blake uptin

so the big influence from phil dick when i saw the new blade runner 2049 in theatres on opening night before going out to somewhere else to see music with alcohol um the homemade recordings i've done like video clips um so the protagonist under different constraints the healthcare the insurance my plan for the future  another marker i saw was the total recall original one the one filmed in mexico city according to the opening trivia credits that i saw as a anniversary um that being some of the picture of scifi like another planet or this one being the crazy side the mental illness from inking this up the drugs and risky things the wild side of living life freely with goals to get to the writers pad (tangible writing and computer application and slang for housing a stylish place) um what works what's the funded poverty level of with miserly budgeting (pay for tea and other stuff costco bulk) how to attain the final effects so how to ration everything time to spend on coming up w...

 so being a artist having art supplies and finding time to produce new portfolios paintings movies miniatures publication audio the guitar the piano other formats so being free and in bohemia approachable and entertaining knowing my lines and my parts my entertaining studies so hanging out with others when there's activities things to spend money or and being a writer typing up fresh stuff using the internet and computer and smartphone for people to read publishing um having the world to walk so my office hours in the building my dad and mom some routines to help but do my own thing too and some other fun caffeine tea during the day and saving money for things like showmanship good clothes good vehicle pay my bills having conversations being with others company having goals having hunger nice meals and dreams sobriety aging the potential for relationships being loved having my family and my parents having observations and life passing memories jotted down the story of stream of con...

so from where i set course um i have stopped clicking the music videos due to the belief that you have to basically within that month show up to pay those people (and there was when the drinks were there before the med change) so you don't face repercussions from like social work or police power that was my reoccurring revelation  so i did greatly open my wings and get some what of progress um my creative projects started prolifically rolling out so here's where i stand there's the constant calling of my dream projects that i've made progress with then there's the aftermath story of all these people outside for belvoir with the guarantee of the future so the rest of your life at mostly the same property so after all those shows um i was by myself and then afterwards um recalling the times like i'd be at the office in belle haven and then my blog or when i got to luray after which reference to remember so afterwards um my brain was learning under those blurry boo...

 so it's like the comfort of going with the campaign (in hindsight you're supposed to study and prepare for look at the presidential orders bush trump obama etc or other things going on where will you be getting stationed at learn the cultures) so you have your needs provided but you have to keep going then with parents life is very good and easy like being able to get out and do okay after that that safety net so there is too the zhivago where you look back on times you had (the last time you were on holiday like christmas vacation or when you take leave to visit home or elsewhere) and remember that while being in a state of dead zones where your life is routines pt formations chow and then later benefits booming like being in germany and getting to go off post with a battle buddy and get donors or go to the nightclub and have hefewiezens  you're in the military but there's still the fun of being junior enlisted you have to do your part like exercise or go so getting i...

so hearing parts like legal over intellectual rights or when something is royalty free or public domain that being a point um so though hearing of the story of the start of the rolling stones (in addition to paranoia where anything could be made up and glossed over)  chocolate city hearing that as a nickname for dc (which i remember at one time i think dave chappelle was booked for a month with a one week block of kevin james and during that month booking one seat was going for five hundred dollars and it was selling out) so the dc  some of the supportive faces for the bob dylaners or the blacks being like charming and funny like the doo doo jokes or being childish being immature and maybe my mistake was one night i was drunk and getting driven home and this happened to a few drivers i was saying all this stuff about how my lesson was the whites dominate rock and roll (then think of washed up 80s metal bands gaining weight and losing steam) where later there's stories of the b...

 enter the world of minimum wage where what is the fun of it so you have your coworkers circles you have your colleagues from school you have the guest patrons doing business while you enjoy life with the company that is paying you in a coed lifestyle  the picture of being young and alive being able to not get drafted into military service the picture of familiarity around town and what's to do what goals what tics the nice fast food pick up the bumming off other people um trying to write a book trying to be famous um  the apparent ceilings on stuff and censorship or powers um  your housing so you can afford a place near where you work and commute with your vehicle um will you have roommates or go alone will you save money and get put on someones lease  places i worked at  walking the neighbors dog so would someone leave me something in their will for how good of a job i did and other stuff um getting given occasional gifts or alottments of hard cash having...

