Email to my parents. Update on my current issue. What is the command? To try being a sex addict? To be a masturbator Saint? Can anyone else give me an answer other than Scrooge? Let's have fun.

I was I believe setting course for being promiscious. There could be other factors like [sic] Noble Wall am I supposed to marry an indian woman? Other stuff too being a practicing Catholic. I wanted to get my parents permission and approval and inclusion. I would be fine doing this around them and wanted to document it too on video. The term I heard for this was sex addiction. I thought if that was like being an alcoholic it could be fun. Easy as music nightlife beers. I wanted to get y'all included too. What am I supposed to prep for?
I thought this was another [sic] Scrooge phase. Paintings miniatures college beer weed army Germany Georgia. Things like that. I have seen Christmas Carol maybe at least 4 times in a row recently and the same things kept happening in the story. And that appears to be my lesson.
I didn't want to be like the example [sic] Eric or others like amputees. I thought people from the County promised me things like this from doing what I was supposed to when I was young. I believe people have had my kids before and they are taken care of from what I have done.
I was seeing what the command was. What am I supposed to do? Not wanting to nag y'all about things like a new guitar or bass or other stuff. Tickets events.
I thought adultery was some what normal. It seems to happen no matter what. What about fairness for everyone? I thought the Government could make this mandatory.
As far as kids I suspected this story. If I have a tic that might be someone had my kid. Everything was taken care of EG because I am a disabled veteran and am lawful. Could have been my Aunts my Belle View elementary alumni my DDEAMC unit my Deustchland pseudo rumspringer etc. And I thought if I bring one up they'll show up also if I don't want it can be pruned. Are they faking this?
I thought about what could get in the way the logistics. The schedule. Staying single for now. I did want a good pet bird someday but most of all wanted to be a home owner.
I tried to stay in touch with my professors. I had enjoyed when I wrote letters. I felt accountable and obligated to help the communities.
An issue was masturbation & the guitar. To see the point for doing that and also the point for not doing that. The guy Richard Lloyd being shown crazy and then other parts people who ruined there careers. But I didn't want to do that all the way and had other excuses EG acoustic.
Was I supposed to go to the strip club to do this? To build rapport with sex workers. To think to pay for the room & lap dances.
I was trying to make this accessible. What about mom and dad getting to sample or have variety with their terms and non negotiables?
There were things I thought about either doing myself or bringing up to y'all like Babbitt at Shakespeare Theatre Company DC or the Birchmere. If there was one that seemed useful Keiko Matsui.
And I am back to thinking Scrooge is the only answer. Immediately if I don't do that everything is ruined.
I thought to now use a professional. See names like Larry Flynt or Hugh Hefner. I could see the other side where I use y'all. When I said use a professional it was like if you do that it is easy and guaranteed. Seu Jorge making sense at 930 Club.
I had used pornography. I surmised EG a subscription to Adult Empire could solve that. Like the music I listen then they show up then it happens. I used xvideos and am addicted.
Then there was my lesson like threats the if not. If I don't do this then something bad will happen.
I was seeing about arranging booty calls. Not sure if you'd let me have a guest in the basement in Alexandria. Or when there's time at my house in Luray. To be able to have sessions.
Am I allowed to talk to strangers? To network and get connections.
Getting y'alls permission. If we share a hotel double room then being able to do that without a problem. Not being upset if y'all are with the same people. If I record it then I could set it to private. Or take pictures to store.
Wanting to be around y'all. It seems if we are not near each other it is immediately sad & creepy. Y'all are my number one priority. As stated I believe this is just a dollop. EG from what I have researched thus far it doesn't work permanently. Countless celebs married. Tiger Woods stories I was scared of the jail the rehab the dead parents. Things I didn't want to happen. To put my parents first. Like a dog thinks.
I was blogging. I had done surveys. More of this was things I thought were contributing to the world. EG samples and references to studies I had VCU online school the VA Germany etc.
I was avoiding accidents. Not wanting pregnancy or garnishments. Believing fortunate things like some women would want to have my kids free. The offensive dynamic like it being appreciated the way it's delivered.
Some of this seemed unavoidable. Like the interracial during Obama. & that was what I became interested in the white women. Not being racist but hearing how there were ways I could racially profile.
I was trying to make our retirements good. To have a great sex life as the current issue. Not being offended or upset or unincluded.
Another was the dental. I have a tooth that I thought my ultimatum is to go to the VA in Martinsburg and their decision can affect if Stuart lives or dies. I thought my William Frankling tooth was fine and he was okay now. I thought there was reasoning behind this to like objectives parents married or me not having my life ruined or questioning other dentists integrity and results. Also it was seeing others as examples.
I was trying to deliver the VCU life to us. To think of others tuned up better or paletted better. Couples dynamics and methods.
I thought like heroine I could center on sex. If it was like when I was doing DC music nightlife. Eating Costco and my life revolving around that. Then the other one was using my parents more and the Nesbitt business. To center on getting projects done at my house through y'all. Enjoying dad's coaching but feeling like we all got busy and things like being lawful. Freedom being a high priority.
I was rather certain the sex is what people like the general and other leaders were doing. Priests teachers police. Not getting upset and correcting that. I thought why couldn't we do this to? To have ways of having us have opportunities and fun.
I kept thinking of rpg names. The male adult film stars I saw all had problems. James Deen was said to be homeless Manuel Ferrara dead dad John Holmes murder Johnny Sins tattoo Shawn Rees lost his company Hugh Hefner sort of impossible Larry Flynt disabled Ramon a lawsuit etc.
I kept having confusions like am I supposed to be a pseudo Saint? But the other side should I not martyr myself? If it's there then shouldn't I not have pride or ignorance. Then another factor was mil appreciation. And thinking of the US Navy with EG plays. To not be a user and to think of whether that's specific people or generatlizations mil lifers too.
There were problems like not getting complaints or police called on me. Not wanting to get divorced garnishments or deadly diseases.
I wanted to support y'alls marriage. Then I go back to the tic of thinking of the future and EG names like the Wittiges and Noble Wall. As far as the adultery story previously it wasn't what I wanted. Furthermore I believe I always concluded it was the best to support my parents. This was like when I thought there were things I was doing in elementary school that helped my grand parents. I thought I was still taken care of. There were things I did at Walmart Luray that I thought helped us. So now what to do? What to spend on what to practice what to center on?
I thought there were reasons too it was healthy. It feels good. To not get dejected or frustrated. Then I thought tuning up issues like other men or other women or body confidence or our networks and business.
I thought of the spending like bills. What should I invest in?