new email thread begun

 Ok so what is my future? I do miss some of my past like my youtube channel.

So that makes me think should mom and dad start training me (have to remember to watch night people free on youtube in the morning since i've been waking up earlier and maybe some vintage martial arts ones)? And ways of using Stuart still and his family lately exhausted at night and he's not up in the morning (using the day better). My explanations to my conclusions [sic] RPGs Tom Brady Bill Wyman Bob Dylan Rodney Mullen Roy Rogers etc. Insurance fear and the quitting crux part safety.

So some of this is the returning story of the future. Am I Noble Wall or inspired by Robbie Tenant? A story was the SME RPG names have deal breakers (has Dylan been jailed before and the compass from that see all the variant people like Lee Ranuldo who I saw the Black Cat picks likE RIchard Lloyd or Roky Erikson but not doing that all the way EG staying with family and at my house). Also the quote 'that's my story and I'm sticking to it.' that being the women confusion while staying single and safe (the reoccurring question why did the womanizer men get married? and loyalty to past flames see guitar player jewelry).

Some of it was being prolific. Keep putting out new rough material (will we see Francine this year and if so should I film privately?). The ramp fall where my arm still is off but might help me stay out of the Army and keep my benefits was clearly remembering how it happened bc of chips.

Productivity and variety. Painting miniatures the way I said I would. Not losing all my possessions suddenly [sic] was that donations? Storage for my collections. Paying y'all back and continued work on my house staying tight.

What about the family singing along? I bring my cassette tape recorder and play guitar and we make noise together voices captured paranormal on that. Could do that instantly and it's documented recordings. What project should I begin (thinking I am ready for big canvas now)?

Feel like so many people want this out of me.

Heeding what Wyatt said I am asking for help with if the Doctor has to sodomize me. Last time it didn't happen with Dr Peebles or Dr Michener. Maybe he was wrong. Maybe it was a lie or a joke.

I was being cautious. What the scenario I believe I have avoided by consenting to oral and anal was not getting reenlisted. That happened to Trautmann and Burnette.

So it was not getting caught doing it if that is what they say happens. Also it was not having knee jerk bad reactions. I am not gay but do rationalize this.

There's explanations to it I could invent or make up. US Navy LGTBQ what else PTSD mil lifers. So that was then a glimpse of the 27s club John Holmes. Instead of ultra safety which I can't escape.

Some of this I thought could've been being lawful or maybe domesticated too.

I would rather get sodomized by the VA then be sent back into the Army. Maybe I am paranoid. I don't want either of us to get caught if that is how that is done. 

I thought I may have wanted at one point to be an adulterer like John Redcorn the cartoon character. But I'd have confusions about that like logistics (marriage being unfeasible or like the factoring it all out) being open but it's against the rules. I daydreamed about reference points but sometimes they worked other times I erred on the side of caution due to deal breaker trivia. EG I thought most everyone is married and things like variety or booty calls or back to staying single.

This was I thought I saw older people do this one. Put up signs because of potential bad guests. So solving things and getting everything tuned up. Dealing with people business and the future an observation.

Heeding what Wyatt said I am asking for help with if the Doctor has to sodomize me. Last time it didn't happen with Dr Peebles or Dr Michener. Maybe he was wrong. Maybe it was a lie or a joke.

I was being cautious. What the scenario I believe I have avoided by consenting to oral and anal was not getting reenlisted. That happened to Trautmann and Burnette.

So it was not getting caught doing it if that is what they say happens. Also it was not having knee jerk bad reactions. I am not gay but do rationalize this.

There's explanations to it I could invent or make up. US Navy LGTBQ what else PTSD mil lifers. So that was then a glimpse of the 27s club John Holmes. Instead of ultra safety which I can't escape.

Some of this I thought could've been being lawful or maybe domesticated too.

I would rather get sodomized by the VA then be sent back into the Army. Maybe I am paranoid. I don't want either of us to get caught if that is how that is done. 

I thought Stuart and others could have an edge where they could try to kill my parents over things like the cuts. Some of that I thought was when we try to do something all the people who try to block on it immediately. More input to help address our future and lives. This instead of more surveys.

an update. I may consider amending my Christmas wishlist. So I requested books but wasn't sure if I'd read them or I am not paralyzed or reading dad's books or am I going in a different direction?

Explaining my self was I thought I have to be like celebs or things EG immediately go wrong. Thinking the VA pays me to be a creator like the celebs like Bill Wyman and Steve Ditko. Othersides the huge tic of using mom and dad and staying single.

Some of this was this year I believe I am not seeing Christmas Carol. That was like holocaust bad how much of an inception that was in my head. Some of this was like using processed people for me and my family (Entourage flashbacks Stuart as Drama being good but where are mom and dad? offended with the Ari Goldand his spouse scenes)(two shows of interest were Californiacation and Adventure time but always finding deal breakers in them).

Some of my next idea was things a partner would help groom me up with. Some of that was like I thought of a Veteran requesting Tostitos nacho cheese (that being funny and realistic) or things that'd get used see Miami characteristics (art deco like Hotel California from the Eagles) or see. Another in my head that started again was being a womanizer. 

So dad hasn't posted his list yet or joined. I thought if we were to be able to do something like singing along to my guitar with me recording to cassette tape.

So leaving room for whoever got me to help. Are art supplies a good idea? See the being a skater style of puberty and school. See things I thought would help mom and dad married.

So things that can help me training myself. Guitar hand exercises? Posters. Accessible useable studies when I was interested in Master Class. My book lists were to study those like heroes and things I produced.

So still interested in my gifts I put on my Amazon wishlist. Then a story was the confusion of turning into Noble Wall (home owner with mil benefits maybe?) or staying alive.

The biggest of the cheapest canvases was my next idea since mom doesn't want me to be like celebs. It could be ordered and shipped to mom and dad's house.

Level 1 Back Stapled Canvas by Artist's Loft® | Michaels

I believe I have officially maybe quit reading Little Things (at abouit the halfway mark). I was impressed and did enjoy it but now I believe it was a PKD direction and have thus corrected my ways and seen the error in my thinking (the issues like I believe I can keep my benefits and keep my parents married). So still collabing and using mom and dad.

An issue for me is this. Intense training and productivity countered with the interest in being a womanizer that temptation talking to women but still dead ended thinking I can't think of an example to reference who did my stipulations (like single or variety). & stories in my head (rewards for doing the right thing and staying the course). Enjoying hobbies and home ownership more the dog and my parents and brother.

A next update is I believe Dylan is something now of some deal breakers. EG one was the album cover the basement tapes (see having collections but hearing y'all sides) then it was all the things I didn't want to do (like touring or busking EG) but still being a fan it's like propaganda. I wasn't sure what y'alls input was about the Dec 1 opening night of the Chalamet Dylan movie (could this be like Scrooge too?).