so i heard a rule was you can do original stuff based on others that are known so i had lots of templates and even formats for that so thus far i have had little successes here and there my instagram following my prolific published releases some recognition in luray um rapport with the nightclubs my holiday family movies my cassette tape recordings um lots of online material  so i have had views of my content my vibrant portfolio my material crossed formats with writing painting recording guitar miniatures blogging pictures piano video collectings  phil dick the how it's made so more hospital visits than me and other parts too (having druggies move in and using) um full time writing getting official scifi stories publishing although some of this could be merely made up legends and enhanced stories  bob dylan so in that direction having a cult following but however i think social work diagrams saying him and those like him would mostly be homeless um i never hobo'd through...

so go get in the parents car and off to the eatery get nice presentations of food while having a talk basically the lunch and dinners um family style or my own plate choices talk about projects i was doing other things happening   k market  so this place had a beyond good full everything i'd get the hot stone bibimbop the #17 in the food court great social vibe digesting and eating it the temperature was phenomenal appreciating korean like how great in some ways my hyundai was one part being that car felt like it was going to last forever  costco  the snap dragon pho's are a really good thing with the sri acha hot sauce great easy broth um other stuff too mentioned about the freezer food lion  little things here and there um the nacho cheese or queso is good um chocolates a pack of hershey's reese's snickers as a tic um frozen breakfast items um other stuff milk ice cream um picking some stuff out  taco bell  the boxes here are amazing so great qu...

so a recent thought was you go see the music but you want to singalong or learn that but maybe other people out there like how there's sports bars and people not always as athletic all the different crowds people watching and noticing things like even smokers reading rolling stone magazine   hearing music can help against dementia and maybe other stuff too aspergers um having good mindmapping or mental stimulation the music in the car sound system in the home entertainment center at the venue  some different focuses kanye's personality and entrepreneurial progressions or roky erickson's cult following the sex appeal of the red hot chili peppers other things to focus on the guitars the drums the vocals some stand out personalities  vinyl boutiques the collectors and other stuff desired lusted after stuff *some of this stuff can still be liquidated and circulated after transactions even invisible pay through donation if that be chosen discos a dancing (remember others ...

 so there's a lot of charm to the manual ferrara celeb he's a male pornstar whose french and uncircumcised thinking of parts like the love and francophile details to his production like other parts in reality a instagram or a twitter like this as a regular guy like a painter or also the part of the sex addiction like not just arriving at masturbation as the only answer out there despite though i heard and it could be wrong that he was remarried and has kids  i saw a picture of him in a anime shirt and it looked amazing thinking of like the full scope of his work like being a entertainer and as a household name thinking of his style like familiarity with other hobbies or interests and that while being in america and having his followers for his videos online  so the french thinking of the passion for writers and how maddened people can get and go and the capital paris the city for romance so this being like a homemade approachable do it yourself picture like not arriving a...

 so despite seeing crazy legends like alister crowley being a satanist and starting his own cult and living off the grid but maybe the way of attaining the wishes so my lesson i assumed was being modest and aware of people who could be suffering as heard in songs to like rem everybody hurts so thinking of like navy at sea at war that hard life or thinking of the lists of prayers people come up with at mass different groups of people who have some form of trouble so my great huge luxuries and comforts not taken fore granted and people saying who helped build or protect that also maybe believing people irregardless could deal with consequences even despite undeserved responses so  the other people who can help or retaliate like there's social workers um powerful psychiatrists other leading personalities professors um real estate brokers people who can be on course with your goals through the future also when mentioning people going against the grain being ununiform maybe some of...

 so lifestyles i led ignorantly could have killed me (other in hindsight things adultery) as opposed to staying alive until new answers are ready to keep going such as john lennon like insomnia and sobriety with work ethic versus rolling stones using heroine (citing the pseudo drug dubbed 'hill billy heroine' as a comparison with pharmacies) with relaxing and not doing muscle failure but both of those still not being american where there was like the pajama boy ad during the obama years um  so the doctor will have more power and strength the other answer people before me got to before i found out was things like 'you're crazy' that being the eligibility for disability which could be a sort of guarantee for pay which in turn helps thriving so other rationals for that like outside in the world addictions people get into like sex addicts gamblers substance abuse and with each the own like light on how that works like paying bartenders um the secrets of sex addiction i ...

