog. The life on ssdi to be complacent and accept sterility. Reviewing my prolific catalog.

Longing for pizza after a summer day by the pool. The drive to the store for bananas and milk. Currently a blanket of snow resting over the outside landscape for a few days while the sun can be mediocrely warm and at other times chillingly cold. A lazy stupor haze from a Hamburger Helper lunch by myself in the office suite.

The encouragement from being around my parents who are married. Chipotle the other night with their dim lights and ethnic music and the crowd of teenage public school student from my school I graduated from. The pain in my fatty liver from maybe a combination of alcoholism junk food and dodging getting reenlisted again. Many books unread and reasons to stop and things I didn't know.

The cool era long gone. That's the past. Now conventional ways and frugality. Collecting my paychecks. Saving up a little bit of money for emergencies and issues that can come up.

Legs tired. Less walking but still getting around. Longjohn thermal bottoms on and the youtube channel to leave off.  Nightly drug induced sleep.

Lyrics line by line sing along karoake with the strangers and guests. My brothers house up the hill and around the corner. Wanting sex but issues with the logistics. The fantasies and delusions in my mind and heart.

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