blake uptin

so having freedom getting good sleep um seeing the future in choppy reassurances um some high from things like days at home with food ready as well as a car for any trips my poodle with me something of the grease ongoing studio releases  my healthcare the drugs i take slight refreshing change with blood pressure meds my paycheck having that covered and disability being retired my caregiver my parents and me being useful and good futures my housing and my belongings the vibrant glow my benefits going to the installation getting to shop at the px being a hermit being alone  so too was seeing others with their style my cousins mom in front royal their permanent residence the worn charm of that property and their recognition in town the school seasons that excitement and trends 90s that being there with many of the mil affiliated home owners some pull to their duty station germany korea georgia california africa  so the good buzz um tea to wake up um addiction um sobreity foo...

 so complying with my prescription medication has also made me somewhat outcast (or other reasons photography or producing and people bad loops like spirit breaking or non participation a big riff with the bachelors degree disconnects i am a drop out maybe 3x but also i got my army mos and as repeated paid my debts) so i have my doctors appointments where i talk sometimes about my hobbies and future prepping and then people may avoid me too the 'that guys crazy' (and regional doctor powers other people getting marked or disabled signs of weakness or guilt by association) that was a ga quote and maybe warning how i said i never knew the pharmacy was something for years and the georgia memories maybe surmising some of what came to be for them based on my circumstances and not going that way i was basically avoiding struggles and surviving  i follow the rules to stay applicable with my va pay source i try not to break any of the rules (one time i sold my house and part of that wa...

 so chronicles of riddick that being the lapsed time on the georgia community since i left but other details overheard stipulations like not getting involved or helping despite other things the lesson not leaving a fallen comrade so a holocaust scenario always getting ready for the next chapter at points that hub of traversed space perception changes on the road there descent floating speediness the descent in the white ford transit van with reward treat stops fried chicken and a buffet cues captors and hostages human enemies so other places the big world seeming smaller california europe new york could you walk there then the circles there trains suburbs internet providers different personalities to these places kings in the sky um things to measure by the time the money the repititions freedom through work the education so slavery survival conditioning learnt to stop elders and their ecosystems dead vagabonds breaking and entering strangers and then summaries of prolific life's w...

 so the scene was what's going on today there's the time passing with a window outside and the darkening of days winter um when there was active communities to get into participating with others mingling and even 

 so my professional opinion is my and your parents too if you have them need your help and also maybe the years they grew you being paid symbiotically too so the reason for doing that you shouldn't leave your family dead ended and it'll probably help you too and other stuff so getting double talk or insults at me for the business trip i stay in my parents basement and my visuals on that were maybe too like a story i heard in an old iggy pop interview about when the album fun house was made (that too being just do it with production) but being on the house side the survive and thrive so another was domnic corso of the orwells a guitar player who was family members on the side according to some bios online but um so there's the whole picture another being nellcote france (and my self in my healthy current self thinking of marks others did that i did too i was stationed overseas and wrote a box full of notebooks that were forcibly destroyed in the office dumpster outside) the ...

 so a few times i mentioned things i dealt with in person (couldn't talk to other guests and attacks) that were repeatedly there like maybe what ever reason (unresponded to but getting there pseudo enemies and particular people having their rebuttals) but i moved on and just stayed to the point (write quality content my way for others) so not saying something as permanent (though i could still be done with people a story today was someone telling in double talk the story of a stripper who i don't know who paid but so i thought to well moved on no marriage but someone describing the titties and me i don't want a restraining order and my keith r europe adventure was turned down so that being multiple ways of that loop being not worth going down then the story of georgia i didn't really have any choice to now just flushing writing down the blog for who ever while seeing about networking generating real estate leads also that was a scene in the new movie licorice pizza was ...

 so there can be i am non physically gay (also as i age maybe more tolerance growing early on peoples directness hurting but later um thinking of it too like a drug business or these monopolies that can start from that my non secret keeping a term i once heard the gay mafia) but if there is someone whose attractive a sort of alcohol word i could use was charming i can appreciate it in some context um maybe some barriers in the way my military history being known only as a veteran and people grouping me as that isolation or um maybe some other peoples shortcuts having not found out about different hard learned lessons um i said the smokers could have some coolness but that'd be different than smart um so maybe it'd be how i said i'd do a collab like seeing other people emulate there heroes thinking of my dad like leo d or my mom like lela from futurama um when my brother would watch the rock when he was in wrestling still before the breakout movie career or elicit a tearjerk...

