charity how far i have gone with that it actually paid me back the warmth of donation good karma the response of charity

 so initially this was a story so i was slowly maybe getting by the whole world cornered into military enlistment before then i remember having a good warm vibe and feeling about the sherwood hall thrift store so i believe i was going to go straight to the military to enlist (in some hardcore fashion) uneducated but my parents interjected and i got to put that off and got the vcu artschool experience i so loved and it was beyond but so before then here's what happened i had lots of merch that i donated some band t-shirts some cd collections and later i thought that sort of due payment came back and rescued me all the way to where i was like a numb lotto winner with my paycheck and being in a position where i'd be useful to my parents but also having my own freedoms so maybe incorrectly later i thought paying donations was going to help me eventually maybe a different story was keith saying paying homeless or other people they always pay back and that being like an investment 

another was the red cleats story so we first got here and my youth sports football i needed cleats so i got a temporary pair from the thrift store that fit it was these red baseball pairs that i later thought the world of and the cool side to gum springs not to be angry or racist about things in america but the cool owners of that store like them reassurring me i'd get out ok at a time when later there'd be joel osteen or my uncle who was at vietnam the people who didn't do risky sex behaviors that i knew of or their after war settlement 

not getting misunderstood but for a little while after donating i was feeling like someone owed me but i wouldn't really do that i hate the feeling of debt and would never want to do that to someone 

reoccurring later was having a soft spot for these individual entrepreneurs as leaders and regulars like a homemade tv concept (the tv was slang for how much you spent on beer you could buy a tv and other parts too like visuals or) a guy at kfc the two at the hobby store um there was a guy with long hair who for years i'd occasionally see at the thrift stores people around alexandria so i had friends who were self sufficient and could be symbiotic the guy whose at the bottom of that like when there was personalities at black cat 

so i have donated to not just the military charity (but i think it later was mostly mil) i have donated to i think catholics too there was ucm back porch and little differences between the two and maybe like magic or witchcraft the nuns and others the priests so i did shop there too and find good stuff before one time when i needed it i thought it may have been the jewish drew and sidney smith twins but i got a bob dylan book that i was so into but that has a touch of the 2007 high school graduation on it the excitement and glory days

so here's what i really sort of remember i donated a vinyl record collection twice dc stuff that later i thought there was others who'd help like media boutiques the record store i donated a dvd and other stuff once at fort meade before going to georgia i donated my entire graphic t shirt collection all these mostly to sherwood hall um it was a lot of media i could try remembering all the specific bands on the stuff through the years funeral for a friend emery fu manchu conor oberst journey gogol bordello diarhea planet loud boyz mars volta taking back sunday from first to last 

i am so glad i got out and that's done i can and could have understood going back in but thankfully once was enough because other things going on 

later a story was the meeting of the minds and early choices from older experts wisdom so to follow suggestions early on to get to later dreams like i later got out of it maybe connected my nice house in bucknell or later my nice mansion in luray instead of where others were from their stances 

another was with wealth and choices me always getting almost to a goal and backing down like thinking different alternates to like cold objective ruthlessness to get to better futures instead being caring and thoughtful and generous not to denounce others accomplishments but it was like things i wouldn't do hearing people in the favor system could literally kill someone (having to be gross and look out for me while the scrooge story) or other stuff like that caring about my parents and brother 

the volunteers what rick did and stood for and later mike would he be able to do it or did i miscalculate 

when i was a kid maw maw my great grandma or something anyways she took me to the thrift store and one time she got me a bicycle that we spray painted gold and i flew down the street with that while she was at her apartment with all the stuffed animals she collected um