blake uptin

 so i was in middle school i was starting to go through puberty a neighbor gave me a used complete skateboard to practice on i learned ollies (and lots of grinds few other tricks 180) at the toy shop i managed to scrounge up some of a growing collection at my parents house in the suburbs by the public school system i'd gotten into rock and roll at this age too (maybe not going into some prep stuff all the way) um so there'd be the computer of that age the aol chats with girls and boys (the under age drinking i mentioned) so really getting into the finger boarding maybe some of that was a precursor to my college thrill ride and that drop out and pay off with the army so it was the summers quite boring spongebob on cable um eventually bangbus 30 sec sample clips downloaded (and the viruses that went with that my dad having to i think it was reformat the hard drive) um rocket power of course going over to neighorhood friends houses their pads the living room the computer room the ...

 so a multilayered idea get things in like sketched lines of something like a cartoon or coloring book (and that being a idea to considering coming back with color if you're ok with that) so some of this so some of it too being the cool side of a meaning to it within your scope of your life like when there's secret waiter rules for people who as civilians level up in the food industry so a anniversary option or birthday marker be somewhat trashy but novelty inducing and nostalgic be decorative and ready to add if necessary improve upon it the telephone the connections the constants  plan your life longevity like when you see i was outside the fairfax county court and i saw this guy with some thick sort of runny tatts or other times all the musicians different eras so get the real mindset to it and go through with it like you might see richmond vagrants these transient bohemian hipsters with added up 'contraband' stories  don't let others mess with your good time own...

 the doctor story holes so why would i get a job if i was forcibly medically retired and thus disabled so last time i was doing a job i was hospitalized against my will and further medicated so that flow chart and not wanting to do that then too seeing that other people who got jobs i suspect returned to duty so what was the point of getting out of the military to come back in again that doesn't make sense then why did i have to leave in the first place so that's the deal then stick to it  i get paid for being mentally ill and thus have to continue that otherwise what i saw happen to others the bad economy so it'd be like the way things work i take my medicine i keep my diagnosis i get my paycheck i go to my appointments and the scares out there people were doing of people who did like the actor clark gable and left the military to return again  many people are not only unkind to me they go out of their way to embarrass or hurt me in addition to complete strangers calling...

 so this is instantly paying itself off so compare one cup of coffee from elsewhere to the price of one kcup done yourself the machine will immediately pay itself off and then after that you'll have some money built up seeing that you have a income source with your day to day business and lifestyle the comforts of home so you have your own cafe at home and to boost that experience try pairing with computer internet or other avenues in your cosy abode the studio the den the suburbs get caffeinated at your property and as a suggestion don't use the tobacco or any other potentially dangerous substances as fun as they are  so then there's the glamor of disability or people 'surviving' and living the happening lives like cartoons or sitcoms or other influences the picturesque stories the crutch for those medicated to counter the sedation side effects um the hypnotic illustration of creativity and good times go get groceries and add a snack a cream cheese everything bagel...

 forget drugs so i've actually experienced this in real life the drug olanzapine or zyprexa anyways here's what it'll do to me i'll all the time throughout the day forget a lot (that too being a defense against like worry or fear) like mid sentence so that um from there in the book writing what's the motive for it why make me forget maybe a pacifying of the populus so then a zoom out and write up of what's going on elsewhere bribes dealers um so what was i saying as i am medicated purgatory shaun of the dead so the easter egg in that movie where he's on the bus and it says something about the zombie epidemic and again on a pa system in a store so that being this like illusion where reality is actually like being dead so drifiting in the afterlife so that being like waking up after having died and the sort of delusion afterlife being still accounted for whether financially or with duty the workforce so the concept to be laid to rest rip and then regaining con...

 so i remember other things i missed some of when they were first released and how obnoxious and loud it was in the beginning so when there was every boy with a xbox 360 beginning while i was still in high school and the trends with that the red ring of death or some people seeing the entourage show that'd be on hbo so um the money saved also i couldn't understand how some of these people managed to do that i'd almost assume it was opening up a line of credit in the process the numbers wouldn't quite add up with the cash and in my firm stance i think it'd be better to stay within my means i hate debt  so i think i even was subject to losing friendships over that no longer being in or wanted the later learned miserly way being a deal breaker so other parts were those even at the bottom good people to be around if they'd quit on you so easily despite countless stories that add up afterwards seeing where subtle jokes people did came from references to old media tha...

 so i've seen this myself and seen it in my brother too with him liking some sneakers for me it was maybe merch or i'd get myself tickets before they were sold out but with that i couldn't really resell them i think there's policies against scalpers but i was thinking like things at stores that'll get sold out whether that's something like collectible vinyls early edition books (i speculated the new illustrated harry potters would be worth money when the whole set is compiled) um toys clothes miniatures (the whole resellers markets out there too the hobbies) so here's the picture i'd see it'd be like here's my time spent to be one of the first people to get a copy of what ever it is then after that it's immediately bid up by maybe fifty dollars or so so is that worth it and is it always a guarantee i've seen other collectors or stores have lots of stuff in there like a bank vault with theoretical values on tangible copies  other parts hav...