 so not only did i graduate but there was all the fun i got to have along the way youth sports house parties hang outs tobacco and other misc smoking um what i early on heard of was the graduation making the rest of life easier in some departments like my today pseudo tenure though other areas troubles like i never started a family and lived through my duties as entertainment modules  um so all the things that led up to it having to do all my homework like studying latin flashcards and making through mister simonson's program him as the usmc and at the end steps previously got me there like seeing the requirements for an advanced diploma and how to get the application accepted into a university that even further adventure and help to learn skills and trades the formats of entertainment at times i did have to succumb to wrong lessons but the counter i didn't get the concussion from other waited ready to pounce and strike dangers like home owners or mil affiliates so i for examp...

 so have experience with entertainment sources i was regularly listening to lots of famous pro live music that being a source of warmth and light for someone elses residence  be able to exchange a nice style like music genre effects country the landscapes a painting the blues some designer clothes rock and roll be a pedestrian and simple um i could if necessary do all types of 'white trash moves' pay for a pizza know how to find good smokes um be able to stay up late or be free from constraints like i said the flare and showmanship being able to get a drinking scenario going instantly be able to get other people to pick up the phone have things that help a car um  some guest personas to know and improve at  the painter spend money on supplies and make entertaining homemade masterpieces the comedian know how to tell jokes lighten the mood  the guitarist be ready to play some off the grid material  the businessman know how to get people work and money sources...

 so you could knock back a few alcoholic beverages (scotches whiskeys beers budweiser all types of choices at the convenient store or grocery store too devil's backbone) spend the night and be the other guy (see the clubs as a professional safe way or have a friend who can play) to party at the pad with humility to military regimes with your friends the staging of a garage wall art street art and rock and roll topics the smokes in your thirties or other brackets forties fifties with kids um the older crowd sixties with access to a bong or you could chose to blow money purely on gambling routines superstition top ramen instead of the cup noodles or substance abuse buy bulk recreational marijuana or other things the alcoholics do the cruises or pay experts the bar beauty and trickling of tips and continues  so the guitars thinking through everything in virginia  acoustic electric for open mic and a all in one guitar practice on  electric for if you have a live act band...

 set locations zoom out the reoccurring sitcom aspect unchanging sets and the same constraints and ready if new opportunities are there the television feel like trendy and frugal funny and warm study old expiring royalties flash gordon hank snow read the greats bios irwin winkler but adjust to any issues to help parents too  belle view the walk to the shopping center alexandria my parents house and my brothers in the suburbs luray the sitcom spots i can do  beall avenue coutntry club unillegal exile on main street equipment  old camcorder need to get a replacement soon  tripod  smartphone be careful not to drop it  my 2019 ford escape i have to pay off soon to get the title  try to improve at openings with others symbiotically safely figure out some audio techniques maybe some guitar soundscape backgrounds see about who'll respond  some more thoughts um a bb gun from tractor and supply the cowboy style which props or equipment research more m...

frozen seafood shrimp calamari crab cakes wings uncrustables breakfast sandwiches pizza singles meatballs individual tv dinners chinese chicken bulk costco hamburger patties  ramen soups pho shin ramen  canned food spaghetti o's chef boyardee cambell's beans  refridgerated milk cheeses chocolate bars entrees  chips (but be warned for males it could make your masturbate as a side effect)  premade things like the deli salads  so the at home dining experience maybe 20 minutes notice to prep a meal like heating up food in the conventional oven other choices microwaving dishes um snacks to graze and night eating from the medicine side effect  the choice to research home cooked meals so the crockpot for homemade meals like chili things that can be looked up online for recipes but whether to actually improve at cooking or other choices going to restaurants to eat at different simple meals a focus on breakfast eggs meats  so simple ideas getting to groce...

