being crazy an easy way of following the rules being controlled and held hostage

 so arriving at the conclusion that logically the best case scenario in some ways could be that of disability (influencing factors like looking out for my family too) so that instead of other full time pursuits rock and roll being a guitarist so take the medicine as instructed (don't skip doses) um comply with the doctors orders 

so the secure way of getting paid um not going against the status quo and the over ruling leaders different psychiatrists their power and control so this as opposed to other things like how many musicians there are and how many are successful in the long term having seen some of the famous ones different parts about that tatts alcoholism 

other lessons changes like not going to the concerts anymore um assimilation military bearing the culture to disability unsweet tea home ownership life with a caregiver life with a therapy dog plans for the future sights of other neighbors 

so other things out there um watching cable tv as opposed to 'risky behaviors' (things learned that are prone to getting the cops called on you or getting complaints) um so the decision to stay mentally ill um the lesson that the flowchart out there like not returning to the military or not being destitute 

so unemployment um being stigmatized the gossip