Why are you guilt tripping me? Why is all my time being wasted so that you can extract every morsel out of my life and into your life? What is the point of even living with these experience ruiners out there already conspiring?

 Why do I always have to feel guilty about someone out there? The indian boy wants a white woman. But then I always don't get anything. The muslim boy like the indian boy wants a white woman.

Now no one will talk to me because of the food chain. My name is put down the toilet along with my entire life. Someone has already taken all their time to give me another wild goose chase in addition to figuring out how to rob me. I get nothing and whomever needs to take advantage of me for the rest of my life.

To this day I have to remember I was incarcerated and there are people in the US Navy now. Everyone gets everything and I have to serve them forever. The County will otherwise continue to give me the ultimatums like reenlistment homelessness and suicide. Why is everyone conspiring to guilt trip me permanently?

What was the point of going to VCU? What was the point of paying my bills? What was the point of joining the Army? Why it seems the only answer is the VA Caregiver program where I am a pseudo prisoner.



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