so i had fugazi the argument on cd so i was in middle school when i bought this and i think i kept it for a while unlike some other stuff that sort of got traded or given away (though before going off to college i think i donated a lot of stuff and i've donated entire collections before) so at the time it's like this real cool hip answer i guess (a different rep in this direction then the sports people) um so at that age it's electric guitars clear vocals (a serious direction for the future) so other parts um when kids had goals of some day being lawyers that like state of high earnings or something like the title of the album the real slow burn round two of this was when i got back from the army i slowly got into getting into the washington dc shows (all the big nightclubs) so this was a centerpiece name the whole locals name dave grohl henry rollins keith morris so i think some of the good qualities to this were the whole straight edge thing like that (basically zero tole...

 scifi intellegencia actual copy real version so logistics on the well known copy whether that's karl marx george orwell phil dick there's questions over the censorship or what the actual unedited uncensored versions were like so then that as a inspiration the model the template the foundation so others expiring royalties and replacements on the way so a raw copy then that upgraded or changed the other peoples inputs and regulations so others out there self published copies um then too the moderators the big brother the government propaganda rewrites and adjustments control of the media and the masses dumb and complacent the routines of the population fast food day jobs families holidays and voting  sad insects so in this adventure it's that someone out in reality like that show naked and afraid some cartoony adventure like flash gordon or the pulp paperback scifi books the artwork there they are seen struggling and having difficulty then other life forms animals insects he...

the south: 7 eleven the big bite the nacho cheese the chili a slurpee the hot foods wings the baked goods cookies sweets donuts  mcdonald's nuggets with sauces quarter pounder with cheese  taco bell hard shell taco combos with a drink baja blast unsweet tea  burger king the whopper chicken fries  subway the monster series online exclusives derek jeter the cold cut the spicy italian  wendy's spicy chicken sandwich chili a combo fries a cola  arby's a double meat beef dip with crinkle cut fries or curly fries  southern kitchen the ambiance the booths the crowds  hawksbill diner great menu choices  golden china buffet chinese food by the college  flaming grill buffet another chinese place  wood fire grill buffet american in harrisonburg  cracker barrel old fashioned the country food dominico's pizza and subs other side of town anthony's italian sit down place nearby east wok chinese food luray melting pot the part...

 crockpot chili the tomatoes in there the hamburger the seasoning the serving it up with stuff fritos hot dogs  conventional oven buffalo wings when it's hot and juicy and the melt off the bone meat the chicken at the kitchen  nacho cheese and tortilla chips heat up the dip  top ramen with a egg added the broth flavor the noodles getting heated up from the flavor packet added water  breakfast make a eggs scrapple option of hashbrowns add some hot sauce dousing  make a iceberg lettuce salad turkey ham lunchmeat boiled eggs mozzarella cheese some paul newman's own oil and vinegar salad dressing  tuna salad mayonnaise canned tuna relish optional to add it to bread (and a different version with spam used) make healthy shakes add all types of produce what's fresh to be put in a blender with milk shake flavor powder mix and fruits and vegetables tomatoes grapes bananas kiwi kale berries apples peaches carrots grocery snacks bagels with cream cheese cereal co...

 my family so my mom and dad my parents them caregiving my mom prepping meals for us my dad mowing my lawn my brother when i'd walk over to his house in the suburbs my brothers family his wife and kids the nice times i made episodes for the nesbitt series my dad's siblings their seeing them aunts uncles cousins  my car doesn't need any repairs in good condition working on paying it off with the loan it's nice to be able to take myself to places i have to go like the store or church being retired and disabled it's nice to be able to do what i want to produce hobbies having a paycheck my dog he's nice and loves me good companion to keep around bring him on trips to alexandria or walk over to my parents house i like animals   my portfolio online the whole releases i've shared  having paid off my student loan the huge stress relief of getting caught up on all my banking and money and having had that opportunity  my longterm housing having a mortgage on a good h...

 i guess for now the best would be someone symbiotic nearby um the two worlds alexandria and luray some sample of that can you host what skills do you have how can we jive  so other stuff out there i declined um no band (not touring and other reasons) no entourage no roommate (it is sort of nice having the whole house to myself) no girlfriend no marriage um me and my dog and my parents so where to from there um what's out there for friendships so in a way staying solo like i wouldn't want someone in my house when i wasn't there or i wouldn't want drama of a longterm band um at one point i had considered getting some sort of assistant like the show entourage like a driver a cook a dresser a cleaner a trainer a consultant camera operator security sherpa  so in a way a huge one i wanted that sort of isn't in the cards now is a bird like a parrot or conure um lately i'll occasionally travel to northern virginia so i can't really stay locked down with the bird at...