 ok so i mentioned to my brother (one of few who will respond to me) about doing a podcast or something else (breakdance video he was into that and i was into producing and had time so making an offer) that being just have some caffeine at my place with the two seats in front of the tripod and have a maybe 30 minute conversation that later'd be uploaded to youtube (that's mostly the only video site i use) so that's an idea having a guest whose not trouble despite some of those endearing qualities so there's not making the house smell like smoke or dealing with warrants or homelessness or breaking toilets by clogging um no sex so basically some censorship and grooming being domesticated being of good proper gentlemanly behavior and i thought from my point i had an okay offering i could drive to whose nearby me in luray and then from there host a discussion  there were people who shame on me i wasn't all the way ready for for different reasons when i was in high schoo...

conversation like an audience or a performance talking about entertaining topics things i was into at a nice setting not so much the nobody music at a interrupting volume  visuals hallucinations with projects developing references to media progress getting further with goals some things like i liked other outfits or collab constraints taste yummy good food that's clean filling original variety too price sometimes getting the cheaper things on the menu being frugal to save money for other things  unknown about openings like involvement with strangers having a guest or being invited to do something from there meeting strangers making friends living wild and free and fun and safe gimmicks and novelties sometimes like a big kahuna at jersey mike's or thinking into orders the 7 eleven big bite enough to eat a fair portion and maybe me staying somewhat not too fat   so go into a restaurant with my family usually mom and dad occasionally brother and his family and continue ...

 so initially this was a story so i was slowly maybe getting by the whole world cornered into military enlistment before then i remember having a good warm vibe and feeling about the sherwood hall thrift store so i believe i was going to go straight to the military to enlist (in some hardcore fashion) uneducated but my parents interjected and i got to put that off and got the vcu artschool experience i so loved and it was beyond but so before then here's what happened i had lots of merch that i donated some band t-shirts some cd collections and later i thought that sort of due payment came back and rescued me all the way to where i was like a numb lotto winner with my paycheck and being in a position where i'd be useful to my parents but also having my own freedoms so maybe incorrectly later i thought paying donations was going to help me eventually maybe a different story was keith saying paying homeless or other people they always pay back and that being like an investment  ...

 so i have never ever really been that political i tried remembering and couldn't recall if i voted in the george bush jr election (i was thinking i got some boost from the republican party which i now thought i may have had to question that based on others suggestion for me to get the answer i wanted such as the healthcare from the obama era) i was under a beginning cloud of smokey haze of the end of being a teenager 18-19yrs old i think that was against john kerry and before that maybe al gore no i think that's clinton bill clinton and i thought the losing presidential candidate can be a pretty good answer like romney or trump mccain bernie sanders hillary clinton so i also may have heard distant voices about things like wanting things to go smooth people could get upset about people not voting maybe liking being one term i heard was 'contrarian' seeing the other side being the right one so almost sometimes being confused or antagonistic to winning options so like oth...

 so from luray to harrisonburg where in harrisonburg there are lots of good restaurants to dine the chinese buffet was good so was the american buffet cookout is tasty um other miscellanea a vietnamese pho diner at some stores possible students around guessing and some shopping to do on a day trip here the costco get some frozen food and other things the plain ribs are nice to eat day of the mall the shopping centers i like the michaels i had done painting hobby lobby was good too interested in the barnes and noble also there's a game store that has miniatures i was interested with 5e dnd and for business there's the lowe's chain um and me here for my veterans affairs appointments so getting a dose of the college town different than other surroundings the washington dc feed from before those nights of music the summary analysis of the ceilings and potentials the what's out there and early demos and progress  so thinking of how to get involved remember hearing the summar...

keith richards of the rolling stones the heroine part throw me into a tail spin saw him live and learned more and more kepi ghoulie of the groovie ghoulies saw him at a 10th anniversary of rock and roll hotel he was professional and ready his hours logged and his visual the cartoony  bob dylan have heard many state him as one of the greatest songwriters ever  al jardine of the beach boys figured this was an american response of usa rock and roll roky erickson of the 13th floor elevators thought he was hospitalized and represented a portion of mentally ill demographics richard lloyd of television thought he had a big influence with marque moon  lee ranuldo of sonic youth heard other people mention there reputation virginia names dave matthews municipal waste iron and wine gwar loud boyz some richmond names and others college and cavalier drive claudio sanchez of coheed and cambria a modern rock act another i saw do big things was taking back sunday john nolan and adam laza...

