when i was extremely poor and stylish i still had a undying optimism and hope while falling into a manic state of bohemian ways i'd have a lot to dream up that somehow it all came true to fruition with my later va paycheck

 the joys of being 'that poor' so when you got nothing and your spirits are still high to believe something will work out some how so dealing with hunger being broke unemployment undiagnosed mental illness drug dealers um how that time can be appreciated

so even dealing with pseudo 'homelessness' where can you afford to stay and even getting to the point where your semi 'squatting' somewhere still having a good attitude to be thankful for all the blessings around and maybe fall into a state of manic depression to counter the troubles

to find joy in life when things can have upsides and downsides to 'keep on the sunny side' remembering how much fun i was having while destitute nothing to my name and additionally dealing with debts my student loan hanging over my head

my couch to sleep on my clothes filling that room notebooks to come up with ideas to jot down in um a 'dead end' job being in another city previously all the partying and that leaving my system getting around by foot where to go what to do and meeting strangers

the year going past the cold days the hot summers dealing with alcoholism to find joy with what someone else might not appreciate as much and savoring it to heat up food and cherish it to see dreams and visions of glory the life of a artist a poet getting access to resources art supplies for projects

to be grateful for my freedom to be thankful for all my friendships to be glad i have so many things going for me invites and activities to be involved in my whole life and all the openings filled up with doing what i enjoy

while dealing with so much no work no money no food no education no marriage i bounced back from the bottom to be able to look out for myself with after the military a mostly easy life so being a hero and liking my hobbies as i went through another era



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