alcohol users a couple condensed chapters recalled on times drinking um the beers through the years

 so here's where this started well yeah there was underage drinking too where i actually got in trouble with the county and school with that but it was remembering when i was in my twenties after coming home from the army and what i sort of discovered was in some ways the only thing to do for fun legally was drinking so those days afterwards finding which specific bar i'd do well at and that was the live music bars many nights there

so the fun of drinking getting a buzz thrashing getting drunk so i was maybe 13 years old my friends and i were just leaving elementary school and in middle the gym class the schedules the atticus mix tape album before going further to high school to prep for college so my friends would find where their parents hid alcohol a alcohol cabinet or closet that we slowly raided and we'd pair that with going to teenage concerts the church held local bands mosh pits seeing more as we got older later driving around looking for what to do getting into house parties staying in touch with some of the concerts activity where they'd smuggle in a water bottle(s) with booze in it that i'd get some of (whiskey vodka gin tequila) and we'd have fun as kids (being awkward around teen girls who'd be there and previous chatting with them) um other times the home coming game where my friend got alcohol poisoning he drank a lot of 151 bacardi and could have died um that night i walked back to where he fell in a ditch earlier and said to leave him i found him and then went and got help and along the way got in trouble for being in connection with him (i think some people didn't get in trouble not everyone got caught) i had gotten suspended for that and could have gotten in worse trouble (scares me to this day to think of that) starting at someone's up the hill from the school house where we'd jam (music) and skate (some terrain rails pvc boxes kickers etc)(get 711 flaming hot cheetos) at and the money we had previously spent to get a older neighbor around there all of us being a short hike away to buy us some stuff um the basement his parents not home the game starting  the lighting the feeling of immortality the nervous or skiddish side and getting older and getting there paying and walking in talking with other people being a little dizzy and drunk later in high school learning beer instead of just liquor

the concept from taking back sunday 'a decade spent under the influence' so the fun and glamor of drinking using bartenders getting in at the night club or venue um that fun so to pay sur charged prices to party um back in the olden days so it was my first house getting dressed for the night and the few years before then at my parents that stepping stone into the next scenes um ski trips meetup different neighborhood visits clarendon arlington courthouse fairlington old town dc del ray crystal city um so winter sweaters pictures i'd taken a slowly growing band shirt collection um the routines metro access yellow top cabs to old town uber to dc and back um maybe between $35 - $150 cash for drinks and maybe merch nights all over the place the big names too times sampling quality drinks from the abc store that walk there times with red wines cabarnet sauvignon blanc um scotch rum

another one um college so taking the elevator down from the dorms sitting on the patio smoking cigarettes not worried about graduating or class um the southern skyline the school year going along summer fall winter spring um so there'd be different people quickly met and rapport built (tracking down parties) um earlier on the fraternities letting us in to party so going there the kegs and an id and free drinks basically that slight fear and awkwardness of being a kid (checking in with my parents) um walking around and the night the faces getting blitzed getting wasted jungle juice (getting alcohol poisoning before vomiting back at the suite shared bathroom) beer pong those times then later other settings paying out of pocket with scraped up change to use on getting a homeless black person to buy me olde english forties back then that i'd ride my bmx bike back to the dorms and figure my night with two glass bottles in my jansport bookbag i got from marshalls with my mom getting around the city um so there was the house party settings coming up with cash for my end back then so working at the commonwealth club people indoors smoking seated in the furniture the george washington painting the dining portion being a valet those routines walking being security free meal fridays my childhood neighborhood friend who got into video game producing who went to the same school as me and got me the job um my other pals smoking cigs being 18 and us at the shack listen to the radio or play the name game ergo carlos mencia M mister miyagi double forgot all the rules try to study use the laptop the ibm one my dad got me um then the end to that the poor apartment close to the cafeteria before the big jackpot payout um introductions to unprotected sex um being free and happy and drugs leaving my system being a response to my mania my elevated heightened mood hope for greatness

to now no longer able to drink anymore it doesn't go with my meds the blood pressure meds now and other ones added on too sedated and feeling like i'd overdose so the end of drinking for me don't know what the future holds but apparently it looks like it's all done now another was apparent sexual dysfunction not getting laid or making progress in some ways