 so some of this i think was after having been to jail everyone permanently xing me of their list (and as stated similarities with that story and the writer i read some of henry miller) so another was the hospitalizations that stigma that goes with disability too as a pay source more reasons um being off my antipsychotics (one story was running and thinking of mick jagger) and people being unkind to me so also it'd be different leaders ahole tactics for me other peoples bosses or other families mostly just about everyone being mean to me forever so who'd ever give me a chance and then other parts i missed out on to join the military um also the tabs from that being another nix for everyone (veterans affairs appointments) um so the glory of having wrote my book eventually (and my way before it was garbaged) so being right and original and being intentionally misunderstood and stranded from that um many horrible people out there ready immediately so anyone i ever knew gone lost w...

go to a coffee shop have a conversation there and enjoy a local business  go on a hike maybe have some snacks ride along to some nature (maybe see about camping someday) pick up a pizza hang out and maybe pair that with something to watch maybe a movie introduce my family have a barbeque be professional be entertained with my parents or an occasion have tea at my house plus a podcast let me record a free flowing talk upload to online chat online with real people nearby stay in touch with people around here be sober no illegal drugs be domesticated and well mannered and family appropriate  invite me to your place how long to stay over there park the car have me as a guest i'd be extremely cautious and wanting insurance but bringing up dnd with my dad since i know he's a dm snacks campaign hanging out role playing experience points hobbies skatepark with some buds and have a good time make a skate video  music play some instruments do a recording guitar piano vocals (be awa...

cloud nothings dylan baldi founder guitar vox at the entrance of the 930 club he was walking somewhere and so was i matt o'keefe orwells guitarist i was finishing taking a pee as he was entering the bathroom at the black cat dh peligro dead kennedy's drummer i was on the second floor of the rock and roll hotel and he was in the background talking to staff  king buzzo the melvins outside 930 club after their set i saw him and some other people got a photo with him i talked to him for a little bit but didn't really know what to say he was like his image seen rory sheridan loud boyz guitarist also director so a few times like at rnr hotel he walked up for a second another time at o'shaughnessy's before the show he got a picture with me  kingston trio at the birchmere they were outside after the show and i got a picture with them  tom s the screws guitar vox from rock and roll hotel he bartended um  laura ex hex drums bartending one time on 14th st saw laura got a autog...

target or walmart  the mall or ordering online skateboarding or basketball cable or internet facebook or livejournal college or nfl or arena chips or soda hobbies or professions vinyl or youtube supplies or experiences nike or vans lacoste or polo entourage or californiacation guitar or vocals lyrics or books henry miller or phil dick clint eastwood or jack kerouac publication or producing breakfast or lunch fun or progress dungeons and dragons or xbox sony or verizon car or pedestrian bars or sobreity smokers or artists townies or bohemians tea or coffee  dog or bird parents or other family (sibling relatives) veterans affairs or catholic church acoustic or electric prolific or rarities sex or masturbation pabst or budweiser cigarettes or marijuana rolling stones or beatles gwar or municipal waste bob dylan or the beach boys blues or modern rock and roll or folk nightclub or homebody costco or walmart the post exchange or other towns (tanger outlets lancaster) scotch or wine ...

 so basically hearing in a vcu econ lecture that the opportunity cost concept is the basis for decisions so what to chose and go from there to get mashed potatoes as a side or to get macaroni and cheese the loss of something being a comparable price it costs not getting mashed potatoes to get macaroni and cheese so more extreme basically assuming that one method is to budget towards what ever purchase is the goal to have bulk costco (because some stuff are the constraints the fixed income from retirement and disability so within my circumstances what can i do to influence or get to a goal) and then set aim towards choices like buying vinyl or choosing what to spend on the monster sandwich at subway (and be aware that can get expensive) the clothes at the post exchange a order for lacoste um a book to read to have money in savings to use on future car payments  so decision making what to calculate it is possible to get to basically anything with reinforcing that as a chosen fli...

 having had the fast food it is a miracle um but it can slowly creep up and leave you poor and approaching being in the red so figuring out how much to sample and dabble that um then a story so as a younger person someone skipping lunch and using their food money to buy supplies and that extremism and devotion others skinny yet affording resources to use guitars clothes paints even people stealing so being aware that a little slip can reverberate but a counter to be like rembrandt immersed in the lifestyle and the fat of the land um to be generous and lively to be vibrant within safe bounds um so um thoughts on the working industry and the services provided looking at menus what's nearby  being aware of other similar and different people in the circuits musicians comics painters directors other talent um business moguls fashion icons producers dealers so is it worth it to stay hip and stay relevant to keep whittling away the next release the light at the end of the tunnel so o...

 so one shining example of this i think would be like when i was smoking a lot in college and thought i'd be able to maintain that lifestyle (other parts too rockstar ways or 'unemployment' yet celeb producing) before next processing parts happened like enlisting in the military or later having a psychiatry compliant regiment with antipsychotics (and discussions with a phd) so little secrets i learned first hand so that too being remembering along my journey people redirecting me like another was when i said i'd be as big as bob dylan but then other parts it's sort of a folk tale (bluring reality with aggrandizement and literary english)  so how many of those were there (recently when i said i'd be like phil dick even the marriages and mental illness) and are there still out there where my math was incorrect and other people had answers that could have been the truth and maybe other excuses like not getting 'injured' proving a point (the skill of jack ke...