 thus i can do things like what is the political powers trend (remember interracial or retirement) or also as an american i can enjoy the countries strengths freedom of speech and provisions i manage to have my needs met like my paychecks mortgage payments i don't have to go do these cockameeney schemes i came up with writing a phenomenal book being a singer making it in the movies being a renowned painter pursuing miniature hobbies entirely i can actually still sort of do them while also following gov mandates or va benefit rules and do short cuts too sample or template or produce i am free to live how i wish while also following the suggestions of a doctor and my parents aside from that i do have lots of personal allowances and freedoms so some crazy things from foreign parts of the world the rolling stones the beatles hard british rock n roll les miserables french revolution the nut cracker russian theatrics  kraftwerk german musicians  endless overseas celebrities eve...

 suitcase packed 3 days clothes one book to read in bed with the other choice of the tv with youtube my day of outfit with sketchbook and lead pencil in pocket the dog and his cooked hamburger to mix into his meals optional jewelry  so driving up timing my urination with when we stop have some tea bottles brought with me to save money and drink before we stop somewhere so nice meals  the time here so there's the bedroom to stay in there's movietickets.com choices for what's showing there's my brothers place up the street in the suburbs and nightly meals before nightly meds the seven eleven at the top of the hill and the shopping center near the professional building with the second floor suite the good use of the desktop computer at the office so posts tweets blogs um searches that time passing office hours to five drop off the dog before the next eats  so coming here one reference was ronnie wood from the rolling stones he was in the byrds had tours a book i like he...

so i am now at where i believe it is too far gone to back track to starting a family and maybe for my own happiness with liking being single with a dog or um so also mathematically figuring responsibility to my parents and how not to have things fall apart and benefits to my own selfishness  when i went through puberty i may have had pseudo wet dream circumstances maybe that was my aunt or my aunts friend as a possibility having vague memories of throughout my life occasional great dreams of getting ejaculated so then there was a trip to california in sophmore year of high school that also mentioning with travel places there being like a good night orgasm in my sleep that happening in miami in pennsylvania amish country in germany in spain in france um so oh and georgia so those times being before being medicated and being natural um also hearing next generation kids could have the help with getting to goals i set forth but failed at like guitarists or musicians um other media proj...

 so my dad's childhood friend died what i said was it sounded like he died of eating too much pizza this one person thinking of like the fun side and then the other dynamics going on so planning to stay alive and be old planning to keep my benefits um so what's possible thinking of some learned miserly traits like not going to get the great food or now the current med doses can't drink anymore and then also no more free reign with insomnia so the back and forth to that  wanting to and having put some of these projects to starts so  my movies  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCio_8u0O_xzNO4TcHYEhIlA my writing  my hobbies  those things going on with insurance so i'd think of jack kerouac living life wildly freely fun but then too other parts of the story i couldn't do the hitch hiking maybe no caregiver and for me that burning my candle at both ends so there's my parents getting help and me getting help too um but it'd be the freedom and aspiration to have m...

 i had soo much fun there it was like one of maybe the best experiences in my life thinking of how much fun i got into maybe too that being like how i didn't do other things people enjoy marriage family so there'd be like me on the 17th floor in a suite with lots of boys um then gradually and very quickly getting comfortable with the city i'd walk a lot being a pedestrian around campus so i got to spend the night with coeds a lot always with people and a divide the smoking and the drinking then beginning ideas that later would pan out wanting to do projects then seeing the art schools gorgeous side the bohemia the bicyclists the messengers um at that age where i am just out of high school and there's the school's style like the elevator being a college later things are spread out more and how to connect um the fun of the dorms and then too branching out and seeing other peoples places on campus the names grc the mid level complex with a gate johnson the older tall b...