my experience with drugs and alcohol

 so in middle school 8th grade was the first time i tried smoking what was said to be marijuanna (we were in the woods with someones homemade plastic bong with aluminum foil pull out stem piece and a lighter and the bud) um it was slow and not violent a gradual stoned thing like red eyes being sleepy and when my parents would catch me i'd get yelled at and grounded as punishment so around the puberty years i was seeking some fun um i'd drank alcohol some at this age would be liquors from peoples parents stolen and put in a water bottle (vodka rum gin whiskey) um later as time went on into high school there'd be beer or malt liquor (and a early on suspension for drinking at a football game that was terrifying but i made it through and completed high school) and getting people to buy that for me um also there'd be in high school more sampling of smoking like the set price in virginia for a while was twenty dollars for a gram and too that sur charge being the best spot (money from jobs outback steakhouse hilltop golf ben and jerry's) and then all the nuances learned like smoking with others puff puff pass (people rolling a blunt or driving the region fort hunt the parkway) um the borderline mental illness beginning porn symptoms um paranoia (scared of police) schizophrenia so some of it also being after effects of hobbies like skateboarding and music the later things going on people breaking down weight to sell to others (an eight a quarter an ounce a quarter pound and people trying to get to the next connect on it bigger weights from bigger dealers) recreational smokers (and the media that went with that) and making money on it the dangers of drug dealing so in university i quickly smoked a lot and drank too (the frats initial hosting then others sprouting up throughout maybe in hindsight the rockstar hobby) that being during these things maybe stuff like cocaine meth or lower grade stuff mexican middies the mid grade weeds spice and the differences between college campuses and alexandria the nearby public school (the thrill of being out at night with teens and the party get driven to the woods or someones house talk with guys girls trans) so the rockstar part like people doing a house party or smoking centered things (smoker houses or ways the car the woodline) and later more harder drugs introduced lsd psychedelic shrooms um and other reps mil personalities willie nelson jimi hendrix so that miasma of drinking starting to become an alcoholic or the years smoking cigarettes too and then later maybe blame on the police for some of it the term pushing where people are violent as a threat for not smoking getting assaulted as an ultimatum later bigger maps colorado legal or california the change in laws dispensaries later on being a narc or informant and it being the same people doing the same things the truthful telephone warning of inescapability unless the mil and i did that and got out so later stuff entertainers peace makers um 

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