 so this as a confirmation in germany on my own paying my like my hotel stay(s) or my baton rouge from the dealer or my gyros so here's this according to my awol world guide it was i was working as a english guitarist and parts about permanent dwelling in europe so despite even my people followed me there to insult me (i went stagg) about my ethnicity though others friendliness but others accepted me and then later other parts i mentioned the muslim war (non blonde hair or as stated the muslim ethnic) but like someone who at the hotel i played on the balcony of the inner opening garden and other guests and sex before finding a better spot the somewhat hidden place off the alley so there was someone who i gave some toothpaste to who responded i was white and i think there was other stuff going on like my aunt wanting to shine brighter or mislead me lots of those little details about the whole picture and my own mission my own life it started with beatles and stones like weighted hig...

 so i believe my media releases were viewed or accessible i think i had some modest successes i think some of my current reading was notes slipped to me from different leaders and i thought that all my material would amount to back to pseudo welfare like not being some televised celebrity i didn't think maybe in some ways the confusion there's success stories but then too there's reality delusions hallucinations and ghetto releases self publishing  so then putting myself in checkmate there's harvey pekar who worked at the veterans affairs so i rather was retired but then other names clint eastwood to pull from mil celeb names um and to not leaving a story was some social work issue some family member then dealing with a void so the crab bucket story or something  and too there was the story of musing of leaving the country expats um europe but recently a one was word salad and dyslexia too um overseas  it is too like a gamblers delusions though the addiction for exam...

 so i remembered alexandria when there was before the shopping centers had vacancies when business left and closed will that come around and happen again before i paid for my business education and the ramp up for all of that i think i heard the professor i mentioned did the meeting of the minds for me when there was all types of people trying to ruin my life at one point a guitar playing entrepreneur to awful audiences and starting that life but that was the part after i said i got out of debt so that was where i thought there could have been other agreements like not being able to eat the foods offered or support the businesses (some uneducated people violently premeditating and attacking to leave me insulted and inable like when i wasn't allowed to poop in a toilet) but um so with that there's i guess the next picture i saw the people outside fort belvoir all different types a single person the references or the families i'd meet kids connected to the military in school ...

 so i thought i saw the television cable be depressing or have an issue with my parents future so i stopped using the cable (also before that i stopped to a few times but it can be really good when i was growing up with that from nickolodeon to comedy central) though i still have that to pay for the subscription um  however i saw things like a realtor my mom and dad used on another property be old and vibrant or another was older people at restaurants workers too or other places the golfers and another at catholic mass on sunday morning there's some people with their freedom doing just fine as opposed to dead ends that others reached  the internet appears to be working though and i had unknown who was watching but shared my robust content more on the internet cafe um emails chats texts ads advertisements um social media accounts facebook tiktock tumblr youtube studiobinder livejournal linkedin deviantart  so answers for keeping my parents together and other stuff the...

am back and forth from luray to alexandria have good luggage for the trip have a pocket portable sketchbook and a bic lead pencil ready i use at the desk too there were some nice things to make the journey stylish and comfortable with showmanship constant comment tea i got from safeway in the shopping center my nice scarf i got for christmas one year my nice leather jacket my nice nike sb's so a solid outfit with a few button downs and warm layers while seeing what is at the stores to replace the current collection  so what's missing? thinking of another one was the iggy pop and the stooges album fun house the other side the house band that didn't do what iggy did (maybe heard somewhere about the story the royalties check and settling in) such as chicago homeless i thought it was the domesticated and good survival i am around my parents and i have my house in luray so an adult with some good sides too like being single  so no drinking no smoking (though having tics like rep...

