some goals if i don't forget or basically coming back to earth and happy indoors families alright um hobbies

  • producing making new material in the formats to an extent 
  • home ownership always having a place to live and being ready for the future
  • wealth having some savings not being in debt 
  • benefits keeping the mil benefits i got not losing those
  • progress seeing how what i was doing could be improved or advanced
  • freedom never being incarcerated not doing time
  • parents help the company and stick with them 
  • making sure my brother and others don't suddenly die such as mercy or holocaust 
  • karma charity i didn't officially have children but believe my life is ok
so i had a dream about being famous like other people lots of those but whose listening and how am i going to tell you what i did with you understanding or not bothering me and wasting my time so what i was saying was not necessarily henry darger i think the unknown source said he was a mentally ill janitor who was a recluse who after he died his archive was amassed with his works that were later shown in a museum
so my goals um staying afloat i have some assurance from my insurance and my paycheck sources there's the constant call from bucknell so i'm not there anymore and what am i supposed to do i did think i have been on hidden cameras before and i did think my collection of hard copy books i wrote was stolen um then things i found out in reality with what happens with some of this another one i'm not in hollywood california or some of these grouped hot spots grenwich village new york city paris france 

so i guess i had early goals that i continued but other stuff too i was sort of all alone and thought too of my family not abandoning them or some lessons i learned in someway um that note of imperfection or truth in fault finding so what was i saying um 

i guess a distant note of other power lords that meet each other for their conspiracy 

hmm my goals that's survival keep my freedom stay alive see how far my effort could get a big reveal no one cares about me aside from my family so that'd show a lot about the future early acclimation to military healthcare 

loved going on fort belvoir and being superstitious about the aafes post exchange or the commissary that fun time of a virginia beach vacation with my family that was around when i was studing through university of maryland university college before the name was changed to umgc 

so repeating that i guess a bare minimal goal could be parents as far as they can get with happiness and marriage then what else um brother and a blog on some notes about that um me basically the blues name for the guy on harvard street i'm not active duty military anymore and summaries about this parrots um maybe preference for what i got to guaranteed with the mil as opposed to other stuff out there the nickname the hbo or the streets 

so i figured you'd be able to rationalize or figure out some of this stuff like artistic production (off topic movies or other formats) and respected powers and authorities like the georgian king and then that story of trautmann and burnette maybe that in some ways being anthony kiedis and tbone burnette (no dash that was a reference to spiderman having a - in it from stan lee)

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