blake uptin

sneakers a nice pair of new stylish shoes to wear computers the internet social media  education socializing learning advancing growing as a person being a stoner the culture with it pairing with interests military graduating tradoc twice radio and pao journalism my uploads pictures videos audio shared on my accounts alcoholism the time with washington dc bars  costco saving money and getting ready for the future foodie connoisseurly reviewing eats fast food groceries having a good time smartphone having a connection a car being able to get around insurance having coverage and being safe home ownership longterm housing art supplies creating content  parties gatherings having fun  hobbies skateboarding miniatures practicing things i was into relocation places i've been georgia germany california richmond luray front royal alexandria dc  pay sources retirement disability the neighbor rick other jobs fall different seasons cold and hot summer winter  specific ...

 listened to all the things that can go wrong one example being being safe instead um some things i had thought of while at art school guitarist director actor comedian painter poet writer artist singer producer blogger pianist um so hearing warnings like you're not that good or how it could be pointless issues like selling tickets paying debts accountability um warnings of tatts homosexuality homelessness warrants suicide so i thought my family and i in hindsight and now that i've i had a court case that after that i think that too may have solved some issues for me but it'd be i could bring up other people who stopped too and liking their image for that story dr dre frusciante roky e um but i could fail i could have issues with my parents and brother if i did that it could be selfish it could be problematic it could be stressful i have a paycheck i am retired and disabled i don't need much more i am a home owner i am a veteran so i did hear warnings that it'd be t...

 so the thick goop of drugs and that making walls and protection for me though like i could still hear others telepathy but um not dealing with like psychosis like before being loops the different pressures then insomnia delusions so that to today people checking me for craziness like when i was trying to get off drugs um the other peoples backgrounds social work not at like plays or concerts reality um their maybe age play or theatrics and response to me so to today with the drugs just fine no real issues um and the big help with the paychecks getting paid to be mentally ill so sort of some drug dependence from the antipsychotics and work done from that hospitalizations and thankful for modern healthcare not being bad um so other parts too though using a service dog and also having a caregiver so still a little sensitive or helped 

 so here's a look at 'oh that looks like that went wrong for that person' (things like divorce or 'permanent homeless' the renting way though that too can be navigated for those who choose that) so it was this i think one term would be i'd have to be semi like shawshank redemption morgan f (how i got a second chance though in my life) like the view of my freedom like a prisoner so that being one another being was the maybe like don't try to socialize that being how i saw what i called 'bohemian old men' people with what looked like leases and outdoor dining so that'd be um the mentioned solitude just by myself with my dog other parts no marijuana (when i was harping about that 70s show) what else would be there lumped um try to assimilate maybe like watching cable tv um how much of the hobbies so i think that was a warning of things like not feeling bad if people don't heed the warning (telling people what'll happen like the single male g...

not losing touch with my caregiver and impending dangers from that other people not genuinely having my best interest or safety in mind getting misled or abused  drugs no cigarettes to not get cancer no alcohol to not over dose no marijuanna to not lose my benefits obey the laws  be a good patient be hygienic be lazy take my medicine listen to instructions  assimilate listen to the president be american  being frugal and below my budget having savings (such as for a car or lawyer) not getting into debt so groceries costco bulk um being thrifty thinking of the best clothes to get for durability and style be accountable pay my bills  practice religion donate to the poor box attend mass consecutively participate stay  so what i thought happened to my coworkers in e551 the return to duty going through meps again and how that decision was made mil benefits so from here trying to make todays picture look like the other people i saw such as home owners 

interracial relationships being a normal thing the big political trend during obama being white women and black men having sex on video  mental illness disability the diagnosis for crazy people pharmacies disability and medications  social work different maybe slightly disadvantaged people being out there and sometimes introduced the dynamic with a state worker managing a case  racism some people will not give you a chance some people will be mean permanently two party system divided and also political trends and political powers so assimilating to avoid repercussions  education can also bestow power and forbidden privileges over others the degree certifications can be argued to different ends reality can be a horrible place where horrible things happen and that doesn't change the military (and government) can be a pyramid scheme or other fraudulent or corrupt organization  survival can include lgbtq or appeasements to continue  drug addiction is real and a...

 ok so the summary i read of the subterraneans by the great jack kerouac um poetry hipsters friends bicycles townies socializing publication artistry that whole idea but how can it be done without issues (to mention how i think others got dragged out to mil or other troubles i could portend seeing them in person then guessing what happened to get them where we were at in georgia) um so from where i am at what can i really find to do um there's movies at hoffman center in eisenhower valley there's concerts at the birchmere um there's walking to my brothers house in bucknell then it's my parents basement with youtube and the dog  has my budget and diet slightly changed so for years i'd sacrifice not being able to eat fast food or other premium stuff and focus on costco and events that purity and dedication to my hobbies but now like in luray or the pandemic some of that appears to have changed (new meds no more drinking not being near eg dc anymore um requestioning st...

 so there's things like spanish and catholics the look of that like less television more real life stuff hanging out with others the kids before jaded lessons or public school friendships um the good foods and americanized loud versions too like taco bell so also in broken english i'd think like 'backwards talk' or setups the theatrical but also i'd think not mentioning troublesome parts like the jailed or dead ones um so other stuff smokers (and cannabis) american media icons and current heroes with good futures  some of the other stuff the outdoor workers lawn mowers the hard working construction or other jobs um so the look of church clothes the catholic teachings or uniform styles fitting clothes and looks like references to other stuff like cartoons movies pop culture hispanic networks and then too military so another one being like the rolling stones as a leader the visit in central america that inspiration and the colors the foods the guests for others too wh...