getting lead into when i enlisted to today having my benefits social work the ecosystem different circles introduced insurance coverage to avoid troubles meals nice meals to avoid starvation housing plans for the future home uniform clothes nice styles that are available  healthcare doctors appointments medication  pay regular income  aafes and the commissary the shopping the installation representatives mil celeb vets  education training  affiliates benefits family and connections  disability mental illness  caregiving being helped  relocation moving to somewhere else and settling in  toilet access and american life as well as options for elsewhere  burial dental vocation  some non mil life advantage  mania from hunger the story of my schooling to fantasy  freedom some still policed things bosses and powers  so reviewing todays life um being pretty guarded from troubles um some appreciated things in life while also l...

 so two walks the seven eleven and the safeway um other way would be the huntington metro so around there um there's the public high school a street over um the houses we grew up in as kids so seeing houses around here come and go people flipping them um so the car to the highway for some food um fully stocked fridge and freezer so at home could do different hobbies  um so that place tip of belle haven that walk over by the waterfront and old town um the house nice window light seeing other neighbors  drink at night go home office times um accessible to washington dc for excitement um lots of shopping am vets and the big businesses that came things have changed um popeye's and other places  the other people around there who'd been there for longer um skateboards a car um what to do with life there there's drinks groceries um 

 i was at rock and roll hotel one night and i did not see the back story but i see someone who was thrown down metal grate stairs man handled and punched or pushed around so that story what i say is you do that non guest like behavior to me and i can't respond and at other places if you try that you'll be asked to leave and it could get worse people could call the police on you or that story so you're being a giant ahole and thinking that's funny  that's why i never would host a party if i did it'd be a business like the nightclubs i was punctual and professional at it's not cute it's not funny it's liable to get you thrown out or worse  but to my own defense i have been ignorant and given passes before so when i went to dc i basically figured out some stuff for having good times over there (understanding the overhead so i fueled up with beers) and i didn't go to the strip club honorably i was in a web of other stuff another being the drug friend...

 ok so i thought someone could actually come to defend and show that the hearing damage was an improvement one time i saw a crazy story it was over by mr martini and i thought i saw someone like weasely disappear (that has actually happened other times too not good like someone breaking into someones property at night) like they were at this property helping him another being i think the english on it was that direct it'd be someone who can defend you not even going to court and other parts a kill command to avoid getting trapped in a senior center um but so that was some rockabilly protection  so i'd think of maybe comparing to some people who didn't hear the live music like one time people watching i was with my parents and saw some old people at luray caverns who looked like civilians who were law abident and excessive like too neutral sterile but so i thought other stuff came from the hearing damage like learning some kepi ghoulie painting techniques or the affect on th...

 so all during the 2010s i had been going through waves of washington dc nightclubs it'd be picking famous people and paying for drinks and getting driven there and back so my reveal was what i think the correct wormhole was was that i had paid the pro version and previously to this day i was a guitarist so that being other stuff i had chosen to not do so i was well to tell the honest story i'd go to my parents office there was a change from the fort belvoir doctor to later a doctor in a condo so those discussions then after having some drinks i'd go to my house i bought and maybe that was when there was some fading out and disappearing of the interracial sex videos online i'd watch those and basically plan the term a doctor told me was it was called mind mapping but i'd think of little things from each lower list celebrity to pay and go to like let me try to remember some um aaron watson mil affiliation a beneficiary seu jorge french um dead milkmen a video game th...

so there's a group i saw when i tried using the still not working facebook here's it  https://www.facebook.com/groups/574080186017995  so here's some of my takeaway from this there's so many projects out there (look at all the different audiences night clubs high school classmates magazines mtv etc) that are inferior some things like mental illness exposed or gimmicks and other industry stereotypes (legal over stuff) or even other attacks (trendy immature) on it what i mean is these groups from the ninties compiled together like what's wrong with it then others with bigger successes stadiums or other stuff going on so i'd think of things like what's on tv or what everyone knows like t shirts at target i guess in that bin there's the tshirts from the mall too like hot topic so on the one hand there's waves of trends emo screamo metal metalcore hardcore death metal power metal black metal grind core shoegaze indie alternative ambient all those releases...

