sunday june 30th 2019 1029pm (chicken scratches)

 i was about to fall asleep it was the summer of years past i had stopped going to dc in less than 3 days i was seeing the rolling stones live at fed ex field where the redskins play i had returned from texas i had a doctors appointment last friday at  fort belvoir i had materials resources supplies and time some unfinished some arguable and confusing this same month was when i was seeing pee circles i am thankful for my parents as write i am tired i have used the computer lately i like where i live rereading unerased forward and backward what was i talking about conversations caffeinated beverages purchased belongings the recordings hte vision of the future insured channels a topic further a story textured graphically drainings blackness the lights on a toilet a dog lead pencil derivative thoughts scientific contraptions lying in bed ready for the next day seeing what someone is saying seated vocals wishes coming tree going fast an ocean a towel older videos inventions what is there other than to see and to hear knowing an inventory respecting copies an ignition going places cold feelings china what is worth what training against all odds jail break the sadness names should've getting out making used siblings one to destroy studied the thoughts opportune dire outlook evil and nauseating done travels how to get everything you ever wanted before you die with educated protection from true suffering never leaving a fallen comrade snippets savings that wish is not talked about rising via what you stood for the best way lifetime income groups temptation specialty women's underwear secrets roleplay officers uniform dogs differences even more into it cost gays transgenders football unrolled dice game going back in time orders high and low misunderstanding a relationship a guaranteed how much is that victory longing where is gambling across the river the bridge i don't do that thought of a dual being cared for being not taken advantage of stretching inferences each and every person exact to who you are climbing deducing honoring posting suspending yelling ignoring what is unstoppable doing what can eb done losing what was moving towards a goal not ever being upset forever material generating to relieve problems to better my life improving everything spreading out contained thoughts lobotomized record seeing invisible pathways walking roundtrip being nourished saturation separated the control toward improving my surroundings dimming evening shadows shown through a dead body adventure hosts beverages unlocked references today walk hospital strengthen money diagnosed adventurous aging generations historical breath disease a story to tell a pilot the beginning start to finish out of order memory ten & and  half eleven eight