'i sold you out george i'm sorry' my glorious memory of the movie blow previously the drug world to now being compliant and 'narcing' for my own self preservation am i now at the top of cryptocurrency and money laundering

 it was unbelievable how much fun we had um so when did it start being fourteen years old sneaking someones parents booze from the liquor cabinet at a rock show trying to make out with babes loud music and puberty my parents 'substance abuse' that was the 'social work' term um so we gradually got introduced to marijauna um let's see there'd be being young doing that pairing it with something video games coffee and cigarettes um first jobs and showing up places stoned cannabis and the movie theater where someone would sneak us in free um late nights at home watching internet porn tubex bangbros 30 sec samplers reality kings clips that leaked

ok so where was i um basically here was what i was warned and promised forgot from where but anyways it was some people not condoning the use of 'illegal' drugs so it was that i'd get incarcerated and basically have my life ruined i had seen others made 'example' before who lived that life and received punishments like my uncle so i gave in and didn't fight it after my first noble go and a 'outlaw' lifestyle with other times remember christopher nolan's dark knight trilogy in theaters or tolkien with the lord of the rings back then and the times with which ever names beautiful presentation and unfolding of things

um so let's see yes i do still remember everyone and also not really have any problems with anyone that i am aware of i simply saw what would happen and changed my behavior i now take antipsychotics was a little shaken up and disabled in the process also retired medically um but so it'd be however both the business side and the errors so no tax on it thus it is basically pointless but then again how quickly cash can come in being able to buy a in ground outdoor pool as a 'gift' new wheels um the criminal side though shown and 'what you can get away with'

so some of the story telling um college weed days higher grade and before my dad explained to me people could lace it or how it'd escalate (see 'fortified drug house' being in a irreversibly bad situation) so before all that the entertainers and lower ranked celebs (metalcore & myspace) involvement how much fun stoner metal was so basically from sophomore year though i got drug tested so i was clean a lot of the time but hat up until the military

the look of it it being a precursor to my actual mil benefits the fashions the circles lots of crowds of 'users' um how wild it was so in the dorms a friend searching and being victorious in finding weed um how many blunts did we smoke and then the lure of the upper classmen or dropouts on campus 3 foot bongs and more weight torching it the police term being 'distribution' um hearing of student athletes on full rides getting more privilege's sexual favor um all expenses paid the cafeteria the room and board the notoriety the fame um other names from back then lamb of god gwar iron and wine municipal waste those and us just becoming adults as we got through that

so being at the advantage on all sides one being if there was any business to be had on it getting the income clean pseudo money laundering maybe um what else being a artist and being at the top of my trade respected admired understood commercially successful reasonably well off wealthy not dealing with any pressing issues really having savings um being legal and lawful not having issues with the police so being understood when it was inevitable it'd crumble and it'd get out that people were breaking the law so no connection to money laundering and not taking sexual pluses for narcing rather covering my own tail so i don't get hit with the book and end up in jail or prison for a long time with basically no way out

so how quick that went people introduced to it learning how to break down an ounce in grams eighths quarters and then getting bigger the quarter pound a que pee um then too hearing they'd get laid with customers or clients and it'd be just like the business world or government world mean people deadset on getting laid with whomever and abusing power though but not all but it's out there though in some ways it'd appear bad things can happen in 'reality' but maybe morality triumphs in the end maybe some people deserved it or it was karma

so now that i am ok um what else having no problem with anyone the law enforcement clearing that up and being clean um the drug dealers understanding their choice or even their own professionalism um the users seeing how fun it can be to fall into that trance and get hooked get addicted so it was basically a little bit 'crackhead' times while some issues were there dead end jobs concerns and worries about family um unclear futures um

so where's it now what did i see did some own up to progressing further escalating to heroine um hints at people being immoral and getting sex um the same dealers doing the same things so there's the showmanship with that car the entourage the hangouts the parties and partying um the clothes that flashy stuff the cold hard cash and that money out there

so getting glimpses of the old days the golden days the haze of drugs um during and after high school the summer with beachweek um later reminders like harrisonburg the college town the campus when we all split up for different colleges cooking trade school blacksburg vtech mary washington fredericksburg richmond vcu um james madison university harrisonburg the dirtiness the stakes skid row extremes people making it and going on

the lights the highs the fun of it going over to peoples houses the cult classic stoner movies um a bonfire a house party a concert our parents cars