 so in regards to pre marijuana legalization eras there was things like actually smoking and the access from that like finding unknown drugs the reasoning for that i think also dealt with war like a easier short cut or something  actually running from the police as opposed to dealing with getting arrested and further court date so  another next one was the suggestion of phil dick so one part being like a bird that being thoughtful but um i guess disability maybe some of that was things he saw i could have dealt with or his experience with his dad  trying to remember more maybe one was to join the military after maybe my aunt and him talking or american life  so after that um thinking what's the future hold i think he has a title of va survivor for the vietnam stuff but i guess i wrote up parts about if i'd see him again um things like my record label my movie studio my painting club or writers guild um projects out there

so i previously in a ignorant fashion was somewhat generous and extravagant if i saw something i liked i'd purchase it now there may have been different things that caused that to change like believing muslims could be trying to mess with me or being cheap based on what happened last time (liking the military but that as like a flight path straight to mil from money issues or other stuff like wormholes) so the other night i was understanding something we were having mexican for dinner it was that maybe a story i heard of gene rodenberry a riff about the producer and the stars maybe some of that is like harvey weinstein or thinking of ghetto jokes with dc times like subtle humor maybe mixed on that different things then other topics that like thinking a few things a beautiful piece or a good provider  my brain is going through confusion from the drugs  so there's me with my equipment and time and other stuff my experience but maybe other things in the background those years of ...

 so different lessons such as being spirit broken (trying to earn rank in the military or then too knock out drills) you think of things like arriving at staying under the radar (take the prescription every night just pay who i have to pay or do what i was doing these true logical stories) see maybe previous high scores (um making it through the obama years when there was stuff like people being not only neutered but sexually objectified) so you are not punished (please stop calling the police on me) peoples threats like forcible hospitalization (where you are hurt in different ways drugs pajamas isolation) like entertainment (think of celebs for the reason that seems like a successful reference and the rules stating the citations see ted nugent the wealthy home owner white guitar player) um different ceilings on guitar a rumor chuck berry did 2 years in jail though i don't think he's openly known as a heroine user so that being a boner guy and full time another being here'...

 my family movies through the years have been pretty good with some bounce backs about getting it through but i also thought of collabs with others which names to bring to mind remembering lots of people from the past so i have the equipment but then there's things like insurance or i believe non full time entertainers their non performance retains their american quality of life so that meaning things like their income source that boss can stop them from the producing living  but so there's this people can do stuff like here's one if you hang out with male comrades you may deal with what i didn't find out about but only heard lots of true hearsay was homosexual phobias and retaliations so my experience with entertainment um maybe some of this due to being unmarried also i wasn't i don't think i was some like creepy movie stereotype about a doer  so i am thinking like these different people we could get together and enjoy free fun like different episodes to do a ...

 when i got back there were some initial changes introduction to american alcohol from bars developping a antipsychotic drug regiment after richmond and after georgia after germany um it's new in town old connects gone starting at my parents house before buying in the familiar suburbs  being terrified from a court date that may have solidified my civilian retirement status the food and exercise upcoming holiday projects so becoming the man i am now it'd be the great after party retirement um and disability so there were the doctors appointments and other stuff vocational rehabilitation that program from the veterans affairs the live music some ski trips the dc va hospital being single  coming back no more smoking weed cigarettes or miscellania later some beginnings of production my first movies and learning from the hmgs community having some miniatures so lots of fun and my family doing well helping the company  so some new names to study and adjustments to make no ...

 ok so i thought lately i have food i get with my parents when we go to costco (crab cakes shrimp chicken melts meatballs pb&j pizza singles chinese) so my freezer is stocked with frozen food that can hold me through the month um so i have food there though sometimes the appetite for it is (the work to do it) different um starting up the oven or using the microwave  then i thought like having every dollar i have spent on spent purely on some crazy stuff (things that are like investments or a story in teenage school years saving occasional lunch money while also bumming food from others to buy things from the mall) like toys from walmart also money to buy supplies and other interests guitar but that instead of other stuff like taco bell or seven 11 thinking about fast food so that was a little bit of a lesson from the drug era where i had lots of great treatment one was i didn't have to worry about the stress or scare of punishments i just skateboarded to people with money ...

