i don't know how y'all work those 'dead end jobs' um when is it the last straw i am not making enough money i am having to do all these favors and over the top extras without any reward or payment in sight i've had enough

 the ice cream shop so yeah here's what i later dubbed 'dead end jobs' no where to go and additionally it's basically not worth it at all the gas and the lifestyle not getting enough to eat not being allowed to have free ice cream as was once agreed upon

so there's this you want like the whole rockstar production of this but at the end i never get paid or rewarded i just get used and treated like crap over and over again at some point i can't do it anymore no more you all using me i'm moving on

um there was me being what i thought a celeb was i'd smoke weed i'd drink underage um i'd gotten into college so what all that amounted to was in some peoples eyes no skills and debt on the way and being essentially useless and unable to provide for myself

it's not funny anymore so how did the great henry rollins do it who i saw twice um i remember one time i was minding my own business working my job when a different clique from public school comes to the store and i have to put on the cow suit and get humiliated i didn't deserve that

what's the point i am barely making any money and after everything is factored in i'm probably losing money the car getting mileage on it or not having enough money to be able to feed myself um everyone just wants to use you up and never treat you like a human being

i'd be better off volunteering for the army to get my head shaved and get indoctrinated then to foolishly consider going further down this path um everyone is mean my life is one failure after the next i am having my life wasted and not gaining much of anything out of this

this was before obama and biden came around um so not getting enough hours not having a future ahead of me political divisions um dumb labor and immediate punishments being treated like a slave or migrant worker in some ways immediately ready to be canned



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