 so i was thinking how something everyone wants probably being more learning liking certificates getting easily introduced to new training so that like made available with the trades i'd think of real world applications to things so that being maybe work training vocations thinking of my focus on like when there was little bios quintin t teaching himself from watching movies while at a counter at a movie store in california with um undergrad i may think of businesses that surround the students so coffee shops nice chats and going inside from the way there media sales things to use your brain on music movies reading good eats um personalized styles used thrift shops or outlets so for now i am at harrisonburg monthly too so seeing some of that town thinking of different characteristics around virginia schools use of car drinkers walkers bicycles but then too other tourist sites like greenwich village new york or places i've vacationed to miami's south beach  so after high sch...

 so thinking of how i didn't know interracial was a thing that being for example black men and white women thinking like of two at risk for hiv people so what i was getting at was when i was younger it was like unbearable to deal with that secret going on like thinking of old dave chappelle jokes or like being maybe in a friend zone category so this being then stuff like sorted and organized an explanation for the good side of the black white sex was things like smart phone porn or on that note the story that oh most porn women end up with blacks at some point in their career not to get into vulgarities so what the great conclusion was was maybe the reference television the band that being about maybe that um a selfish artist who made his own way so i was sort of getting at that maybe different reasons for it being perpetuated you can't really stop it and too there's like avoiding violence but so another part was thinking of africomm with the army and peoples like lessons f...

 so i was in a off the lease rental with someone in an apartment in richmond but i had a neighbor too so there's smitty whose a veteran from the army but james is from the navy too but so i'd go over to his beautiful young adult pad and we'd do stuff like smoke and play chess but so around that time my first adult election vote was coming up so what i remember him saying was parts about like hints at me joining the military and my dad's distant help with that stuff so a good source of money survival but so there were reasons for like why mccain could make sense and there was violent trending things like the intro to the interracial sex videos or food stamps ebt but so that was my future and too i think smitty was at the wtb at one point and my memory is spotty but he helped me i actually think i was late not registered actually i think i was registered (btw wasn't sure if i got to vote on george bush jr) but it was a write in and i think it was being processed after...

 so i have documentation of my producing (a big one being my 46q military occupational skill journalist public affairs specialist also i think i may have outranked the people sent to disrupt me or other paperwork and experience) so this was where i dealt with police power um maybe different summaries but then too any answer provided being denounced and reneged see jd salinger stories my collection of books written when i was writing my great american novel that i was forced to trash by a stalker gambler um that wasn't exactly new yorker circulations lots of those like here's what i got then reality  so there's recording in public places and cops showing up to tell me me having squirmed out with asking to go home without a court date or threats of other stuff so not being able to do stuff and these like attempted releases being from unknown strangers wanting new releases to not pay for or premeditate and conspire against me  i'm thinking like i don't have a warrant i...

 so about me um i am a guitarist and other stuff i studied and some of my other formats i've done guitarist 6 string american um (previously different inputs i was learning guitar in germany and was abstinent and other time holes maybe mixed back and forth about validity of time travel)  movie director camcorder smart phone art painter um art school lessons and different styles  writer lots of material shared  miniature and other collector display cases  blogger online content out there available  fashion different styles  so up here um let's see the whole diagnostic of the trip night before day before pack up and bring what's needed um clothes pills phone charger reading material pocket sketchbook and flare pandemic mask um other optionals so wake up and caffeine on the road till pee pee somewhere um back to the office desktop so any errands or anything um sleep overs at my parents the downstairs bedroom with the dog service dog  so some of the p...

 it is run by blatant jews (with their own specific descriptions selfish greedy conspiring evil to remember this) and gays also other horrible customer services the attitude the tone so along at one point that direction on the way to the bottom to start that work as opposed to european welfare being sexually vulnerable from hearsay about like world famous celebrities thinking that's possible saying bob dylan was sodomized hints at that so the experience of having a niave dream from horrible aholes without progress and out of the way effort to hurt me being a forgotten clown then to i can't like go buy a guitar with out misunderstandings and then which specific ahole lunatic is trying to ruin my day like erick everhard tucker carlson tucker max that's the white guy dickhead  i didn't get to play a venue but i did do my own open mic for less than 10 minutes on a few occasions thinking some 60s like american responses while keith was being grown (distate for dixie land) um...